she blew me a kiss
as she stepped off into
the deep blue abyss

You showed me a world I thought only for the rich of life, the whole hearted and the free spirited
A place where we only spoke of bliss and lustful things
A place where the honey bees buzzed with curiosity and the blue birds flew free
A place where the tallest evergreens grew endless and the harshest winds blow with a sweet innocence
A place where stars illuminated the nights skies and moons danced around planets like dolls
We fell in love in this place,  madly in love, so as soon as our perfect backdrop was wisked away
We had already realized the love we felt there, would only ever be as good as we could imagine it

Handle with care
It said
On the side of that box
Tend caution
It said
Printed onto that sticker
Fragile
It said
Labels on the glass
This side up
It said
Just underneath the arrows
Pointing to the sky

Breakable
It said
Only after I had been broken

love is our god
but we are each our own
devils

were different people know
we both know that
but can we really make
it through now
together

I am drowning
Gasping for air
Reaching for help
Held down by what I cannot stop
Surrounded by what I cannot bear 
Choked by what I cannot see
Cut off by what I cannot explain

I still love you
I can't live
Without you
So I will stay
For now

Why hold on
To so much
When you know
You will have
To let go

your words held my dreams
in place on the walls of lilac lies
you built around me

I am learning to love my read hair that I cut short, my blue eyes that sometimes look grey, my freckles that bloom in the summer, my left hand which I use to write, my broad shoulders and my thick thighs
I am different, I know
But I am just trying to love myself so tell me if you really have an issue with that

my name blossoms beautiful flowers
as it blooms from you mouth
but is nothing more that a snake
waiting to strike when it slithers
out of his

if you dont swim
youll drown
this lifegaurds off duty
so baby its time to
save yourself

id plant sunflower seeds all over my body
and water them till they grew
if thats what it took me to be happy
to be beautiful

This
is
me

Hiding from the truth
Destroying my youth
Trying to ignore
Hoping it would be no more
Pushing it aside
Crushing my pride
Covering those scars
Locked behind bars
Denying the pain
Attempting to contain
Now filled with shame

We all start as strangers don't you get it
I could love you just as much as i love her but we will likely never meet
I will never know your name or your favorite color or what you like to eat
Because in the end, we all start and end as strangers