Walks in silence like a ghost
Never to be seen nor heard
The voices swirling around her head like a vortex consuming her every thought.

Wishing for the chaos to cease as she
reaches for your hand
But you can't see he pain you cause
or the ghost by your side slowly going mad
As she alone wanders the world, without  a place amongst the living

Alien bride traveling back in time,
Such an odd thing to think.
Oh alien bride capturing my mind,
I'm living in the Cosmos of a
different mind.
Time traveling through thoughts
Of another, strange it seems.
But have you smelled the roses
of a distant world?
I'm an alien bride traveling
through time.

There was a time I fell
for a girl,
So beautiful she was in
her brokenness.
So far from innocence,
as she clinged to the idea
of love in the arms of another.
Oh she was angel, my
angel of sin, but to kiss her
a sin I wished.
And to her I was her
peace in the sheets,
when the darkness
creeped in.

I don't feel like a poet, No sir I don't
I can write words upon a page
But does that make me a poet?
I have passion for the art
Am I a poet yet?
My pen meets paper with scribbles of thoughts
Am I a poet yet?
I share tales of the heart
Am I a poet yet?
Today I feel not of a poet
But of a girl who shares of madness

You were a cliché
Sinatra song, and
Like Frank you flew
Me to the moon.

Chaos rules your brain
living your days,
dancing with demons
in a clear smoked filled pipe.
Change can be uncontrollable,
but you're off the deep end, in love
with what you can't get.
As you sacrifice your soul
for a high that kills us all.
Placing knives in backs that
had yours.
Do those bruises make you
feel beautiful now?
Now cradle the lies you made,
Oh honey how does that
mediocre life taste?

There, There
Over There
Do you see the man upon the wall?
The one whispering my demise.
He crawls with a muddy face,
and eyes to ****.
There, there
Over There
Do you see the puddle of my mind?
Because only I can feel
the breathe of death
upon my neck

Cold as ice
a sin unto herself
the devil unto others

Light shining through the window screen, and all I see is an array of gray.
As i watch the dust dance across the room,
I should move yet I find comfort in this worn down box.

Light shining through the lamp shades, and all I see is a parade of black.
As I watch the shadows dance across the room,
I should've asked you to stay yet I find comfort in the dark.

I wish I could say I'm shocked,
but love isn't us
Did you enjoy her bed?
Because your drunken call
sayed it all
Dear you can do
better than that
You forget I have friends
in this town too, and tonight
I'll have treat as well
Sharing my bed with
Jack and Crown

A distant girl who lives a lie,
Only to come alive as she
bleeds her stories upon
torn pages, hoping you'd
read her cries

She made friends with her words, but over time people turned their backs. Drowning as she pushed them away,
It seemed with every goodbye lowered a rope..

A distant girl who lives a lie,
Only to come alive as she
bleeds her stories upon
torn pages, hoping you'd
read her cries.
lives out her dreams in
peace

She made friends with her words.
She never knew the day she
whispered her last goodbye.
As her feet hung above the floor

I regret telling
them about
you
letting
you back in
bringing you from the
dark

Even with the looming fear
of your absence, I crave
your bitter affection..

I'm hooked
see the look in your eyes
and my name on your lips
has me dancing
with sin

As the moon grew full
so did the sorrow in her mind,
the night she picked up the knife
instead of the pen
For the drops on the floor were more poetically true of
her innerself than her open ended words on that paper
could ever be...

You've haunted my dreams,
and now have come into view.
With all flames and hellish crusades,
Why do this to me?
You dance around as though
a prize is to be won,
with your riddleing songs.
But they don't call to me,
I won't let this be.
Tonight your killing spree
ends with me..

The girl of my dreams
fell in love with an ***
and that girl is me

Flowers upon
my page
as I
doodle my
life away

Day by Day
with the pain
hidden within
your eyes
Day by Day
with the lies of
reassurance
Night by Night
the clock ticks by
collecting another
breath
Night by Night
lying awake with
fears your smiling
face won't greet me
morning come
Day by Night
my hero fades

Tonight
I drown my sorrows
With a bottle of
alcohol and pills
Till your opinion of
me no longer matters

My heart a black hole of never ending loss of emotion
My mind a vortex of space consuming all
My soul it seems ancient
My body a shell an image that is not me
a false assurance
Nor am I man or women
I am a being
I am a soul with history, with compassion
I am a seeker wandering realms of death
I am one who writes from the deepest caves of mind for the world to see
I am me

I had a dream last night
that we were perfect, happily loving each other

Then i awoke from the dream
to find you aren't mine and I'm
just a fool with a beautiful dream
of you holding me tight.

Finding you're not here,
and within a second all those memories are fading,
I wished they wouldn't

It seems you were mine only for a dream
While fate plays her cruel cards
Sending my way a broken heart

Finding you're no longer here, in a most unlikely way
Seeing a piece of me, a piece of you gone

Fate playing her cruel game
as I loved you to death
You were mine only for a dream

I'm too far gone
for even the angels
to save.

