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Belle Nov 2014
Something's not right
I can't sleep at night
Dread at the pit of my stomach
Doubts, all stack on the rack.

In my mind, alarm bells ring
my heart knotted with strings
Whispers that you are not one,
That I should get away and run.

Turn back before I am left with nothing
or continue the free fall of uncertainty
My soul constantly screams for liberty,
at your mercy, I refuse to be.
Just a thought to liberate my mind.
Belle Nov 2014
One glance started it all.
Everything faded in the background.
You stood out amongst all souls
I think I have finally been found.

The next day you said hello
I was speechless. I just smiled.
I walk past you with a skip on my toes
My heart just soared a thousand miles.

The next week we were going out
Two souls dancing in the crowd
It was almost, almost a fairy tale
Oh! My heart was beating so loud.

The next month I finally said yes
When you asked if I could be your girl
I was wearing this pretty red dress
Under the night sky, we kissed and twirled.

The months to follow were eternal bliss
Every single moment I wouldn't miss
You are a knight that swept me off my feet
For me, you'll launch a thousand fleets.

A year and two, time just flew.
To jump a cliff, I'll do it for you
But then I saw with my own eyes you kissing another
and finally, I knew.

Hurt and betrayed, I couldn't grasp
How my love could shatter my everything
Swollen eyes, red nose, voice so rasp
I was left empty. It hurts! It stings!

An eternity went by and still helplessly trapped
A lost soul that has met it downfall
Yearning to turn back time and stop
the one glance that started it all.
:(
Belle Nov 2015
Had I been born a man
I'd choose someone like you.
Refreshing and bright like the sun
with a gentle smile that could illuminate
my world that has long been desolate.

Had I been born a man
I'd take care of someone like you
An oasis in the middle of a dessert
You quench my inner draught
You are the one true elixir
that I have long sought.

Had I been born a man
I'd love someone like you
For you are not hard to love
Your heart pure as dove
And I vow, with my heart and soul, there will only be you. Yes. Only you.
There are moments I wished I had been born a man. To be able to give a woman the kind of love that she deserves.
Belle Jul 2015
Realizing this isn't a dream is what breaks my heart.
These things should only happen in nightmares -
Where I suddenly wake up with a start
and say 'Thank God it's only a Dream.'

But it's not.  Fate is too cruel.
I was given a void that ***** my entire being.
A pawn fighting a queen. Am I that of a fool?
Or should I hope for another Spring?

A marionette by day and a ragged doll by night
Empty soul, cool eyes, a heart that stings,
Under the sun, A smile to make it all right,
At the end of the tunnel, will I ever see the light?
The moment when one truth shattered all the things you believe in,
Questioning if love shown was genuine.
Waking up everyday with a heavy heart and a lodge stuck in your throat.
Crying in front of someone who won't tell a soul
Belle Dec 2014
We've barely felt the sun rays
When the shadows took over
I've let you hold this heart
But you just let it shatter.

Shaken and battered is the ground
Where the roots spread and grow
Wind, quake and hurt bound
Breaking in a single blow.
When I was a kid, I had a field trip with my classmates in an amusement park. I was walking relentlessly when a certain doll caught my eye. For a child like me, acquiring it would be the greatest gift of all. And so my dad aka chaperone bought it for me.

I was enjoying my time at the park but I was already  imagining ways of how I would play with that doll as soon as I get home - I would comb its hair, fix it's make up and dress it all up.

I explored that park and rode the ferris wheel last.  It was the night I discovered that I have fear of heights. I was crying when we were on top of the wheel. Relief poured through me when the ride was over and I was just longing to go home.

On the way home, I opened my bag to look for my doll. To my utmost horror, it wasn't in the bag. It was then I realized that I left it in the ferris wheel. :(

The feeling of excitement and anticipation dissipated like bubbles in the wind. All that was left was major dissapointment and plain sadness.

Just like that doll, love has given me dissapointments. I expected and planned too much only for it to be taken away before things even began.  

