Nobody Knows
Nobody has a clue
They think they do
But never shall they never know what i go through

Yes. Thats what this is.
A Beautiful dream.
Something that only happens in our imagination.
Something that one can only dream of.
But we have it.
So lets treasure it.

Lying is common.
Most use it daily.
Some to get out of trouble.
Some to hide something they did.
Or how they feel.
How they truly feel.
People ask if they are okay.
And they say yes.
Not because thats how they feel.
But because its what everyone expects.
They expect them to be okay.
Not to be truthful.
Not to say how they truly feel,
A lie is common.
It masks just like a smile.
It makes others happy.
Content.
Which is good, of course.
But it doesnt help the pain.
A lie is a mask.
I hate lies.

You, my love, are amazing.
Your laugh is like a sweet candy for the ears.
Your smile melts my heart.
When you look at me, i can only stare at what i want to be.
What i have always dreamed of having.
When you call me "Boo" or "Babygirl" all i can think of is how you have chosen me
me
to be your lover,
your partner
the one to show your love to.
im amazed at your beauty
by your stubbornness.
And i love every piece of it.
I love you baby

A smile has a pro and a con.
It gives others happiness, and then they smile.
But a smile can be deceiving
It may not show all that is there.
People can smile all they want,
But there are those who can see behind it.
See your pain.
They want to help, but you wont let them.
You wont let them in.
A smile has a pro and a con.
It can mask your pain and suffering
Make it seem like its not there.
It can also show those who step on you
Those who give you hell
That they cannot hurt you
And they could stop
Stop you from hiding your pain
because once they do
there will be no pain
A smile has a pro and a con
It can be either a mask
or true happiness
Never see a smile
and think
that they are happy
Because there may be a day
When you really realize
They are not

The song of innocence stopped when she screamed.
She screamed out of fear.
She knew she did something forbidden
The song of innocence played for a man,
And the bird sang as the man ran,
And the bird sang as the man fell.
The song of innocence soothes the ears of a girl.
A girl who listens with curiosity
A girl who grew up to be a woman

When i see you, i cant help but smile.
You let me forget my worries, if only for a few moments.
Your name is so unique and adorable.
Im glad you dont read poetry.
Im so quiet, and you are so loud and outgoing
what makes you like me?
Opposites attract?
Im horrible at sports,
while youre making every basket.
Our lives cant be more different.
But i love it.
Me, the book nerd
and you, the athlete.
Whats in store for us?

You help me when im at my worst.
Even when we werent together you were there
You were my best friend
And you still are
You listen to my rants
You dry my tears
You defend and protect me
I can see
Actually see
That you love me
Your actions make your words true
You help me see the beauty in myself
You take any doubt i have about my abilities away
You bring my smile to my face
And when i smile
It is true
And pure
All because of you.

I look past your darkness,
your demons,
and i see your light,
your angels.
And they are here to save me.

I love you so much.
You are not alone anymore.
Let me help you fight your demons

Fear of losing someone dear
Fear of injustice
Fear of a strong man
an abusive man
Fear of the dark
Fear of a house
Fear of a mysterious man
an unknown man

Where is everyone?
He walked down the empty hallway
I guess everyone went home...Thats where i should be
'Frank?' rang a voice through the corridor
He froze
Who called my na-It cant be
A boy about the same height turned the corner.
Please. I cant do this right now
The shadows danced as he raced the other way, chills from the familiar voice going down his back.
Run. Faster!
'Frank, wait!'
why did i stop?
Frank turned around to see the boy he loved and feared.
Go away
'Frank. I need to talk to you'
Just turn around and walk away
'Want to get some dinner, Frank?'
why cant i move?
'Frank, come on. I know youre mad. We can talk this out.'
Its too late. I have already tried that
'Im sorry. Can you forgive me, Frank?'
I did the first time...
'I wont do it again'
...And the time after that...
'I promise'
...and you still hurt me.
'I really am sorry. I never meant to hurt you!'
Lies, and i know it
'Please Frank. We can talk about this.'
So why do i want to forgive you?
'Answer me, Frank! Dont just stand there!' The boy yelled, tearing up.
Why do i want to hug you, and tell you everything is fine?
'Frank? Please baby!'
why do i feel this way when i let you into my heart...
'I said i was sorry! What else do you want?'
...Why did i let you hurt me?
'I love you, Frank! I always have!'
Why do i want to scream "i love you too" and forget everything that went wrong?
'Frank, I promise i will never do it again. I will never hurt you like i have'
Its a big cycle. A cycle that wont end.
'I will n-never s-strike you or yell or anything.' The boy said, sobbing.
I love you. I dont want to lose you. But you hurt me. How can i love someone i fear?
'I promise, love. I promise!'
What do i do?
'Forgive me! Please Frank! Please say you forgive me, baby.'
No
*Yes

