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Smoke fills my lungs,
Sealing my waxen tomb
In the sky.

I've risen from the ashes of prison
Only to gain a torched soul,
And be forcefully pushed
Into the wine dark ocean,
That rages beneath.

Oh dear Helios,
What did I do to you?

I never feared Death,
With his skeleton face
And iron glinted scythe.

But if I knew my fate,
Was to be a wax angel,
I'd pay more respect
To my darling inevitable.

But if I knew my fate,
Was to be a corpse in the sky,
I'd be more wary,

Of my sweet, sweet demise.
- C.c
7d · 18
Captain
A coward will go down with his ship
But a true captain would never let it sink.

To fight marauders and face Gaia herself
That's what being captain means to me.

To dance with death and  steal away his scythe
I'll do it once, and again, just to avoid the deep.

If it means to find treasure beside emotions unwanted
Then I'll unbury it all without hesitation.

I'd boil the ocean, and drown in my blood,
Just to save my ship from a decimation and wreck.

My skin and bones - the sail and mast,
My beautiful ship - the soulful vessel.

You can take it all, and leave me alone
But even with nothing I am determined.

But even with nothing
I am whole.
- C.c
7d · 200
Love's Whisper
Love is a bitter ache,
And a mad sea
Beneath a pounding storm.
But,
I still whisper
Drunk off its sweet wind.
You could boil my blood
But I still want you

I need you.
- C.c
Dear me,


Wow, you're so young,
But our faces look so close;
Both our jaws bend the same,
But your's is a little softer;
Brown's the colour of our eyes,
But never have yours been tired.

But when did all that change?
You're right, you should never know,
Your future, fate and what's to come,
But I think I'll let you know anyways.

You'll still write, but not stories
And you'll rarely dream,
But it's alright, you will find,
That it's all so much better.

No you won't ever learn guitar,
Play it right or write a song,
But you'll make music,
In so many other ways.

And I am so sorry little one,
But you will live without joy for so long,
And you'll make a million rules,
About your body and your blood
And you will break,
Every single one.

But I promise you, despite everything,
You are loved. You are loved.

And no the movies lied,
It won't feel like magic,
It'll feel like home,
Comfort, warmth and safety,
And you'll like it so much better that way.

Yes you'll still stand tall and proud,
But you will always apologize,
For every single tear that falls,
And even when you laugh too loud.
It's something we will work through,
Together, as we grow.

And little one, your smiled changed,
Because you survived the hurt and pain
You smile brighter.
- C.c
Dear me,


Wow, you're so grown up,
But our faces look so close;
Both our jaws bend the same,
But your's is a little sharper;
Brown's the colour of our eyes,
But under yours are tired lines.

When does all that happen?
I was told no one should ever know,
Their future, fate and what's to come,
But my mind holds so many questions.

Do I still write?
Do I still dream?
Will fantasy still keep me sane?
And do I ever learn guitar?
Make music and write a song?

Please, tell me now, I need to know.

Am I happy?
Am I loved?
Do I ever find the one
And is it like magic,
Like all the books and movies said?
Do I still stand proud and tall?

Do I laugh and cry,
And live with no apologies...
Please say,
I don't apologize for feeling.

And despite all the ways that I will grow,
Will my smile stay the same?
Oh, I love it so,
I hope it never changes.
- C.c
Oh, house on the hill,
Be the protective keeper,
Of the skeletons in my closet.
Hold them close
And keep them warm,
Within your tight grasp.
I see too many futures,
Ruined by my remnants,
Remains like bones,
Hung up — locked away.
My past up on a hanger,
Forever looming above,
It stumbles forward
Chasing down the present.
So I'll lock it away,
Hanged with a rope,
Carefully woven from denial.
The closet door encases,
Closed like opportunities unsnared.
Oh, house on the hill,
Be the silent prison guard,
Of the skeletons haunting,
My soul.
- C.c
Aug 6
Our Century
Children of my century
Are forced to turn the tides,
When every single wave,
Comes crashing down
With the single force of a tsunami.
Forced to carry the weight
That our forefathers could not.
We were told to burn a corpse
And bury any feeling.
Haven't you heard?
Any emotion —
And we're hysterical.
We were raised
In the aftermath of a war
That never happened.
We speak out at injustice,
And scream at your false righteousness,
Only to be shut down
With your incessive ignorance.
Our sole right,
Was to be silenced.
So, if there's a reason,
I'm not suicidal,
Just a person with too many words,
And all the symptoms,
Of everything I am not.
It's because I am wanted.
I, am wanted alive,
We, are wanted alive.
We are here to fix what was broken,
And destroy what shouldn't have been made.
We are here to live and thrive.
Not, to be choked,
By those,
Who think massacre
Is the way to save lives.
- C.c
Art is so beautifully misunderstood,
You can't sing,
Unless your voice,
Is selling out stadiums.
You can't paint,
If your artistry isn't displayed in a gallery,
Locked away for the rest of time to see.
You can't play piano,
If you don't compare to Mozart
Or Beethoven, or Bach.
And, why would you ever,
Bother to write a poem,
If Shakespeare has
Already, lived and died,
And Emily Dickenson,
Has said her goodbyes?
Art is useless,
Unless you are great,
Art is meaningless,
Unless it can be bought and sold —
Capitalized, until the world is content.
That's what society has taught us,
But they so beautifully misunderstand.


