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"bartering" poems
i must give you a full physical exam to fully grasp my prognosis and plan of treatment for you... dont be afraid i feel confident, no need to debate i can satisfy and gratify your pre-dic-ament in the richest succulent as a specialist, to some degree my healing hands work expertly but to receive full and complete treatment you must partake my honey rather frequent for a better plan of action i require a full body transfusion a chemical mixture of center fuses a delicate blending of our juices this may require several procedures over time it provides many features healing properties of your most vital ***** however worth it, even if, it cost a fortune to this a can guarantee success but first you must fully undress i work with energy transference your help required for successful convergence of the best possible results between two consenting adults bartering is certainly a viable option for your long term medical condition providing equal services for each other helps maintain balance to one another
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Mar 28, 2017
Mar 28, 2017 at 1:01 AM UTC
Doctor, Doctor give me the news
A self confessed dreamer One that knew no bounds Can't keep his mind in tether It's always fleeing from the grounds He'd always been the dreamer Picking the shackles of reality Always hopeful of finding another A safe haven, an escape, a sanctuary Madness is thought of this silly little dreamer Forever bartering reality for a life of fantasy "He's moonstruck", said one to the other Obstinate still he chooses to wander free Alas one day, he stumbled upon a jewel Glistening, deceivingly within arm's reach But a beautiful game was played so cruel Fate wouldn't give easily what it could teach Glimpses of undefined beauty Himself drawn closer to this beacon He craves for this gem so madly Didn't care for what's to happen He descended to the surface One thing he just did realise That the jewel wasn't in its place But a reflection of another in the skies He looked up, he spun and he squinted Attempting this search he had just begun For a moment he found himself to be blinded For the jewel is indeed the sun He marvels at her beauty Till his eyes turned red and sore But he doesn't stop even briefly For she's the object of his adore He gazes at his newfound muse Till the day grew dim and late When she sets he would hesitate and refuse To return willingly to his ****** state Through promise he returns daily To catch his sun as she would rise For she fills him with aplenty And she listens to his forlorn cries He loves her much as she did him In each other's magic the two would bask As time flits by, the day grows dreadfully dim Too short a time from dawn till dusk The dreamer waits patiently As dusk turns to dawn The dreamer waits painfully For she will come then she'll be gone This rise is somewhat special For his love he had made known She admits the love is reciprocal For him her love had also grown But the dreamer will soon come to realise Out of reach his sun he can never kiss Her bountiful love will be the ultimate prize The prize he can never claim to be fully his *"Silly little dreamer feeding your childish dreams" "Silly little dreamer what fanciful notions you make" "Silly little dreamer you'll be ripped at the seams" "Silly little dreamer not every heart you just can take"* He pays no heed to what the others say He knows his chances run exceedingly slim He's walking on tightrope that's doomed to fray But what happens today is what really matters to him I am that silly little dreamer Whose feet is never on the ground I have chosen to live part of my life in wonder For it is you that I have found
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Jul 18, 2014
Jul 18, 2014 at 5:59 PM UTC
Dreamer (I)
A self confessed dreamer One that knew no bounds Can't keep his mind in tether It's always fleeing from the grounds He'd always been the dreamer Picking the shackles of reality Always hopeful of finding another A safe haven, an escape, a sanctuary Madness is thought of this silly little dreamer Forever bartering reality for a life of fantasy "He's moonstruck", said one to the other Obstinate still he chooses to wander free Alas one day, he stumbled upon a jewel Glistening, deceivingly within arm's reach But a beautiful game was played so cruel Fate wouldn't give easily what it could teach Glimpses of undefined beauty Himself drawn closer to this beacon He craves for this gem so madly Didn't care for what's to happen He descended to the surface One thing he just did realise That the jewel wasn't in its place But a reflection of another in the skies He looked up, he spun and he squinted Attempting this search he had just begun For a moment he found himself to be blinded For the jewel is indeed the sun He marvels at her beauty Till his eyes turned red and sore But he doesn't stop even briefly For she's the object of his adore He gazes at his newfound muse Till the day grew dim and late When she sets he would hesitate and refuse To return willingly to his ****** state Through promise he returns daily To catch his sun as she would rise For she fills him with aplenty And she listens to his forlorn cries He loves her much as she did him In each other's magic the two would bask As time flits by, the day grows dreadfully dim Too short a time from dawn till dusk The dreamer waits patiently As dusk turns to dawn The dreamer waits painfully For she will come then she'll be gone This rise is somewhat special For his love he had made known She admits the love is reciprocal For him her love had also grown But the dreamer will soon come to realise Out of reach his sun he can never kiss Her bountiful love will be the ultimate prize The prize he can never claim to be fully his *"Silly little dreamer feeding your childish dreams" "Silly little dreamer what fanciful notions you make" "Silly little dreamer you'll be ripped at the seams" "Silly little dreamer not every heart you just can take"* He pays no heed to what the others say He knows his chances run exceedingly slim He's walking on tightrope that's doomed to fray But what happens today is what really matters to him I am that silly little dreamer Whose feet is never on the ground I have chosen to live part of my life in wonder For it is you that I have found
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somehow sweet in his want of no trouble, the unwashed man takes the door from your father and there they go hand in hand to the backyard where they wrestle as if hurts were people keeping them apart. your father’s jaw comes loose, the man’s ear seems held by too small a magnet. at window you a sickly child with overbite and a scarecrow’s pipe stroke the puppet corn hair of a sister’s doll and walk it cloud to defrosted cloud. amidst this bartering of vanished weight your mother is being made to balance on her bare stomach a glass of lemonade. in three days the man will come back; your father a bit healed, your mother less angry about straws.