I know
im a goody goody.
i clean after myself,
and sometimes others.
i hold the door open for any and all
and i hate being late.
But you,
you my love are just the opposite.
you get into fights
you curse
you are someone i would avoid a year ago
but now i cant get enough of you.
my heart leaps when we touch.
our kiss is perfect.
you, my love,
you are something bad for me.
and i love it.

You ******* lied to me.
you said you loved me.
you said i was the only one.'
you said you feel for me
and that you cared.
you told me you loved me.
and i believed you

No phone, no facebook.
Simple, old fashioned email.
When we arent together, thats what we do.
Whether its setting up dates,
or just passing time.
My heart leaps with joy when i see your name
up at the top
waiting for me to read it.
i dont care if it takes longer.
this is something unique to this relationship.
to us.

Today was horrible.
Just the worst.
Just like yesterday,
and the day before that.
Right?
No.
Life may have its downs - some days more than others.
But think.
Just Think.
At least one good thing happened.
Just one.
Talked to an old friend?
Someone complement your hair or clothes?
What about your favorite artist?
They release a new song or album?
New book?
Did someone dare to smile and wave at you?
Just think.
Life is not only downs.
As the days go by,
It gives us ups too.
Just think.
When you woke up,
when you got to school,
When you got home,
on the bus
or an the path,
or in a car.
Who did you see?
What did you see?
What did you think?
Was there fear?
Anxiety?
Maybe there was.
But Just think.
About those happy thoughts.
Those happy times you had.
Because they will be back.
Just give it time.
Just Think.

Luck is not my thing.
It never comes my way.
But when i look at you, my mind is changed.
I see your smile
i hear you laugh
and i know i am lucky to call you mine
You hold me tight
you kiss my lips
you say "i love you" and i know you mean it.
the way you held my face and leaned in
my heart melts at the thought of you
I love you
please dont leave

You saved me, my angel
you lifted me up and held me tight
you kissed my forehead and looked into my eyes
you said, "I love you" and i know you meant it.
You saved me from loss and misery, my angel
and no matter what i do
there will be nothing that i could give you
that will return this blessing

I am not afraid of much
but you brought so much light into my life
that my fear is now becoming a fear of the dark

Im a newbie with everything.
I cant play instruments or video games
i dont sing or play sports.
i can barely cook.
And here you are,
having tried and excelled at almost all of it.
you, my love, are amazing.
and here i am.
a newbie at even high school.
what caught your eye?
what made you love this girl who does nothing but laugh at everything?
What makes you love me?

Im scared
i hate to say those words but i am
youre the best thing to ever happen to me
youre my light to the day
and the stars to the night
you bring happiness into my lonely world
and come this summer,
i may never see you again
please dont let this end

You made me feel different
Beautiful
You loved seeing me shine
Seeing me smile
You said that i was the only one
That you would never leave me
Leave me alone
You were jealous
Scared that i would find someone new
Someone better
I told you i wouldnt
but you werent the one who shouldve been worried
I was
You thought you loved her more
I thought she made you smile
Made you laugh
I guess I couldnt
That's Okay
Go with her.
But dont come back to me.

