It was the blankness
I thought I was losing
I was really just memorizing
Look up baby girl, you're going to grow up soon
& you grow down once you feel the falseness
I wish you wasn't so lost in the reflection of insecurities
I wish you'd see your stretch marks as progression
Baby girl, you'll eventually die in a positive way
You're so universe
I wish you'd comeover on a day my mom works late
I hope you feel more than you think when your yellow becomes blue for a few moments
I'll be green, you'll be flexing that smile
Point your gun at what you can afford
Don't let your parents beliefs affect what you can be
Political talks, that's how you intimidate
I couldn't be hoping for more with you on earth
These bridges aren't worth much to me
This wood only wants to be in you
I hope you'd let me explore inside the lips
Don't let them tell you you're not good enough
Because you always were and the past forgives and strengthens
I'd close my eyes if I knew you'll be my first vision when I open them again
I was just learning myself throughout the way
And you was just waiting for me to pass the test
We dont have to talk through screens cause my lips are smooth during the times I know I'd see you, for you

delusions made me believe i was really living on a platform of some kind,





     now i'm one with nature like a leaf in the wind moving from place to place during autumn.

Finding pain deap in the sea
Deep in the heart
8501
Becoming the one, erasing my dumb, feeling what was numb
The green make her come but don't make her ***
Junk days are done
She made me feel good until I found out she was drunk
What a deception I knew I was done
These new girls are trash and nothing but stunts
Why are your sheets so wet? I just wanted some fun
I was destined to pull the trig when I was aiming my gun
My rights could be a lie but I'm still certain
Could be derogatory to the way you're living  
Oh well

Finding pain deap in the sea
Deep in the heart
8501
Becoming the one, erasing my dumb, feeling what was numb
The green make her come but don't make her ***
Junk days are done
She made me feel good until I found out she was drunk
What a deception I knew I was done
These new girls are trash and nothing but stunts
Why are your sheets so wet? I just wanted some fun
I was destined to pull the trig when I was aiming my gun
My rights could be a lie but I'm still certain
Could be derogatory to the way you're living

I think

Saw God and haven't even died
I saw myself and began to cry
I looked at my mom and fell to my knees
I thought of death and never went through
I got the noose but never tied it around my neck, old news
I was on the edge when I sensed wonders
Studied the universe with my eyes
I felt the wind pat me on my back
I felt the sun hugging me with it's rays
I heard the birds composing for me
I saw God and I was looking in the mirror
I saw us and we were walking together
I saw everything and thought of us as citizens of the universe
I saw you and felt the love
A new kind of love
I felt my skin and walked back
I looked at my palms and saw atoms
I saw God and it was us
I saw God and we are true
I saw God and we are conscious
I saw God and we make it possible
I saw God and I felt love

and so the wind blew dust at my way
I put my hands out to cover my face
Then I realized that... when life throws things at you that you don't even want or expect
You have to let them hit you even if it hurts
Because the lessons will be learned and you will survive anything that comes your way
The first punch is always the hardest
You will live

True colors, born brothers
The ugly is the pretty to a soldier who's seen it all
Have I seen depression? Have I seen it all?
Have I really seen my true sadness?
Have you really seen your mother?
Have you really kissed her knowing that's all she's ever wanted?
False perception
Good intentions
Real decisions
Small connections
When I think of all the love, I'm in trouble
Have you thought of yourself as a king or queen?
Because you are
You've always been in a world that's yours to rule and conquer
We could live, we could become
Always become

I haven't written about anything serious lately. My mind is pretty occupied these days. I really don't know the reason behind MLA format, why deduct points because I didn't double space. I don't know, it's not so important. Everything is blurry sometimes, reality is pretty awesome once you get the hang of it. Winter is coming, I haven't really bought anything warm in a long time. I don't really regret diving into the ocean of psychedelics, I just think it was really stupid of me to get caught up in them. I'm walking by a group of adults smoking cigarettes, I love the smell. I don't really know why, but it reminds me of a lonely winter in a forest. Maybe one day I'll fully understand why I can never write about one subject at once. Until then, the art of life will be in the same paragraph with the art of death. I was reading this artical on the internet, and it said that the most natural way to die is to die the same way you came out from your moms wound; crying and covered with blood. I've thought of the many ways that could possibly happen, it wasn't that heroic. I'm remembering so much at the moment. I never want to feel any doubt, I've had enough of that. I just want to make people laugh with my stupidity, and have a lot of ***. I love sharing thoughts with people, but sometimes I love the satisfaction of being the only one that has access to them. I stopped relying on people this year, I feel different. My priorities are starting to get together throughout time. Keep my heart baby, keep my heart. I found love finally. I used to be buried in whatever feeling that was when we stared at eachother. Although I will never face it, everything I love is going to leave me one day, and that's just real **** I'll say with no doubt, but what's the point? I will always feel for eveything.