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Jul 13, 2012
Jul 13, 2012 at 9:31 AM UTC
discipline
1. Inhaling poison like it’s a sweet spring breeze, an antidote to the pounding heart and aching stomach empty of comfort or substance Meeting with pavement in a tiger’s crouch fingers float toward parted lips awaiting the taste of relief in the form of smouldering leaves. 2. One tentative epidermis approaches another tendons and ligaments straining, aching for contact attempting nonchalance in the lamplight privacy of early morning, cocking ears to detect voyeuristic insomniacs who would disturb the disorderly expressions of early experimentation. 3. White lady dusting the concrete path, sterile and unconfined laid new before careful feet making their way to shiny metal boxes bundled in seasonal expectations they trudge through stardust on their way to blood borne obligations, leaving behind careless tracks in ****** flesh 4. Blazing sun presses down on shoulders hunched behind compact table tops peddling penny prologues to unabashed strangers bartering unwanted pocket change for rejected trinkets haggling over half-dried finger paints and unfinished chess sets rescuing garish afghans from dusty closeted life.
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Oct 17, 2012
Oct 17, 2012 at 7:33 PM UTC
Concrete Drawbridge
A conversation over a cup of coffee (Sainsbury’s low quality) The kettle burbles in the background Bartering bubbles for blatant babbling The granules flop, shake if they stop Right from the top, into brown slop.   Stir with a spoon, Stare into the eye of the storm: Vanilla swirls, auburn curls, Minding their manners, glances from girls. Hazelnut eyes, thinking they’re wise. Smile contradicting the, frankly, **** skies. Pupils dilate, Chalk dusted slate, Tea leaves are telling me this must be fate Dumb conversation, Mind saying more, Something unsaid seems to open a door I’d rather its shut, its dangerous but Sugar, im just an emotional **** I’ll let you in, this time you win ‘Another coffee?’ You ask, with a grin.
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Mar 19, 2022
Mar 19, 2022 at 9:06 AM UTC
Coffee
War of the worlds,                                 men bartering money Dollar bills left abandoned,                                                blown to smithereens Battling dusts of torment,                                             acceptance of surrender Waging a money war,                                        business men flee In the shadows rises,                                    a fallen angel Akin to a phoenix,                                 from the ashes She symbolizes a renewal,                                              dying in fires Sparks burning a nest,                                        immortality supplying coffins Diabolical legacies of past,                                              bow & arrow Punctured wounding broken heart,                                                              wings disallow flight Stumbling a splintered hip,                                                reborn a chance Of independent determined autonomy,                                                                     la Cuesta Encantada Fallen at the gates,                                 an enchanted hill San Simeon seeking redemption,                                                         death awaits her Carrying body & soul,                                        Santa María Maggiore Of Roman baroque temples,                                                  small cascading pools Death releases her body,                                          the Neptune pool She floats without dissension,                                                    sinking in grace In all her glory,                            Hearst Castle will Entomb body & soul,                                       memories of her release release release Absolution. © Sia Jane
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Apr 2, 2014
Apr 2, 2014 at 12:12 PM UTC
Phoenix (from the flames)
War of the worlds,                                 men bartering money Dollar bills left abandoned,                                                blown to smithereens Battling dusts of torment,                                             acceptance of surrender Waging a money war,                                        business men flee In the shadows rises,                                    a fallen angel Akin to a phoenix,                                 from the ashes She symbolizes a renewal,                                              dying in fires Sparks burning a nest,                                        immortality supplying coffins Diabolical legacies of past,                                              bow & arrow Punctured wounding broken heart,                                                              wings disallow flight Stumbling a splintered hip,                                                reborn a chance Of independent determined autonomy,                                                                     la Cuesta Encantada Fallen at the gates,                                 an enchanted hill San Simeon seeking redemption,                                                         death awaits her Carrying body & soul,                                        Santa María Maggiore Of Roman baroque temples,                                                  small cascading pools Death releases her body,                                          the Neptune pool She floats without dissension,                                                    sinking in grace In all her glory,                            Hearst Castle will Entomb body & soul,                                       memories of her release release release Absolution. © Sia Jane
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The old man mumbles in a dying voice had my sons been alive. A tear wells in the daughter's eyes. She pours a spoon of water in his mouth and wipes his lips and her eyes. Having lit the pyre of his three sons he was willing to barter his daughter's life if that made God grant him another son and here is the daughter by his bedside feeding, cleaning and even shaving him her only prayer to God being to save his life bartering her entire means. Outside the thunder cracks the sky and she spreads a tarpaulin over the bed. my son laments the father. Inside her is no cover for rain.
