Look at them
noticing me,
I think they finally see
through the dark of me,
the demon inside.
I was beginning to
believe I was living.
Possibly breathing
But I was dreaming,
thinking they'd see me.
They believed me
deceased

What of words?
If you only repeat,
and not seek of your
own.

Is it possible to have no emotion?
Being so far gone in being numb that I can't the simplest thing about.
I can't think, that's too hard
I can't talk too confusing
Writing a challenge I hate
I feel hollow, an empty shell
I'm here but not entirely
I'm numb
Is it possible to have no emotion?
If so, I have no emotion
No sadness
No joy
I've checked out
I'm here but not entirely

Feeling the uneasy distance ahead
I tried to reach for you,
but found a void of
what was never to be,
For you see I longed for
what I couldn't have,
I felt for a stranger who didn't care
And all I received were empty pages filled with despair

Passion,
to light the fire,
to swim in the words
from your mouth.
Oh it's something about
you.
How you make me want
to melt and sink into the
walls of forever with you.

Broken beyond repair
Someone call the doctor
The lights slowly dimming
The picture fading

Fearing this is the end
She looks in the mirror
hoping to see a smiling face,
but staring back was the cracked
image of what was

Broken beyond repair
Those lights now a soft glow
of yesterday
That beautiful picture now
black

Now I'm sitting here
in that old chair
playing all those old tunes
(Remember?)
They reminded me of you
What are you thinking now?
(I'm thinking of you)
Imagine dancing through
the night with you in my arms
just like you promised,
If you were only here
What are you doing now?
I'm spending my time
relaxing to that playlist of us
So join me when you're ready
(To make a new song)
Because I could listen to us all night long

Doctor
Please no need for meds
I swear the voices in my head only try to help
You see I can't stand on my own two feet
Doctor
What's the matter with me
Obsessed?
Depressed?
******? Well maybe
But who are you to judge me?
Oh your degree, I see
Well that maybe
These voices say such delicate words and you care to tune them out
Well Doctor I fear the meds are better suited up your ***

Can't stand the rain
Can't stand the rain

Not with the red eyes
Staring down at me

Oh I'd sing and play
A parade for you

Can't stand the rain
Can't stand the rain

No, not tonight
as we part in the chaos

Oh darling can't see
I can't kiss and tell

I can't stand the rain
Falling from your face

People say if watch yourself die within a dream you die on the outside
But how come with falling of the sun and the rising of the moon
I watch myself die, I watch that fatal event The day I was taken from my beloved... The day I died
A memory oh that memory I pray to be just a dream
The pain it still lingers
I can still feel the touch of hands, his lips upon mine his smile oh his smile
That haunting image that appears only when I rest my eyes
I think now maybe their right
Because I die everynight knowing I can only see your through my dreams

My middle name was
Death, because I wrote
of a rose who grew
through blood

I hear them approaching,
the voice oozing from the walls
As they're louder than ever
I fear the deal must be filled
As the devil's on my trail
I guess you don't have to worry now, because I'll be gone before dawn

All that is said
is never done
All my thoughts stashed upon the highest shelf, and
my dreams of you confined for I'm scared to fly
My biggest trait is both my light and dark
All that is said
is never done
carelessly with care
I've cut off my oxygen and removed my wings
All that is me
Is but a dream
I've become a puppet in a box scared to breathe

Around every corner
Stands a shadow
Death all around screaming
With shadows of lost souls
crying out for hope
to girl rounding the
corner

But you see
hope she can not bring
She one of them
now a shadow
The keeper of lost souls
Death has taken her hand

Did you ever love me at all?
Is this the end?
Your words say no, but your half -hearted actions speak louder
I spend my time further and further from you, you spend yours at the bar
Did you ever love me at all?
Is this the end?
My words say no, but my half-hearted actions tell a different story
Just a storybook ending coming from a fairytale beginning
Did I even love you at all?
With the bruises on our faces slowly covering our hearts, and tears taking their last fall
It's safe to say we barely loved at all

A magical place in the forests of old
Where thoughts have wings and,
Souls light up the paths,
Rain floats in midair and laughter runs around playing with childish stories
Why you ask where such a place exists?
Well dear in your dreams
What dreams? My dreams died with Hoffa long ago
Now I'm slaving over a lawn mower and feeding 5 kids with a shovel and a ***
I can't tell stories, unless it's about work
Daddy can you tell me a bedtime story?
Yeah... If it's about grass cutting and dung thrown into dirt
Sweet dreams, well that's only make believe. Want a sweet dream look in a fairytale, because they're only for when you sleep, when you wake its back to reality
So no more dreams just hard work with reality. Well everyone has a dream even you it's something no one can escape. So what dreams you say...
Well sleep and see there's dreams

Watching you, you my prey
I want you
with an uncontrollable desire
Your scent speaking to me, so intense
This hunt
Watching you
Boy don't lie
Boy don't run
I want you
To have your body under mine
To eat you up, your blood...
This hunt
I'm eating it up
Boy keep losing
Boy keep running
My prey
No longer watching from a far
Tonight you're mine
with no escape
the beast inside satisfied hearing your last breathe

Nobody understood
the torture you observed,
what you lived.
A broken home
Mother sold you in
exchange for a quick high
Father saw you as a
substitute for your mother
In and out of psych wards even they thought you weren't sane enough to save
Years pass thinking life's f*ed up
Now your here
a picture of your dear mother
Selling your own,
now for that same high
In and out psych wards
look at you now..
A lost cause, on trial for ******
Nobody understood you needed love never hate

The noise it's so loud
The voices haunting me, they say I'm the Devil, I'm theirs for the taking
Am I?
I swear I'm good
Did you hear that? I think they're back
I'm not ready to go
Do you hear them?
The voices in my head...

A thousand times I've said
A poet I am not,
A writer I am not
So repetitive I've forgotton who I try to convince,
the world or myself?
Perhaps both
Perhaps neither
You can decide on that
After these are all just
words on a page with the little meanings you pull through the lines

Writing so simple and yet complex.
What drives people to put words to a page? Is it hope... madness?
Perhaps is simply an escape, both for readers and author.
            For me writing is not
            merely making an esc-
            ape from reality, but a
            realization of it. To
            make you ponder, look
            around. See the world
            for what it is.
Years I questioned myself, what is my calling? My contribution to the world? Is it my undying thirst for knowledge or a drive for betterment.
Perhaps a teacher to those in need.

I write... write to reach people. To write the dark twisted truths and fears of those who don't.
Writing a simply complex form of sharing your soul to another.

Writing words
here and there
all with no care
    Endlessly
Writing words
with no rest
till I truly
became unhinged

Where to hide,
But in a bottle.
For the night I long, could never
cover me.
Though even in my drunken stupors,
I feel a longer of that touch..
And with it carries a phrase.
Oh how you dared to throw me out
before a sound.
I long for the night,
the cold box of sanity I reach
for in the bottle with your name.

Dreams of wicked things,
of me and you oh i believe
I've fallen for you

You've gone away
Left me alone
How could you
I miss you
I spend my days
with days dreams of
our planned future
to never be seen
I spend my nights
Staring at the constellation of
Your smiling face looking down
Waiting for the day I can join you
On the other side

Say grand with
little words
Say little with
grand words