And so,
We forget that art,
Is so, beautifully human.
As long as we have been here,
We've been creating,
Singing, dancing, growing
Our prose will be here, always,
Writing our names into the skyline,
Keeping us here,
Even when we fade away.
Art is what makes us human,
It's not for money or fame,
It's what proves we're alive,
And that we haven't changed
In a millennium.
The famous artists,
Never meant to be known,
They only ever meant,
To live.
And I am the same,
In my mind and soul,
I don't want to be recognized,
I just want to write,
And be me.
- C.c


I wrote an (un-premiered) fugue for piano based on this poem. I'm am so deeply proud of that piece of music.
Aug 6 · 11
Nightmare
I was lost in the darkness,
Feeling my around, blind,
Searching for a ray of light.
I hunted for freedom,
While the inky blackness
Tried to take hold,
And trap me in it's cold clutches.
The horror of fate
Sunk into me like poison,
As I surrendered to the pain of mind.
The night became apart of me,
The fluid that ran in my veins,
And controlled my pounding heart.
Midnight became my life force,
And I, it's humble abode.
Together we grew,
Feeding off of each other,
Nurturing ourselves in the others' existence.
As time passed,
I accepted this darkness as part of me,
And learned to love it with my whole heart,
It loved me back,
Reciprocation — the highest of compliments.
When I bled, it wept stars and the sky,
And it used up its vast eons of self
To make me whole.
When it shuddered, I screamed,
Feeling it's heartbreak,
Shatter me like a fragile light.
This darkness — this friend,
Was not the monster I thought it would be.
It was a kind stranger,
That offered me comfort,
And many ways to fix my pride.
This darkness took hold of me,
And taught me to love myself,
Because if I could find away,
To requite my own love,
Then the midnight inside would know,
It wasn't something to be feared.
Nightmares,
Are always just dreams reaching out,
From the blackness, in which they hide.
- C.c
Aug 5 · 38
Melius Esse
What am I but hollow?
This empty cage, this rusted prison
A phantom trapped within myself.
My bones are stripped bare,
And my soul is leaking,
Dripping away down the bars,
Wasting away, like a cigarette.
I am a criminal of my own identity,
Betraying myself at every turn.
Promises; Promises,
I've made myself a million promises,
And I have broken them, shattered them,
Torn myself up on the many remains.
And now,
Every, single, error haunts my soul,
Each one pressing me deeper down,
Pushing me harder, closer, to oblivion.
I trip under the weight,
Scrape my knees on rock bottom,
And point the blame at myself
This blood surely, I deserve to bleed.
Justification of one's actions,
By accusation of the mirror
Is the most dangerous act of self support.
I am crushed by the shame,
By the weight of my own mistakes,
My bones, my foundation, crumbling,
Like a disgraced version of Atlas.
I now live life, for that day,
Where all of my guilt fades like smoke,
And I am free, from my own blame.
Until then, I will tirelessly strive, fight, battle,
To be better,
Every moment,
Every day,
Melius esse; Melius esse.
- C.c


This is inspired by Van Gogh's Skull of a Skeleton with Burning Cigarette
Aug 2 · 48
Eden's Grasp
An ancient murmur like moss and vine,
A verdant spirit softly rose,
Full of poetry, harmony and soul.
She must stroll like water —
A sweet tendril of shade and blue.
Breathe and blossom, there she is,
Shining beneath, the Eden within.
- C.c
Aug 2 · 110
Vacuum
So out of touch,
Lost, out overlooking sea.
Adrift, alone —
Cast out, wayside of the rift.
Scream, beg, but no sound.