I reached 25K views on this website
More than I expected since the beginning
I didn't intend anything with anything by all means
I didn't intend to feel so careless these days
I didn't intend to reach this point with driving in a straight road passing stop signs
The stars don't seem so far away, but they are
My reach isn't so far, but I'll manage
This isn't about the views, this is about sadness and happiness being told in stories on paper
This isn't about likes, this is about sunshines and turning off the light before I go to sleep
I haven't watched tv in awhile, and I tend to get off topic these days so much, there's so much on my chest
Just know that the petition I signed about staying drug free doesn't mean a thing to me
From knowing there's secret forces controlling us from knowing you can only **** yourself to get out of it
There really isn't much to do but to suit myself with my scattered thoughts
Lovers can't really tell that faces change and feelings are the same, there's no one to blame but insecurity in this game
And if I can stay in your mind, everything else isn't anything to me, I'll be blind to anything that isn't you

Don't call me a poet, because I'm nothing but an untitled crippled feeling
don't call me a poet, because I'm nothing but a person who smokes cigarettes to pass time
Don't call me a poet, because I'm nothing but a person who has notebooks full of past suicidal entries
Don't call me a poet, because I'm nothing but a person who wonders if faith should really be put on the shoulders of a sense I can't see
Don't call me a poet, because I'm nothing but a aqueduct of black and white emotions
Don't call me a poet, because I hate writing and remembering things that have affected me, but I don't know how else to vent so catch me spilling blood on paper as a form of expression
Don't call me a poet, because I'm nothing but a person who hasn't made a dollar of a passion he doesn't even think he's good at

I can't face the truth even if I had time for it, honestly

Oh me, faceless trains remind me how foolish I can be, I crave useless years to come for some reason, I question why things happen for a reason sometimes, but I've rose from what I'm feeling from under the umbrella; scared..
I've rose, and everything I'm about to remember these days, can go **** itself.

Troubled kisses and these hickeys are covered, I thought we were just going to cuddle.
Subtle moves and you were pretty boozed.
I don't need to book you, you're already there.
We stare and dare, I cant bare.
We went to Target and time wasn't really a factor.
Time dies, we're alive and I'm letting go of my pride.
I was just talking about time and I loved how you listened to my theories.
We shared a Gatorade, I gave you the first sip because I think it'd be gentlemen of me.
We wore robes around the store.
Parked somewhere dark and talked about everything.
"I want to be the one you dream of"
I don't understand the simplest things.
The normal always confuses me.

long days are becoming more comfortable

things to do

away.... selfish me
let her be
no one to please
enlightenment to seek
dissolution of thought

seeing through the fissures

visiting the empty creeks

totsiens boo

Let it breathe

Let it ease

Let it free

I have the key

Let me cease the moments with nothing but love

Keep me away from jealousy because insecurity comes and goes

Its human nature

Let us feel everything bad and good, balanced

Its human nature

We’re supposed to for the best at the end

Let me feel, let me feel

Feel everything there is to love

Feel everything there is to pain

Feel everything there is to life

Because that's when I know I really lived

i live in orange clouds hovering above beautiful meadows
i ride the train to my city to admire the lights and loud cars
i carry a dozen cigarettes to pass the time until the blue lane arrives
at times I ***** for no reason
I feel like the sky is the only thing that preexist
I roam the crowded streets and sacrilege
im aware of consequences, but a ***** fell off a while back when I cared about a lot
im somewhat double ******* things now
through broken windows I see