The Moon shines bright
As it does each night.
And when you look up at the moon,
You see the stars, and hear the bugs of June.
The midnight air is warm,
The wet air leftover from yesterday’s storm
And as the day ends,
Another begins
And leaves yesterday’s storm behind
So that we can clear our mind
No longer bearing the pain
No longer bearing the fear
As you look up at the moon,
You see how beautiful it shines
You see how beautiful the stars are,
Shining beside the moon
Shining down on us
Showing us the peace
The warmth
Giving the escape long needed
The moon and the stars
Shining down from afar
The moon and the stars
See how beautiful they are
Just like you

The strings tightened their grip on her wrist.
She couldn’t fight them.
She needed help.
The knives were so close, yet so far away.
If only she could reach them.
If she fought hard enough
She could.
It’s happened before
They have escaped before.
They fought, and they won.
But there are those who didn’t win
Those who fought and lost.
They were replaced.
They were ignored
They were left behind.
That’s why she didn’t fight.
She was scared
What if she couldn’t fight them?
What if she lost?
The strings moved her hands
As the marionettist gently moved them.
Her hand rose above her head
The little girl below her covered her face
No. NO! STOP!
She had had enough
The strings broke her skin as she resisted.
The blood flowed down the strings
As she fought.
The marionettist was getting impatient.
I helped you. Now you help me. That’s only fair, right?
He said. For a second, she believed him.
No. It’s not.
She reached for the knives. She was winning.
But they were still out of reach.
Then the strings broke.
She had won.
She was free.
And she was done with the strings.

The warmth comforted her
The strong arms told her she was safe.
What happened?
His deep voice startled her as he came up behind her, wrapping his arms around her waist.
His blue eyes glowed in the dimming sun.
What happened?
The warmth was colder.
The strong arms really held her anymore.
What happened?
His voice changed. Not for the better.
His eyes no longer glowed when he looked at her.
What happened?
He got worse.
It got worse.
What happened?
He didn’t text her.
He didn’t talk to her.
What happened?
It’s my fault.
I must’ve done something.
What happened?
He could at least talk to me though!
I have no idea what’s going on!
What happened?
Just yesterday he was saying he loved her
Now he took that back
What happened?
She loved him.
He loved her.
What happened?
He hated her.
She was angry at him.
What happened?
Another girl came.
She took him away.
What happened?
She loved him.
But he loved another.
What happened?

What hurts…
Not seeing you
Knowing youre not okay and not be able to help or comfort
What hurts is planning on doing things
Dates
Dances
Then, at last minute, cancel.
To take back those words.
What hurts is knowing we have to wait years to be treated as a couple
We have to wait till we leave to get that chance
We have to wait to have dates
We have to wait to do those things that others do daily.
People in the same position.
But they dont like us.
The most powerful woman in your life
Doesnt like me
And is doing what she can to convince you to leave.
She puts you through hell
And its because of me.
I dont want you to leave
But i want you to be happy.
So if you are happy not going through this for the next year or two
I wont blame you
It hurts to think that you might wake up and think that its not worth it
To think that no matter how much fun we have had, that going through hell for me
Is not worth it.
Im not worth it…

Why me?
Of all the girls in this is school
in your new one.
in your life
in your neighborhood.
why choose me?
youre an amazing person
and i have enough insecurities to supply a large business company.
But you choose me to hold you.
to love you.
and i will forever question the blessing of your love
because i never get blessings
not on this level

Words are not my thing.
Especially about you.
After all the time we spend together,
all the words exchanged,
none can even begin to express
exactly how i feel about you
about us

Your laugh brings out mine
i miss it so much
the way you would lean back as you laughed to a joke
you say you hate it
something about it not sounding right
but to me
its perfect

The love you give
Is the love I need

Your love for me keeps me going
I can never forget it.
Your my everything
My world
I can write about everything
but you stump me
You tell me how you feel
but all i can say is
"Thanks me too."
But you mean so much more then that
You mean everything to me
And although i'm leaving
Ill never be gone
Ill always be by your side.
I never lie.
Especially when i say.
I Love You.