i'm considering actually jumping in front of a car
just so i don't have to go home today
i don't want to go
i'm going to be in so much trouble
i could run away
i could jump in front of a car
i could just sit here and not leave
but if i do not continue to exist after today
just know i was in a lot of pain
and that i'm sorry
i wish i could have stayed

don't you ******* DARE mess this up for me, you hear? don't you ******* DARE.

i miss you so much
i can't breathe
it hurts
please be okay
i can't survive without you
my tears are falling
please come back to me

god i have to get out of this place
maybe i'll run to the blue ocean where the waves will touch me with a softer blow than all the hard ones i had to face
maybe i'll run to the forest where the butterflies live in secret and they will whisper all about the unknown
maybe i'll run to the rocky cliff where i imagined flying so many times while the white rose slips from my hand
maybe i'll run to the desert in hopes that all the heat will take the pain from my body
maybe i'll run to the mountains where i'll feel like i'm on top of the world for once and not pushed down under
maybe i'll run away
maybe i'll run to you

like wildflowers growing in the forest

too many words jumbled up in my head
i cannot think s         r               i               h
                          t              a           g                  t

i've been thinking too MUCH

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i'm usually the type of person to forgive people
but i will never forgive you for what you've done to me
you made me afraid of everything
and i hate you for it