WE'RE SO INCLINED
REALIZE IT
YOU'RE IT
YOU'RE HERE
PUT YOUR PHONE DOWN
BREATHE AND LISTEN
FEEL YOUR SURROUNDINGS
I'M SO PASSIONATE
ABOUT EVERYTHING AROUND
WHAT I CAN FEEL AND CONTROL
THERE'S SO MUCH MORE TO EVERYTHING
YOU ARE YOUR OWN DESTINY IF YOU BELIEVE IN YOURSELF
DON'T BE TRAPPED IN THIS HOLE OF ADVERTISEMENT
THERE'S SO MUCH MORE TO YOUR EXISTENCE I PROMISE
ASK ME WHAT'S ON MY MIND SO WE CAN PROGRESS DON'T BE WEIRDED OUT BY IT
ANSWER ME HONESTLY
TELL ME
BE HONEST WITH ME AND YOURSELF
**** GOES DOWN BUT IT'S SO POSITIVE
IT'S SUCH A LESSON TO LEARN FROM
MOVE FORWARD
DON'T SETTLE
I'M SO INTO EVERYTHING TO BACK DOWN
I CAN'T BE STUCK
APPRECIATE
THIS IS EARTH
WE'RE HER FOR A LITTLE WHILE
BUT FOREVER KEEPS THE VIBE GOING
IF THERE'S NOT A FOREVER WE STOP TRYING
IT'S A BEAUTIFUL DELUSION
LET'S KEEP IT GOING
SPREAD LOVE AND GO WITH WHATEVER YOU BELIEVE IN AND ACHIEVE IT BECAUSE YOU WANT IT SO BAD
I WANT TO BE THE BEST
THE WEIRD IS SO YOU
"WHAT'S ON YOUR ******* MIND?"
IT'S SO SAD HOW PEOPLE THINK IT'S A WEIRD QUESTION
I CARE, I WANT TO LEARN ABOUT YOU TO CHANGE PERSPECTIVE
IT'S BAD THAT I THINK IT'S SAD
BUT THE TRUTH HURTS
YOU ARE NATURE
IT'S ALL AROUND YOU
BE WITHIN YOU
THE WIND AND THE TREES
THIS HAS BEEN HERE FOR SO LONG
ON EARTH
THIS IS OUR HOME
DON'T GLUE YOURSELF TO A SCREEN
GET OUT THERE AND BE ONE WITH WHAT'S BEEN THERE SINCE THE START

My liver is slowly dying
It's a sign to quit but I don't think I should
Drafts are reminders of what you are to me
I shouldn't let go of what I lived for
I'm fading into my patience
Red grains, red grains, yeahg
I'm all in for the energy
It is happening again, again, again
12:08 and it is happening again
7/11 for the protein, weird huh? Yeahhhh
My friends for the comfort
My mind for the **** of it
Seriously happening again
Dimensions for us again, yeahhh
Are we connected or are social media?
Visions for the blind, you and I
Music for the deaf, love is loud
God for the hopeless so they'll feel even more hopeless after
LET GO LET GO YEAHHHH
We are drowning, we have to learn to swim
Dancing like I'm possessed in my room
Dancing so gay, so happy, so smoothly
I'm having *** with the air
I'm making out with the random
I bet my mom feels weird telling me "God bless"
I am happening again, yeahhhh
Yeahhh

Forgive me for all that I said.
If you don't, I'd understand.
There's no excuse, I shouldn't have said that.
It's simple but hard, I'm letting go because I can't hold on to this rage.
I have to make peace with everything before I go soon.
I've had some time and I'm fufilled.
Nothing I'd have to say will mean much in a few years, maybe even days.
The thing is, it was always about going with things and observing.
THE THING IS.... THERE'S A LOT TO NOTHING MUCH TO IT.

Why make memories when I'll want to erase them sooner or later
Nothing last forever even if I believed in it
And if pride got in the way of things, I'd rather not be proud of anything
There's days where my random thoughts come crashing down on me like sediments hitting the ground in a valley
A "stay with me" isn't so sure, but I can't ask for the impossible
I can only be sure of death, or a "goodbye" with an empty bottle pills in my hand
I never really got how I started seeing myself in the mirror without feeling anything
Sometimes I feel the need for my face to be seen in the streets even though people don't know it
I share and I lose, and that's why I feel as I go and think of it as a first time
I'll talk about what happened and what will never happen, but that's just me
I don't have much to say tonight, be good