Tired, futile to ease,
One foot forward, drag the back.
Adrift, alone —
Struck down, caught by the plague.
Scream, beg, but vacuum surrounds.

So uneasily unstable,
A crumbling world, can't fix the cracks.
Adrift, alone —
Fallen once, an angel, now trapped.
Scream, beg, but alas,

No sound.
- C.c
Aug 1 · 28
A Sinner's Prayer
I wrote myself letters,
And there they sit -
Behind the pink wax canvas,
Forever locked alongside
The skeletons in my closet.

Shame imbued in every word,
My soul spilled onto the pages
I ripped from notebooks,
To be added to the mess
Of my growing misery.

Eight separate letters,
Written over the years
And in every single one,
You can feel the desperation building -
Festering, like all my open scars.

I reread the letters,
Tears streaming down my face,
Leaving a wake of fire behind,
My heart stopped every at word,
I choked with every breath.

All the passive comments,
And the insults slung like bullets,
I was my own judge, jury and executioner,
How can someone become
Their own firing squad?

But what hurt the most,
Was the mantra of apologies,
Chanted like a sinner's prayer.
A hundred "I'm sorry"s,
Each one cutting deeper than a blade.

I wrote myself letters,
And there they sit -
As a reminder of who I was,
And of the place, I've sworn,
I will never go again.
- C.c
Aug 1 · 33
Daedalus
The depravity of existence,
Fallen down, in one fell swoop.
Hopes and dreams like crushed glass,
Gripped within hands of the cutthroat.
Try as you might to overcome it all,
Fight rampant for the chance to soar.
Oh fly, oh,
Oh fly you will.
But the condition of life,
Is that you, my child,
Have wings
Of wax.
- C.c


I've actually wrote this poem to accompany a trio I composed for oboe, saxophone and electric bass. The composition shares the same name and has not been premiered.
Aug 1 · 48
Husk
You there,
With the velvet blush and smokey breath.

Lie with me softly,
And devour my broken embrace.
- C.c


This was originally a magnet poem.
Aug 1 · 37
Seasons of Love
The sweet nectar of Spring,
And a love forgotten with time.
Forever longing for the future,
Yet ignoring the past left behind.

The husky breath of Summer,
And a burning fire left to bate.
Forever haunted by memories,
Yet terrified of what does await.

The cozy dream of Autumn,
And the tired lover is lost.
Forever stuck fantasizing,
Yet always vulnerable and soft.

The cold apathy of Winter,
And the spark of love has gone.
Forever trapped in the cycle,
Yet waiting for a romantic dawn.
- C.c
Jul 31 · 46
Baby Steps
Hold onto me as tight as you can,
I’m just learning to walk,
And here I stand unsteady, terrified to fall.

As a child I ran, instead of taking baby steps,
Full confidence, and full stride,
Pride was all I ever saw on my mother’s face.

I could get high off of that smile,
So I became an addict, desperate to show my capabilities,
Dying to show my perfect qualities.

My mastery became a constant, an expectation,
And perfection became my whole life,
Even though society screamed it was all a lie.

Never did I feel worthy,
“Good enough”
Was a phrase I was foreign to.

So I sought out my worth,
And ended up finding my substance in substances,
I stole drinks in the moments I was alone.

A dangerous game, with rewards reaped in the dark
One sip, two sips, and a million more —
I‌ spent the nights drunk on gasoline.

Flames ran through my veins, torching my soul,
A silent torture devouring my brain,
Appeasing the demons within.

They told me I was ageless, and I fell for it,
Is that what it is? Not liquor, but maturity,
Is maturity my worth?

If the burning made me feel older,
Would the blood and bone feel the same way?
So, I scarred my own skin to test my theory.

It never brought the maturity,
The feeling I knew would make everyone proud,
But instead it reminded me I was alive.

I was ripped from my own apathy,
And instead of the numbness,
I‌ felt every emotion I worked so hard to push down.

I tried to fight it all off, but I couldn’t any longer,
The weight of the feelings I forgot I had,
Made me buckle at the knees and crumple to the ground.

For the first time in my life I had stopped running.
And as the paralysis left me,
And all the emotions flooded to my mind,

I saw clearly.