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Mar 17, 2017
Mar 17, 2017 at 11:07 AM UTC
Daughter
A lot of people in life will say You owe them everything You have because they helped You get to where You are. Those are the kind of people that have never been put in check. So always make it clear, Never get it twisted: Help should always be charitable. Help comes from the heart of a humanitarian and not that of a businessman. Help is Help, not a bartering tool.
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May 30, 2019
May 30, 2019 at 12:15 PM UTC
Help is Help
through graceless steps and cleavaged twirls, girls shared repost with other girls, and the upper lips of the ladies curled, as the married men all swooned. they got bored all too readily, so drunk their liquid steadily, synthetically coloured blue and green, she'd seen the latest advert. and the boys in their polo shirts, drunk and high on testosterone, they took pictures on their camera phones, and called each other gay. the male claws began to itch, for the feeling of **** and the feeling of **** and the dancefloor was badly lit, so they knew they had a chance. sweaty hands and fluorescent teeth, moved through crowds to find their niche, and the necessity for niceties, was shortly overruled. uninvited gropes from behind, on bellies of those who looked like they might, be easily persuaded to bed that night, without heavy rhetoric. then came the bartering stage, those awkward five minutes in which to arrange, the consummating details, the exchanging of names, the reality of night. there were many things to factor in, tales of lost friends still waiting, I said we'd share a taxi home, and she can't walk alone. and after the barter is all complete, the scorned pick fights in the street, the end draws near finally, so the masses all go home. some walked home solemnly, whilst others share the company, of people they'd knew they'd never see, after the night is through.
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Oct 14, 2012
Oct 14, 2012 at 10:34 AM UTC
sweaty hands and fluorescent teeth
There inside the chamber sits, Awaiting patiently; Gathering discourse and their wits, To match with Chimpanzee. Primate statues loom the loft, ‘Mongst whitening Baboons; Fidget in their seats too soft, Indifferent of this room. For ghosts of former nobles peek, In shame, as they observe; The power of the abject weak, Enable them to serve. Parrots cackling ‘mongst themselves, As peacocks flaunt their fan; Gorilla preens, while tries to quell, With gavel in his hand. Chimp arises, intently poised, To embellish his appointment; Words rehearsed to fill the void, Deliberate and pointed. For he, and only he, shall reign, While rendering his will Upon the reaches, lakes and plains; ‘Pon feather, fur and gill. Yet irony betrays this horde, Of chosen beasts that thrive, Who seek to witness own accord, On who should live or die. Baboons and the Chimpanzee, May climb to endless heights, Gather fruit from tops of trees, And relish in their might; But those who scrounge upon the ground, Or forage in the sea, Cannot relate to this debate, Nor self-idolatry. So this becomes an exercise, In futile words exchanged; In bartering the truth for lies, Leaves jungle quite estranged. Such is then, the sacrifice, That satisfies this troop: Lions shall compete with mice, For homeland and for food. This seems just, this seems right, So pleased to then arrive, To alter former terms of plight, Ensure the like survive. Commune must have order, Compliance is then deemed; Life must have its borders, Confining self-esteem. Parrots flee to bring the news, Of brighter days ahead; While creatures of the air and blue, Fear the distance spread. Content to reconvene again, As this is their employ; Govern those outside the pen, Such honor they enjoy.