I woke up and felt like I needed to sleep more
But I could not
I woke up and nothing really mattered, it ***** how I have to look through things and see their worth the same way I saw them the night before
I feel like people think a little bit more than they feel
I feel a tornado in my head moving around my thoughts, but they're still intact
I have business ideas, but I have no idea where to even look for help
I dont give a **** from 7am all the way until 3am
My pictures are lame I just take what I like
My followers on insta are thirsty and so is your girl
My friends don't care about the government
My brother makes $37 an hour
My dad still lies to my face even though I'm already grown
My mom doesn't have faith in God like she claims to have
I'm coming back from a bike ride even if the worst happens
My motives were women but the clock keeps going even when you feel a still in your character
I couldn't care less about Benjamins
The faces keep piling but I'm still looking for sales
I mean how can people be so Texas weather when you only feel love for them
I mean 90 degrees to below freezing is a such a hard pill to swallow
My high is drained in cups of liquor I never sipped
My system clean, whistles aren't so clean
And I hope to be on your hit list

You're a floppy disk
I'm just information
Create the way we live
Sacrifice your ego
Overpriced education
I wonder if God put an angel on earth just for me
What is real loss?
I'll never fear loving with my all
I wonder who's not scared of holding my hand for 100 of years
Does anybody really know me?
Little things to cherish, to remember in the near future
The whole "becoming God" concept is being able to compete with something we'll never reach and that's how we become better, I'd like to think so
Probably not
Confidence doesn't exists, you're just scared to go through it
Or does it?
Or is fear really real?
Why post everything about your life through a camera on an app when you can fully live it?
I'll probably make it just to console my **** ups
I'll probably die just to let you know
My pain still lives but I've managed to cope without compounds
My loneliness still haunts but I'm handling it way better
People flaunting like they the realist and I'm becoming distant from love
I loved to love, I need it
I'm stubborn and I dont whether to be ashamed or not
Such a romantic but I can't express it to the wind
Now my past is buried in a hole I wouldn't dig deeper

Look at your friends and kiss them
Look at your mom and hug her
Kiss you older sibling
Kiss your youngest
Tell your preacher I said *******
Tell him I found peace in myself somewhere else
Tell him I dont live for SOMEONE or SOMETHING but my life
I dont want to live life just so I can be judged at the end and fear it
I dont want to fear dying because all of the sins
I want to live by my sacrifices
I want to live it for me
**** is very dull... like I want to feel you and kiss you and touch you and just sense you not just ****...
Theres so much that hold us back from loving eachother like judging color and race or differences.. get to know them
theses so much energy that we can't even access in this form
You're human I'm human, lets be together and love
Every interaction should be loving and compassionate
The only thing we're looking forward to in life is dying and going to heaven
I'm not with that
I'm wanting to live in the moment and love everything
School is not a place to get through life
It's learning that will
Its crazy
Some people at my school want to commit suicide
A girl at my school is getting ***** at home
A boy is questioning his sexuality
If your likes makes you happy don't be scared to say them
Lets live instead of just existing
Lets let of our pride and forgive
Appreciate and act on it

Life's hack's a pill
Fall back for a minute, what's the deal?
Building love in a still
Sharing love on the web instead of showing care in the real
Burning bridges and we build
Overtime I lose the guilt
Can't enjoy if the worries are the bills
Spending time making things better, by the little

How did I get this far?
Distorted vision
Collision for some sense
Love that I didn’t remember when I slept
Could’ve forgotten the tears that been wept
Regret to be swept
Socially inept when I ponder about my end

man in the mirror
who else can I depend on?

wipe the thoughts from my mind to "be" a little clearer

once upon
a time
rewind
no lexicon

to describe

my love beyond the stars up above

                         para ti

out and about with no doubt in my steps
out to test the handles to manifest
                                   (ideasoutthefuckingdomeandIsaythatwithmychest)

excuse the ego, it's probably best


(sometimes I feel like I'm living like I'm holding on to the weakest set of limbs)



when the chances are thin, nothing to limn


reach within your inner vim







sitting here before work

10:31 am

I go in at 11


haven't gotten dressed yet

drinking coffee

listening to music

about to get my **** in


tonight I might get some ***** in


but recently the tears make me feel like I'm



losing.....


but that's just.... overthinking



what am I thinking?