No longer was I blinded by the expectations forced upon me.
Slowly I will heal, and I plan to walk,
So please, hold onto me, and never me let go.
- C.c



This has been a draft of mine for almost as long as I've been writing poetry. I've been working on it for so long, but this poem has never felt "right". I still have the original version and screams of my old style. I let it be for a couple years and I've recently been workshopping it again. I like this version and I feel ready to share, however it still doesn't feel right and I'll probably change it once again. Something tells me this poem will never feel right, I'm too close to it and imperfection is the condition of its nature. I think that in itself is more poetic than any word in these lines. I do hope you enjoy it.
Jul 29 · 61
Fervor and Flame
Passion burns,
It's the fire in our hearts.
Our life force,
Conserving the contents of our souls.
But passion, does not burn
Like the loving cabin hearth.
Rather,
It burns like an orange Bic lighter.
It'll keep you warm,
In the desperation of winter chill.
But it'll also keep a cigarette lit.
Passion left uncheck,
Will so easily morph to obsession.
Such a dangerous thing,
That makes life so worth living.
A tightrope dance,
The fine line between
Between warmth,
And inferno.
- C.c
Jul 24 · 133
Vampire (Pt. 2)
The Sun, my dear love,
My sweet Sol, I thank you,
For this marvelous gift
You have given to me.

This present of chasing you,
Is glorious, others would dream of this,
But did it need this catch twenty-two,
Did it need this sickness, this curse?

I am sick - diseased,
Due to your gift my dear,
Blessed to be in your love,
Cursed to be burnt by your rays.

I let my infatuation build oblivion,
I let myself decay in your presence,
I let myself fall, deep down —
Let myself become addicted to abuse.

Please take back this gift,
Please cure me of your curse,
This isn't love, it never was,
This is dependence, this is toxicity.

I let you drain my blood and soul,
While believing you're the light,
The very thing that brings life,
But I was only feeding your vampiric ways.

You were never the bright Sol,
You were the grey, the outlier,
I am the green —was the green
I too, am like you now, a vampire, dead.

Bring me my freedom,
Feed me my sweet future,
I must find the necromancer in his home,
Ask him to bring me back to life.

Just so I can run far away,

Just so I can turn back to green.
- C.c
Jul 24 · 49
Vampire (Pt. 1)
I live in a world of green
Yet, I'm a faded shade of grey.
A dark stormy night resides in my eyes,
While the world is teeming with light.

The world - it's beautiful,
Brilliant and lively,
But here I am —
In opposition, to it all.

I'd rather sit here, in my home,
Made from death and decay.
Lick my wounds,
And drink the poison from your veins.

Every drop, a new addiction.
A new need, a new desire,
To have the only toxicity
In a land of clean.

Let it course through my body.
Let it wrack my brain.
Let it come.
Let it be my downfall, my oblivion.

Let my fangs turn red with your iron.
Bring your poison to me,
I'll take the burden away,
Only few, can handle the grey.

Feed my dependence,
Bring me my abuse,
Take the necromancer from his home
Make him bring me back to life.

Just so I can fall again,

Just so I can fade back to grey.
- C.c
Jul 24 · 45
Old Battles
Old scars from old battles
Still reign supreme,
Over mindscapes
And memories.
My blade was sheathed long ago,
But somedays I swear,
The hilt still lives
Within my palm.
Maybe it's the way
My arms tingle
At the sight of a sword,
Or the deep yearn
For the rush of a fight.

"Here!"

I scream,

"Don't you ever fall back,"
"Not to the cries nor bloodied bruises!"

I'm touched by ghosts
Of fallen warriors
They're calling out —

"Never follow our lead"
"Is the death of the battle honourable? Yes."
"But it's the death"
"Of sinners and misers the same."

The old battle rush,
The old memories stocked
With pain,
When will you leave me?
When will you say I'm alright?
Please God, caress me with peace,
And a few moments
Of sanity.
Old demons; old war.
I fought you once with the fervor
And the vigour
Of any great conqueror.
Tell me old scars,
Will you fade and let go?
Will you finally succumb
To grandfather time?
Or am I forever
Stuck with your silent screams
Of misery,
And the ghosted memories
Of goners
And the warriors
Of old?
- C.c
Jul 20 · 45
Headlights
Glassy wide eyes, struck down by the light.
A rush of adrenaline, horns loudly blared.

A collision, soft hide on machinery,
He wandered so close to the unforgiving road.

He stumbled away, with what life he had left,
Searching for cover in the nearby bush.

The young fawn, he takes rest in the copse —
A mirage of ebony trees in the night.

He cries out in pain, blood painting the moss.
The cruelty of man, another life taken.

Mist fills the air, a lunar spotlight sets the scene,
A final breath in, innocence lost in tragedy.

