I thought I mattered to you
That there still was something left to save
Scared of life without your presence
Have no choice but be brave
You've made pretty evident
I am no longer what you desire
Wish I knew how you did it
So I also extinguish my fire
You do seem happier
What I want the most
Even if meaning you can only exist
In world as a translucent ghost
Bleeding out until heart's out of blood
Hoping you see
How I care and love you so
Everything you once loved about me
What we had was messy
The one thing I know is that it was true
When I look into your eyes today
Glimpse a sliver of the person I knew
But know things have changed since then
I have made a lot of mistakes
Wish I could take some of it back
No such thing as double takes
Starting to realize our time
Finally has drawn to an end
A portion of me would rather say no
Instead just play pretend
We only get so many chances
Never sure which one is last
Until it is too late and everything you need
Becomes part of the past
The scars left on my feelings
Cause me pain to this day
No matter how long spent apart
Damage determined to stay
We blame ourselves for struggles
Maybe that isn't fair
It is destiny's fault
Creating this nightmare
It seems real this time
You never are coming back
Try to hide my sorrow
I am always wearing black
I call the shade my heart is currently wearing "mourning black"