I need to get ready for dat werk werk

racetrac clerk clerk


putting in that fookin werk werk


crazy **** ****

dunk my nuts on your face like I'm dirk dirk

okay I'm going to get ready




                 now

mu...




ah

my father used to play the guitar and my mother got tricked into delivering drugs to the u.s.a
im confused from who im destined to be, i doubt I'll inherit anything
so far both of my parents think im weird
i guess its the way i sit in my backyard, and paint the sky with hand motions,  
i guess its the way i lock myself in my room because company distracts me
i guess its the way they conceive my actions as,
i guess its because i never tell them where i go when im out for 3-5 hours on my bike              
i guess its because i like to spend all night awake just to have alone time
its funny how my parents haven't noticed i do such things, to make them proud
are my paintings a little too colorful for your vision?
is my form of writing a little too misunderstanding?
or are you just not as open minded to things
i look back at both of your pasts and feel misery
hoping your child will make you happy
mother, father, you've created a regretful blessing
mother, father, you've created a so called scumbag artist who only cares in pleasing people and his cannabis strands
mother, father, your son is sick of being called crazy at home
mother, father, your son can't tell both of you anything without being judged
mother, father protect me from the kids at school who call me weird, the wound is deep enough

destiny has betrayed my hopes
im not sure to let things go
or to hold them tightly
is it always my fate to feel lonely?
i seek no guidance in whats meant to be
i listen to new beginnings knowing struggle is upon my next footsteps
the plasm of existence is on my shoulders
the creation of walking through rocky roads,
is the struggle to see the light
when i come home promise me
supper will be on the table, and unspoken prayers are shouted to the hands of God and seen in mysterious ways along the way

when i became a menace to myself,
i found myself voluntarily doing the impossible
and the only possible action i could do is breathe and hum along to songs,
rhythmic patterns that build me and straighten my knees up
my eyes were looking down at the fractures on the earth, looking at my fingers stick out the dry yellow dead grass
my degradation was thought to be six feet below
i’m 5’6 and my fingers sticking out were reaching towards a tower of magic and happy prisons
dreams of sceneries, full of laughter and reassurance
full of trust and rich environments
and not even a trickle above a gram of *******, can make you seem this close to Gods feet
and you’ll share playlists to the ones who want to fly without wings off of buildings
and re-up for their sake
you’ll see the variant in the sky you cried to for years
and arrogate your state of emotion
you’ll be gone

when i became a menace to myself,
i found myself voluntarily doing the impossible
and the only possible action i could do is breathe and hum along to songs,
rhythmic patterns that build me and straighten my knees up
my eyes were looking down at the fractures on the earth, looking at my fingers stick out the dry yellow dead grass
my degradation was thought to be six feet below
i’m 5’6 and my fingers sticking out were reaching towards a tower of magic and happy prisons
dreams of sceneries, full of laughter and reassurance
full of trust and rich environments
and not even a trickle above a gram of *******, can make you seem this close to Gods feet
and you’ll share playlists to the ones who want to fly without wings off of buildings
and re-up for their sake
you’ll see the variant in the sky you cried to for years
and arrogate your state of emotion

I'm on the bus going to the airport, the view's pretty cool.
My mind looks like a writers paper when they have writers block.
I'm not scared of much anymore, just faces in my heart turning into gaps.
I'm waiting for a spark of creativity but I can't seem to light anything right now.
I feel like an empty lighter waiting for a miracle to happen, hoping to light a nicotines addict cigarette.
I wonder why time tends to fast forward when I finally realize and cherish.
The plane ride is going to be a *****.
Not the one with big ***** at least .
Nothing a ***** boy can get.

it's 6:08 am
the gym is a little empty today
old faces
young faces
mostly old
the women with no husbands are a little odd
they know the pain they went through
but did they handle it?
could their hearts be wandering while their body is still here? trying to fit in, in this gym of moving people?

it's usually loud in here, the radio isn't working today
gratefully
but i think people appreciate listening to their efforts, subconsciously

one can hope, one can dream, but we all can
but are we living these concepts?
i can't say i'm lost in thoughts, because i know how far i'll go down this road of questions and "answers"
1 question creates a thousand and one more