The taste you leave
After you run away
leaving me,
alone in a haze.
Its like fire in my veins
A burning desire.
And everytime I reach for you
It's like grabbing smoke
I wish I could be done with you
Wash you away
Then maybe then
When the numbness sets in
and I fade,
then can I  finally breath

What a waste
It is to say
I care.
How silly of me
to think you'd share.
I Can stare with you
For hours as
we lay there.
But without a care,
You whisper I'm the spare.
As your heart lies in despair,
Over a line of states.
Now I'm here with tears.
Wasting away
with silly little
Words of love.

She just sits and stares
mindlessly at the wall
Oblivious to the ****-filled sores
oozing down her arm..
Letting the wheels stop turning and the fog from her high cloud her mind
She sits and stares mindlessly at the wall
That dusty breeze from that worn down fan turning her hair to a messy mop
She sold her soul for a bag and a room to use
And there she sits and stares mindlessly at the wall dead as can be
How did get this far?

I’ll miss you
My love but it's best
we part ways
You've been my joy, my comfort
but it's hurts
more to stay than to leave
So I hope you dream of me
in the night and miss me too

Just a swipe of the pen
and a turn of the page
Your heart shatters
as her blood splattered papers
Reveal the monster inside
Just a swipe of the pen
and a turn of the page
You find you're just an
ink stain in the book

They say mad, they say insane
What's insane?
The voices would disagree
They say mad, they insane
In such a beautiful way
What's insane?
The voices or you?

Locked away
a prisoner to
herself
Daily wars with
the knife
Locked away
in her tower
looking out for light
but finding the darkness
at the bottom of the bottle
Locked away
a prisoner to
herself
now free
an Angel
amongst light

Take me back to where the earth smiled and my weird mind thrived
All I do is write words that make you cringe

Oh just a loser to modern time
A stranger talking to trees
living for strange thoughts and peaceful nights

Glued to a window the rain falls opposite of me speaks my pain
Days coming round where I'm cruelest to myself

Oh just a loser in your heart and mind
Even kicked by the freaks
What's wrong with me?
Why can't I be the same?

Grew up an outcast, a half-breed
Am I unworthy of love?
No luck of thing called love
I paint a picture of romance different from the norms
Unable to feel in the same cold manner
Call what you will
I'm a loser trapped in between lines, hiding to be sane

All I do is listen and pray to invisible words of the shadows on the wall
I'm a loser in between worlds, can't somebody take be home
Above those clouds and away from prying eyes

What am I?
Who am I?
Am I the bird flying or the mossy floor below?
Questions to be answered yet left behind
Feeling lost in the sea of unknown
These thoughts, emotions I'm at a lose
Am I questioning too much?
Thinking alittle too much?
Trapped in my world of wanting more yet receiving less than desired
My mind seeming empty yet full as I look out unto the sea chaos in this place
My wandering soul slowly fading, my words in the emptiness of obscurity
Blurring my reality with questions I can not answer
Am I here or there?
Am I a ghost unseen or simply barely living?
These thoughts, feelings
Calling out from the dark waiting to be  heard

I fear you're dead
long gone, away from it all.
I long to hear you, see you..
But even in the night my fears
don't hide.
And with those fears, I can no
longer hear your name
whispered in the wind.
Perhaps them is it me,
Praying for a soul who
isn't real?

Loving you is so easy,
I hate you for that
Love and hate
Seems to be our fate
Hating to love each other
Our exits blocked
With no escape
Knowing it won't work out,
Yet I run back to you and you accept
Thinking for the best
Then I leave again and you follow
For love and hate seems to be our fate
Forever tied
Never happy together and miserable apart

Jealousy
Oh, it's killer

What is their for me
to do now?

This dance we've perfected
It's a nightmare.
One I don't want to end.

Jealousy
Oh, It's killer

What is left for you now?

When you dance around your
Words.
Darling can be you that way
When you touch my heart
as I look away

Jealously
Oh, it's a killer

It took away my breathe
As you looked at me, and
let her dance you
away from me.

Can I write without being heard?
Can I speak without being seen?
A mad man once asked as he stared in the
abyss of the nightmare before him

A mad man who talks with the dancing shapes
of his own shadows on the wall
Can I write without being heard?
Can I speak without being seen?
A beautiful chaos with a mad man that is me

Crawling up from the abyss of it
All those years hiding, a walking shadow
Amongst the crowds of masks
to finally walk in the light removing
my own mask for the world to see being
different isn't bad if only you have the strength to remove the mask
Seeing the beauty of us all, the light and  dark of ones inner self
The one under the mask

Crude lines
that held no
meaning till
she wept on
crumbled pages

I knew then I had met my match
when the pain in your eyes
mirrored mine
We were wickedly broken
and wanting of love,
We ran so fast
We forgot to see
the coming scars

I'm an *** this I know,
No need to tell me twice
The mirror tells me everyday

Mother of the year
they cheer
If only they knew the
skeletons you hide
with your rotting teeth and heavy bags
Mother of the year
What lovely kids
They cheer
Not knowing the silence is fear of her whip
and no food to eat
Oh mother of the year who stays high
Mother who gives drugs to your child for pure entertainment
Mother of the year
Not from what I hear