Loving, soft steps trace the forest floor,
As a mother doe, desperately searches for her young.
- C.c
Jul 20 · 43
The Last Dance
A small flutter in the morning twilight,
Moving along with the tranquil wind.
A set of gossamer wings float and  hover,
A moth's last dance through the mist.

The ebony barked trees loom tall and mighty,
And deep shadows enshroud the bush.
Magic, early light rays glimmer down,
Counting down each the moth's final breaths.

A dewy air of sweet vapour encases,
And clings to the flora of the copse.
The birds sings songs of a suspenseful dawn.
Harmonious is the morn, as the moth lands for rest.

Sing out, you canorous birds, sing out,
Let the gossamer wings dance home on your song.
As the morning mist subsides to a sunny sky,
A life comes to an end, surrender to the dew.

And oh, the moth, she grieves the moon.
- C.c
Jul 20 · 69
Bone and Blossom
At my funeral,
Spare me the tears
And spread my ashes
In the flora.
Do not cry, for the death,
Which has consumed me,
Smile,
For the life that finally,
Surrounds me.
- C.c
Jul 19 · 49
Requiem for an Icarus
It's quiet.

So quiet.

There once was a symphony,
Deep inside my head,
But now, there's nothing.
I forgot how to write,
My words - my everything,
Are just gone without trace.
My hands shake,
Yearning for a quill,
Dreaming to relive the passion,
But my mind fights back,
Consumed by the silence.
Fallen from grace,
What a pitiful poet I've become.
What am I without my words?
Simply an unwritten melody,
Fading out from memory.
Poetry once ran through my veins,
Now it haunts my soul,
An unplayed requiem buried like emotions.
My artistry, has been turned, to tragedy,
Like Icarus,
I've flown,
And I've fallen.

It's quiet.

So,

Quiet.
- C.c

I've suffered through years long periods of writer's block. I used to be able to write poetry feverishly, but now I find it quite difficult. I'm slowly working my way back up to writing like I used to. This is a poem I wrote awhile back about writer's block.
Jul 19 · 138
Chip Away
There are scars on my heart
Surrounded by ribs whittled and carved.
For so very long,
I have suffered at my own hands.
My work, it was gentle enough
To survive —
But torturous enough to tell me,
That I, was still relentlessly,
Alive.
- C.c
I could get used to the insanity of life.
If it meant that everyday,
I'd get to be lost in my thoughts,
Lost and falling,
Falling fast and for eternity,
And all of the time in-between.

I could get used to the delirium of living,
If it meant that everyday,
I'd get to survive in my poetry,
Surviving; flowing,
Struggling and furiously fighting,
To experience every last word.

Oh,

Oh, how comfortable I could grow,
If it meant that everyday,
I'd get to wander as a romantic,
Wandering and writing.
But oh, how bitterly sad is it?
That every line is just an escape,

From life's cynical realities.
- C.c
Jul 15 · 46
Strange Winds
Never once in my life, have I been okay.
Damnation is threatened, alongside death and decay,
There's a strange storm brewing, it waxes and wanes,
It's how the demons say, they're on their way.

Never once in my life have I been alright.
I'll walk and walk, but my tunnel has no light,
And this strange storm brews, in the dead of night,
The demons, always come, with their cavalry and knights.

Never once in my life have I been at peace.
His thoughts echo, despite being ****** and deceased,
The strange storm is here and it's power, does increase,
The demons are near, and they'll rip me apart, piece by piece.

Never once in my life have I stopped to breathe.
When my lungs do give in, to my family, this soul is bequeathed,
The strange storm has subsided, rendered a childish breeze,
The demons have gone, unnocked bows and swords sheathed.

Never once in my life, have I been okay.
But I will always bare my teeth when they come this way,
And the strange winds can blow, but I won't collapse or sway,
When the demons fight like lions, never will I fall victim
To their fray.
- C.c