if my rights are wrongs, doom me, for I am comforting minds within themselves
surroundings and experience influence, I will go through pain to make you feel secure, be what you desire
if the world disapproves your sexuality and says its wrong
accept yourself for what you are, and be right within you
Because your impact is greater than what you think it is
Not being afraid can influence people to get rid of freight of expressing what they've always wanted to be or do
if you ever feel doubt in your guidance on the road
know that youve impacted the silent
and if you give up, their hope will be gone
be someone's help or hope, someones life progression, create gateways
Smile to the malignant, you'll see reflections soon enough
Feel at home in your mind, feel welcomed
The rooms that make your home are the interests that make you, love what you do with passion because you've impacted me to write this, to reach many others like you that can do the same
The love for a hobby can trigger someones passion, to do the same, to do the right, to progress as a whole
to help people, to help communities, to help the the world, to break barriers
purpose is to serve
Purpose is to make a purpose
for the ones who need guidance in their purpose
anything can create, innovation in humanity is within you
with your will anything is possible
be gracious, for you have potential to change lives, to change perspectives
your happiness can make happiness all around your surroundings
your actions are impactful chants, scream
dont be afraid to show your emotions in expressive ways, thats what makes the world
its defined by you, do good
its the little things
that can make a little road create highways and routes in lives; options
You are glorious even if you're corrupt
sadness and happiness are glorious and im happy to be passionate about people, like you, all of you
Dont be afraid to break barriers with your passion
Dont be afraid to break barriers with your love
You are possible of doing anything
You are someones road to take
To be saved
To accept themsleves
Inspire and motivate
You are the art of progression

I left you because I couldn't even deal with myself
I guess it's because I helped you forget about what you really felt
Introspect so you could dwell
Spiritual healing, no need to reach a psychiatrist for help
Unlocking ourselves from these media cells
At the moment I see it in your walk that you're full of misery
Just cause I don't miss you doesn't mean I don't wish you well
In time you'll realize, everyone has been God
Visions from the past, weary brain
Timid dreams troubled teens 17 but living kings in this vivid theme
Afraid of the risks
Don't be like her
It's all a blur
Don't clear it up
Diseased since birth
It's not your fault
When it hurts let it burn
Keep going and never turn
Keep what you see and feel to learn

Televising lies and I'm here painting a truth that won't be documented for people
My words aren't going to go that far
Who knows, a thousand years from now people will be looking at the stuff us writers write on this website and see it as an old testament
We're so in it and we don't even notice it
It was always about letting go of right or wrong
It was always about following your senses because they were mine
Yours
We ran on us
We ran on us
We ran on us
WE RUN ON US
On our delusions
On ourselves
Our love
Our will
Our God
Our us

(hard to love myself when I found myself in you)

Wondering if I’ll go to hell
In my thoughts will I dwell

A beginning
Empty

been trying to sleep since 8:50
a productive day

morning jams
afternoon workout

40 minutes of jumping rope
Thank you Rupert Spira

But I’m here again, crying and the reason is a thought that I let consume my days

loneliness

I miss her

Moments of awesomeness

Moments of overwhelming sadness

The days will go by

I’ll talk to you whenever

Could be tomorrow

Keeping busy

This change is one of a kind

One that makes me want to erase my mind

Start anew

But we can only go forward from here

WE'RE SO INCLINED
REALIZE IT
YOU'RE IT
YOU'RE HERE
PUT YOUR PHONE DOWN
BREATHE AND LISTEN
FEEL YOUR SURROUNDINGS
I'M SO PASSIONATE
IF THERE'S A WILL THERE'S A WAY
ABOUT EVERYTHING AROUND
WHAT I CAN FEEL AND CONTROL
THERE'S SO MUCH MORE TO EVERYTHING
YOU ARE YOUR OWN DESTINY IF YOU BELIEVE IN YOURSELF
DON'T BE TRAPPED IN THIS HOLE OF ADVERTISEMENT
THERE'S SO MUCH MORE TO YOUR EXISTENCE I PROMISE
ASK ME WHAT'S ON MY MIND SO WE CAN PROGRESS DON'T BE WEIRDED OUT BY IT
ANSWER ME HONESTLY
TELL ME
BE HONEST WITH ME AND YOURSELF
**** GOES DOWN BUT IT'S SO POSITIVE
IT'S SUCH A LESSON TO LEARN FROM
MOVE FORWARD
DON'T SETTLE
I'M SO INTO EVERYTHING TO BACK DOWN
I CAN'T BE STUCK
APPRECIATE
THIS IS EARTH
WE'RE HERE FOR A LITTLE WHILE
BUT FOREVER KEEPS THE VIBE GOING
IF THERE'S NOT A FOREVER WE STOP TRYING
IT'S A BEAUTIFUL DELUSION
LET'S KEEP IT GOING
SPREAD LOVE AND GO WITH WHATEVER YOU BELIEVE IN AND ACHIEVE IT BECAUSE YOU WANT IT SO BAD
I WANT TO BE THE BEST
THE WEIRD IS SO YOU
"WHAT'S ON YOUR ******* MIND?"
IT'S SO SAD HOW PEOPLE THINK IT'S A WEIRD QUESTION
I CARE, I WANT TO LEARN ABOUT YOU TO CHANGE PERSPECTIVE
IT'S BAD THAT I THINK IT'S SAD
BUT THE TRUTH HURTS
YOU ARE NATURE
IT'S ALL AROUND YOU
BE WITHIN YOU
THE WIND AND THE TREES
THIS HAS BEEN HERE FOR SO LONG
ON EARTH
THIS IS OUR HOME
DON'T GLUE YOURSELF TO A SCREEN
GET OUT THERE AND BE ONE WITH WHAT'S BEEN THERE SINCE THE START
WHY ARE WE SO INSIDE THIS BUBBLE OF JUST MONEY
THAT'S NOT FULFILMENT
YOU KNOW THAT
SPREAD YOUR PURE NATURE
NOT FOR THE MONEY
DON'T LET IT CONTROL YOU