In the end, I could say that life ***** sometimes. We can't change it. But we can control how we react to it.
Belle Nov 2014
My orbs sought yours
Amidst the same old crowd
Waiting to connect
To create a sound so loud
An instant glee
This soul thirsts for
Just one look at me
I won't need more.
Belle Jun 2019
Goodbye to what we had
And what we'll never be
A token for our sanity
is small part of you for a small part of me.
Saying goodbye is the hardest.
Belle Jul 2015
How beautiful it is to be silent
when someone expects your anger
And how beautiful it is to smile
when someone expects you to shed tears.
Belle Sep 2017
Just because I'm a princess does not mean I need a knight
For in the depths of my being, I am already one.
To not be lost, I have no need for the moon and sun's light
For my heart shines brightly, all doubts crushed and gone.
Fairy tales often tell us there is a prince charming just waiting to swept us off our feet; a knight to fight our battles for us; a fairy god mother to grant us every wish. For so long, I believed this to be true. Only in the latter part that I've realized, that this belief is twisted. It sways us from the real fact that the strength to battle any hardships comes from within. We may get support from outside, but In the end, all left is ourselves to protect ourselves.
As we were born alone, we must learn to fight alone too, occasionally.
Belle Jul 2015
But it feels like forever.
From strangers to friends
To friends to strangers
You're both the reason
For my tears and laughter
One thing will never change
I will love you forever.
A couple of years ago, I was asked to sing 'Someone like You' by Adele in my singing workshop. My voice coach told me, "Think of the time you were heartbroken while you sing this song to make it more meaningful." And I told her "But I've never been heartbroken."

Now, maybe I can finally give justice to this song. I finally know what it feels like. - an emotion that eats me from inside out.
Belle Nov 2014
A pool of unshed tears triggered from the past.
Wounds in the heart and sorrows so vast
The stronghold that we built shattered so fast
A bubble in the wind that burst & didn't last

I furtively peeked at the window of yore
My mind was gleeful. I though I could soar
For I saw us.. Laughing with amour.
Joyous emotions filled us to every core.

But the water has long passed the bank
It was nothing but memories in a trunk
An enormous ship that had already sunk
Below the deep waters that held nothing but black.

This journey is full of altered paths
where each of us must occupy a slot.
Though our euphoria was covered with blots,
One thing I promise, I will forget you not.
We all have this one friend whom we though we will be with forever.
Yet as time passed, the gap slowly widen and rift ensues.
Belle Aug 2017
Thrice on July
I have cried.
The *** are filled with your lies.
Yet here I am, still at your side.
No matter how much we have been lied to, we cling to the fact that this person will change.
Belle Feb 2016
In a desolate world that I am wrapped in
Where else could I find light but from within.
Belle Jun 2019
Love me or hate me
Either way, you are thinking about me.
Belle Sep 2016
In this world full of lies,
there must be someone you could trust,
someone who does not wear a mask.
There must always be someone whom we could rely on. Our rock, our anchor.
Belle Nov 2019
I miss the way my hands clutch your face
Like it was mine in the first place.
but you're not mine
Sun
Belle Mar 2016
Sun
I look upon the rising sun
As I feel the warmth touch me
I could only look from afar
Drinking all my eyes could see
Belle Aug 2015
Her tears speak the things
that her voice cannot.
Like right now.
Belle Jun 2019
The night flies
As we exchange phrases
That exuded colorful emotions
Dousing ourselves in laughter
Entwining ourselves in laces
Tomorrow does not matter.

Just this moment in frozen bubble.
No one falters, no one stumbles.
Those late nights of deep conversation.
Belle Jun 2015
I love you more than you love me
Just the thought of  you kept me from the wrong way
You are the only person I see
Got past all demons, I have not strayed.

But why didn't you do the same
You have once again stabbed my healing scar
For you, is this all just a game?
No turning back. We are more than marred.

Goodbye is a hard thing to say
When I think all the good memories that we had
But that alone couldn't fill the gap
You have lost me. When you chose to fall into a trap.
It is human nature to want what we don't have. Once acquired, we lose interest, take it for granted and seek for another chase.

True love counters this. It is valuing what you already have. Not when you no longer have it, you just realize its worth.
Belle Nov 2014
I asked you a question
I already knew the anwer
I know it will hurt no matter what
words from your mouth will be uttered.
Sometimes, the truth hurts. But knowing a person lied to you hurts even more.

Some people want to believe a simple lie than the complicated truth.

I am not one of them.
Belle Sep 2016
I guess I won the stupid fight of "I love you more"
Can love really be measured?
Belle Nov 2020
Sa iyong paglisan
Ako’y malungkot na naiwan.

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