I wrote this a few years ago. Rhyming has never been my strong suit, so this one always manages to impress me.
She follows me, lingering,
A shadow of a person,
A whisper of a life.
The pale greys of her complexion,
They're haunting, they're horrifying,
And her small stature, is slightly less so.
Constantly by my side, is this tiny ghost,
She's screaming out, crying,
Begging for the innocence,
She was never granted.
She wears a tattered sundress,
Covered in butterflies of blues and greens,
And it falls just below,
Her darkened, scraped knees.
She howls out in pain,
Pleading to feel wonder and joy,
Just, one, more, time.
Always is she grabbing at me,
Yearning for attention,
But I never let
Her wispy grey fingers, grab hold.
Here she is, a wraith, a ghost,
An image of someone, after their death.
The crying child, the wraith in my room,
The little one begging,
To be young again.
I've learned to tune out her cries,
If I were to give her, the attention she craves,
I would have to grow up,
And face the maturity forced upon me.
If I were to give her,
The attention she deserves,
I would have to admit,
That, the little girl,
With the scraped knees, and butterfly dress,
That, that little, sweet girl,
Within me,
Is dead.
- C.c
Jul 15 · 42
Blue Bloods
I once opened my veins,
To see what's inside,
Hoping to find blue and glory.
I begged and pleaded,
Prayed, my blood would prove me worthy.
But I didn't find that deep royal shade,
Only varicose and vermillion,
Red liquid tainted by shame.
The pain soon ensued — a tortuous grief,
Every part of my soul,
Twisting and writhing.
My skin boiled over my heart,
Darkened in its feverish ache.
I cried out for a transfusion,
I wanted to be put among the mighty few,
The Blue Bloods,
The Worthy.
But nothing ever came of my tears,
I searched my veins, over and over,
In hopes of finding that royal hue,
But never, did I, prevail.
After years of my own failure,
I learnt a lesson one can never lose.
You'll never find worth in your veins,
It's buried deep in your heart and soul,
And blue might be the colour of greatness,
But life is found in red,
And all it's glorious pains and shades.
- C.c

I'm university level musician and I found it very difficult when I started my degree. It was incredibly hard not to compare myself to everyone around me, especially those who had been born into musical families. I wrote this during the first year of my undergrad after a long period of writers block.
Jul 13 · 101
Celestial Bodies
Please, give me space,
And all the stars above.
Here, the never ending sky,
A gaze of hopeless love.

Drench me in epiphany,
And hold on to my soul.
Filled by suns — galactic light,
Each step takes a tole.

Dance with me swiftly,
And let the void billow, bloom.
A sweet tango of lovers,
Kiss me — spark the fume.

Forever, oh ever, I'll dream,
Of the sky, the stars and space.
I'll let the cosmos drift on by,
As I take in every loving inch,

Of your sweet, heavenly face.
- C.c
Jul 13 · 54
Iron Will
My skeleton; My structure,
My body built, from platinum and bone.
An automaton formed to protect,
My own lungs, turned into an engine,
Moving the vapors I turn to life,
The gentle oxygen, taken for granted.

My skeleton; My framework,
My body built, from copper and bone.
An automaton I betrayed, tarnished.
My own skin, turned into artwork,
Painted with apocalypse and scars,
The internal chaos made a showpiece.

My skeleton; My foundation,
My body built, from tungsten and bone.
An automaton I've stripped to scrap.
My own chest, turned into a cage,
A prison for holding silence and memories,
The beautiful violence locked inside.

My skeleton; My everything,
My body built, from will and bone,
And, an automaton I've shattered in fear —
In fear, of everything I saw in the mirror.
But technology is human, determined and strong,
My automaton will repair, upgrade and heal,
And my artwork will become a masterpiece —
A masterpiece that screams,

I am,

Still here.
- C.c
Jul 13 · 47
The Weight of Infinity
Wait for me,
As I live adrift in the cosmos.
Please, hold the rope
Tying me to this Earth,
As I scream out to the void;
Out to infinity.

Look away as my lungs collapse
From the weight of nothingness.
An inward fold —
A crushing silence,
Overwhelmed by futures past and bold.

Hold on to me,
And watch my shatter,
But please, love me, and avoid my gaze.
I yearn for the end of this implosion;
Renewal.

Yet, I wish to be a phoenix of the night.
As I am born,
As I die and am reborn again,
As my tears, float evermore
In time and space.

Look away,
Look away,
Look away.

But please, I beg of you,
Keep your hand on mine.
Please,
I beg you to stay.
- C.c
Jul 13 · 115
A Thousand Lives
Lay me down in a field of flowers,
So I can breathe in the grass as it grows.
I've made my trek a thousand miles,
In a willful traipse of bloodied bones.
I've built my sward to survive the stories,
I've built a fortress of bramble and stone.
Protect my body and cage my mind,
Let me live in quiet hushed sorrow -
May a river of tears flow from my head,
And nurture the land born of my flesh.
May the tales that I have read,
Exist in me eternally,
Exist in me, for in my thicket of thorn,
I have lived one thousand lives,
And for each one, I vow to die,
A thousand, bittersweet
Deaths.
- C.c

— The End —