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Nov 14, 2010
Nov 14, 2010 at 6:08 AM UTC
Congress
There inside the chamber sits, Awaiting patiently; Gathering discourse and their wits, To match with Chimpanzee. Primate statues loom the loft, ‘Mongst whitening Baboons; Fidget in their seats too soft, Indifferent of this room. For ghosts of former nobles peek, In shame, as they observe; The power of the abject weak, Enable them to serve. Parrots cackling ‘mongst themselves, As peacocks flaunt their fan; Gorilla preens, while tries to quell, With gavel in his hand. Chimp arises, intently poised, To embellish his appointment; Words rehearsed to fill the void, Deliberate and pointed. For he, and only he, shall reign, While rendering his will Upon the reaches, lakes and plains; ‘Pon feather, fur and gill. Yet irony betrays this horde, Of chosen beasts that thrive, Who seek to witness own accord, On who should live or die. Baboons and the Chimpanzee, May climb to endless heights, Gather fruit from tops of trees, And relish in their might; But those who scrounge upon the ground, Or forage in the sea, Cannot relate to this debate, Nor self-idolatry. So this becomes an exercise, In futile words exchanged; In bartering the truth for lies, Leaves jungle quite estranged. Such is then, the sacrifice, That satisfies this troop: Lions shall compete with mice, For homeland and for food. This seems just, this seems right, So pleased to then arrive, To alter former terms of plight, Ensure the like survive. Commune must have order, Compliance is then deemed; Life must have its borders, Confining self-esteem. Parrots flee to bring the news, Of brighter days ahead; While creatures of the air and blue, Fear the distance spread. Content to reconvene again, As this is their employ; Govern those outside the pen, Such honor they enjoy.
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Acceptance persuades the release of a wavering spirit's decision Deeply invading the majestic powers employed With a false caress in a soft hush of a trusting notice Swiftly crumbling into a distinctive void Manipulation clearly receives delight in the pleasure Provided freely as a marvelous ploy To confine the wavering spirit in a restraining desert By the distinctive void containing no joy Alone and isolated in a twist of silent acceptance Fate begins bartering with a radiant light To command a truce without any persuading acceptance To try and avoid the coldest of desert nights A triumph disguised as failure has persuaded the release Of the wavering spirit trapped in the void No truce is accepted, still the radiant light has brought The wavering spirit such incredible joy
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Jul 29, 2010
Jul 29, 2010 at 8:26 PM UTC
No Surrender
Always some drunk ******* standing in the back of the bar who feels his life's mission is to continuously shout boisterous requests for "Freebird" during the encore. Second hand smoke thick as English fog and deadlier than a toxic chemical spill in the middle of the driveway. The load out and equipment set up in which the drummer inevitably excuses himself from working with any other piece of equipment besides his drums, since  "there a big enough hassle on their own". The inevitable bartering for free beer which during later years became a case of being lucky if you got your drinks at 50% off but even then sometimes you wouldn't be given a tab. The lone dancer at the very beginning of the first set, never the most attractive lady I in the house and all too often she made it through a whole song without a dance partner.  It always seemed like some kind if code, especially when an inebriated gentleman would hook up with her. But I never figured out what the jig was about. Always a drummer in the house, the real deal or an enthusiastic amateur. They will find a way to play the drummer's kit. Don't even try to stop them, for any reason. They will play. Likewise the older gentleman with the button up cowboyshirt, the one with the stale pack of Marlboros in the front pocket, he will try to impress you by claiming to know every song Hank Williams ever sang. The wise gambler bets that indeed he does have an encyclopedic knowledge of Hank's repertoire. Unfortunately he never claimed to have the pipes to pull one or two or three off himself...but that won't stop him from begging and soon enough he'll be under the spotlight singing "Your Cheatin' Heart" with every word and melody spot on but voice that could turn Hank's mother away. He is the anti-PR agent for Hank Williams. After people hear him butcher the songs they don't want to know what Hank sounded like singing them. The bouncer is your friend. If such is not the case before the show begins make every effort available short of paying him your whole salary to secure his loyalty. Trust me here. To be continued Yep, much more to com
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Oct 22, 2014
Oct 22, 2014 at 12:08 AM UTC
Things I hated about playing in a classic rock/country music cover band over the course of 30 years
