high above
the the trees,
i accept this
new timeline

take some soil; earth,
cover your town,
plant the seeds and
bury back into the earth

let your tears be
the rain
that fertilizes your dreams

it wasn’t stage
but it was enough,
at least it should’ve been
to me,
im sorry i threw to the
side so easily

it’s the way
the music moves me
the way
my body falls back,
it’s the feeling in my brain
that says
“play pretend”
that’s what my high is

it’s everything
i used to
want.
every word swallowed,
every mask i
put on,
unprocessed feelings
im scared to
***** up

is it because of
of how beautiful
daylight reflects off
the leaves
or how the winds
makes the branches
dance,
i know i have
a life to create,
id just rather sit
here all day
and watch
it go by

i had a dream
she was there
too,
but when I
looked back at
you, something crawled
into your
eye

i reached
to remove it

something alarming
unfolded, literally
in my hands

so fast I couldn’t utter
a word

he has layers, more
than what meets
the eye

you told me
the truth
oh how you came
into my life,
a sacred oasis

it never was,
but i still showed up
for you

now i
check in
time to time,
even though you think
it’s best we end this-
i can’t believe you
suddenly don’t trust me

i say i understand
but what if i don’t

a dance
that flows like
cosmos bursting’

lyrics speaking
in past,
present, and future
that shoots
through your heart

his voice,
one of a kind,
the one that speaks
to you
in the middle
of the night

a sound that can’t be recreated,
timeless

to be with you
would have been
infinite

a path only we
understood,
the past lives
cheering us on
knowing in every
lifetime it would’ve
been
you and me

it’s a monsoon outside today,
it made me think about us.

yesterday two cars were racing each other, one just slightly gaining past, it made me think of us.

i see 2 birds fly side by side, everyday, they make me think of you
all the time.

when can i skip to the
part where your mine again?

if you ever were at all

intuition
speaks through art
speak through
your craft

one, the first step,
acknowledgment-realization,
a moment of clarity

three, the ending,
a daydream of balloons and
tossed-flowers in the air,
congratulations you made it

two, the hardest part,
the de-center of mindsets, old habits
keeping pace,
breaking molds and trying
not to catch a case-
waking up everyday
to make it to the next

and while
i change my mind
i’ll dance
as the stage fades

the stage was
always meant to
go, it was built
out of unspoken
regrets, ignored
intuition, harsh reality checks

I feel it pull
on me,
im not meant
for it,
the weight
of love

i wonder
if in his lonely hours
of midnight,
in spaces where
bones and spirits
meet,
do you dream of me
that way i
dream of you

am i on a
pedestal of
your ridicule
or just someone
you miss
from time to time

Kids outside, you’re only 5
You were so young, time spent
inside, no youth
you said it does something to you.

You chased love, 3 blocks,
but she left, your first heartbreak.

Years Down the road,
love reintroduces himself,
you give nurturing love,
2 beautiful kids, repaid in black & blue.

He fractures & bruises, and you lie.
Swallow your pride.
Two years of drafting silence but then you speak.
Away you Get.

But life detest you again,
every chance it gets.
He just turned 18, crash, a wreck,
He didn’t even get a chance, a mother’s son.

Then again in Cold Blood, the world
took the other one, 7 times in back he shot.
The daughter, also a mother, could she even fight back.
What were there final thoughts ? She’ll never know.

You’ve taken both from this world, back to raising someone on my own again.
No Job, making ends meet. Sirens Blare, but not in defeat.

You deserve peace I say.
A Happy Ending, she’ll soundly sleep.

it’s scary
you scare us

you promise a free world, a loving country, but you’re separating them
families, generations, legacies,
all ripped from them

it’s scary,
you scare us

you tell us you’ll protect us,
defend us
but invade and steal, then
point at us and scream “NOW YIELD”

it’s scary you scare us
how can we grow strong when
we’re so divided ,nightmarish

you’ve made innocents your victim,
now declaring hell on your people

you scare us, you scare me
no kings

mercy on me baby, have mercy on me
hurtin’ badly, can you see we’re hurtin’ badly

Little Ariel, with green fins, red hair
do you know hat your voice will take you anywhere?
She reminds me of a time, before things fell
I pray to the lord he’s not sending me hell.
But I don’t believe so, this time a new song plays
I believe this is part of the key however, whenever this time and place

lastly I’ll say—
God? Do I have a blessing on the way?

the ego, sometimes it feeds
sometimes it bleeds
which leads me to
self serving
ways
but it’s not
the soul connection
i yearn for
i bleed
or write for

your skin
has a seat in
that chair,
in every universe
you belong

my family yells their names,
they say i look like them,
all the same.
are you looking for
another face in mine?
or do you hope
i carry their
essence,
spirit,
the family line

i once thought
our love would
burn
bright like
the sun
the center of the
cosmos

LIKE A COMMON POPPY, WOMEN IN MY LINEAGE ARE MEADOWS,
SELF-SEEDING THERE OWN MEADOW AROUND THEM,
ONLY NEEDING RAIN

LONG LINE OF ABUSE, BETRAYAL, ABANDONMENT,
FROM MOTHER TO FATHER, MEN TO WOMEN
PARENTS ABANDONING, CHASING YOU DOWN,
YOUR MOTHERS FLEETING, SHE IGNORES YOU

SIPPIN ON WINE BOTTLES,
GIRLS WHO WANTED A FAMILY WHO LOVED,
APPRECIATED THEM AND WHO WOULD PICK THEM FROM THE GARDEN.

i tried, maybe somewhere
i knew it would end like
this for us,
maybe you just should’ve
spoken up more

im not who
you say i am
or who you think

there will be
a price to pay,
you won’t get away

starving innocents, murdered mothers, wounded fathers,
traumatized families-
there blood will
be the reason
we face a reckoning

this doesn’t go unnoticed, unpunished,
this is genocide.
you will have to speak up about
the devastation .
tragedies left for centuries

you are not god.

it’s not always
gonna flow,
but the creation
of the thought
is the jewel

you are bejeweled
this path applauses
and waits
for you

the in between
as we
grow and learn
no one speaks of life’s
longest season
limbo
both
silent and powerful
but
frustrating and agonizing

this is also you
world, not just theirs
own your place
in it

describe your addiction
the pace , a click
it’s not so easy to fix
did you really need that
a question in the
back of my mind

learn this time
but which time will be
the one

i may never see you
again,
but the impact
was great,
you’ll do great,
and stay great

the catalyst of thoughts
creating thoughts so loud
they crowd the mind,
body, and soul
my mind says
don’t boy,
you’ll cut yourself on
jagged thought

trees in the wind

what am i doing?
everyday i wrestle with
the thought

**** and my pen
and i just have
to decide

vacations heal me, i love
to leave ,
i love to watch
the sea,
we see the
world in
new perspective
new faces with
new stories