Love is framed
We shape it with actions
Define it with questions
We take risks and learn
We learn and use
We use and satisfy
We satisfy and think it's enough?
Define enough
Enough shouldn't even be real
Your excellence shouldn't be enough
Your thoughts shouldn't be measured
You're so capable of everything
There's so much will
MAKE YOURSELF A ******* LADDER AND VISIT THE STARS
FEEL THE SUNS HEAT ON YOUR SKIN WHILE YOU'RE UP THERE
HAVE *** WITH YOUR GIRLFRIEND THEN GO READ A BOOK ON CONSCIOUSNESS
Imagine the ideas you leave out on a daily basis....
I'm building my home with mine

Black vans
I've been around my neighborhood with them only to see that the people that lived down the street sell drugs and have two adopted children
I dont really know how that works out
Nor do I know how my mother and father worked out for so long
They both seem too different
My sister and I are 5 years apart and I wonder how my mother kept my father around for so long
I hear relationships don't last after the first child
So I wonder what kept the *** going
And I wonder what keeps me going when relationships don't workout after they find out my secrets
I wouldn't have had kept going if I was my mother
Then again I wouldn't be here
And none of what I've written could be true
Maybe I could give my accidental birth some purpose in which I am yet discovering

somewhere in between a second ago and my next step
something that doesn't need to let go because there's nothing to let go of
only to understand

layers we can't fully experience, but know

simply having trust in the dissolution of thought


(but sometimes I see your face in my head for 3 seconds and it brings me to a state of distraught)


no palladium for me
a free being, same as the energy that flows with the leaves
no conversations regarding what a nuisance I was with no decency

that was then

and change is now, every millisecond

how could we possibly
p     re

ten
d.

??? (!!)

no genocide in my atmosphere
i live in abandoned creeks where the trees purify my gray tobacco filled lungs
the valid is everywhere
indulgence to color black and white stories
im a boy with the mind of an 86 year old ex drug addict with a flame in his heart being put out by a girl he lost his virginity to
my rebellious ways are triggered by the raking of my joys being taken away
i carry balloons in my backpack to show people that even if your physical state shows bags under your eyes,
inflation of colourful ideas can be put out whenever through experience in this realm of fullness of time and self narration to any destination

So her hair grew long
Bit her nails nervously on the daily
and so did the memory of her lover who had left without saying anything about his farewell
All she remembers were his last words, "I want you to be happy and that's all... with or without me... you will prosper my darling"
He looked at her and his neck twisted slight to the right
beeeep....beeeep.....beeeep

and so he rest forever in a universe where they guide the lower consciousness with signs in the sky that read
"life goes on"
and so it does
and so you will prosper
You will live with misery and joy
In the end, let yourself fall into a pit of hope that one day you will see you other half in bed, naked
Forever the love is in your hands
So will her heart be on your mind
and yours on hers
The scars will heal within the love you build during the moments you wish you cherished when all goes wrong

LOOK UP


There's a star for you


and it will glow for you


Forever

if you don't go crazy at least once in your life


you will die in a crazy way......

if you think too much you wont get **** done.