Always some drunk ******* standing in the back of the bar who feels his life's mission is to continuously shout boisterous requests for "Freebird" during the encore. Second hand smoke thick as English fog and deadlier than a toxic chemical spill in the middle of the driveway. The load out and equipment set up in which the drummer inevitably excuses himself from working with any other piece of equipment besides his drums, since  "there a big enough hassle on their own". The inevitable bartering for free beer which during later years became a case of being lucky if you got your drinks at 50% off but even then sometimes you wouldn't be given a tab. The lone dancer at the very beginning of the first set, never the most attractive lady I in the house and all too often she made it through a whole song without a dance partner.  It always seemed like some kind if code, especially when an inebriated gentleman would hook up with her. But I never figured out what the jig was about. Always a drummer in the house, the real deal or an enthusiastic amateur. They will find a way to play the drummer's kit. Don't even try to stop them, for any reason. They will play. Likewise the older gentleman with the button up cowboyshirt, the one with the stale pack of Marlboros in the front pocket, he will try to impress you by claiming to know every song Hank Williams ever sang. The wise gambler bets that indeed he does have an encyclopedic knowledge of Hank's repertoire. Unfortunately he never claimed to have the pipes to pull one or two or three off himself...but that won't stop him from begging and soon enough he'll be under the spotlight singing "Your Cheatin' Heart" with every word and melody spot on but voice that could turn Hank's mother away. He is the anti-PR agent for Hank Williams. After people hear him butcher the songs they don't want to know what Hank sounded like singing them. The bouncer is your friend. If such is not the case before the show begins make every effort available short of paying him your whole salary to secure his loyalty. Trust me here. To be continued Yep, much more to com
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. night streets and scars of light                       scarves of light moving subtle bustles  of shadowed light carvings of royal light    robes of velvet light                         make out expressionist doorways strobes of light   fink and fit in protest         coding behind enemy lines captured light  fires colourful snakes about in flaring curved science tubes                       flagging the bartering night   flogging the                                                   urban night we've made apparition in honour of daylight and out of the theatre fear                        of our own bogged nature   synthetic ghosts of light                                  charge away ghosts electronic noises   scare away the horrifying lull of the dead                                       (a dead we don't believe in)           twenty four seven behaviour    to busy away the very spirits we have hungered and to plot against     all that unnecessary sleep business
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Sep 10, 2025
Sep 10, 2025 at 9:53 AM UTC
n i g h t - l i g h t
Nobody no longer contains the desire for unrefinity The urge to tap into the void smacks of divinity What exists in its place in the flesh market place Are bartering skill sets and chocoalte puddings When confronted by an invisible elephant The people, in consensus, turn away This happens within the day to day The elephants march on, heedless vessels Turbans floating downstreat, mainstream. ****** babble replaces conversation Emblamatic gestures infiltrate the realm of the symbolic The priests have all taken off their underwear And the women are putting their brasiers Back onto their chests, underneath their shirts Blouses are burnt. Toast is burnt. Jams are being made by machines, horses do have dreams Jelly and ice cream make delicate farts Ghosts live in pipes and buy and sell art People whose names are Horace or Rupert Have been decommisioned And the stories are locked in pie dishes And the tale remains the same. Remember, that future archeologists will exist. Excavating sites will bring us all To the kingdom of devon In the beautiful future of documented tales Which we are building for Inside the spaceships. When ponies are invalid and germs become common currency Know that it will be time to fly your pillow cases as flags
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Feb 23, 2014
Feb 23, 2014 at 6:40 PM UTC
Unrefined talent
My father always taught me to pick my battles, physical or otherwise. To choose very wisely what exactly was, and was not, worth fighting for. Years later I still struggle. My eyes are black and swollen while my father sits back, laughing in his sales pitches and stock options, bartering cubicles for candy bars. "Keep it up, son" he says, "keep it up. You’ll win one, eventually. Keep blowing chances and closing doors, don't worry, you'll grow up eventually." Yet I’m still here. Street cornered with broken bones and gutted pride, late nights spent throwing fists at passing shadows.
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Jan 24, 2013
Jan 24, 2013 at 1:34 AM UTC
Fighter
A newborn father wears a path to heaven in polished holy marble 'neath the pedestal of stoney saints. Deific overseers cast artificial glory incandescently. A slice of dimly lit hospital heaven is framed with two candles and the incense of Betadine. Saint John's shadow shares confessions and supplications over a once-immortal man now unashamedly broken, bartering trade with God - his life for his son's. This shoebox chapel is starking cold. Cold enough to preserve meat, and doubts which mock peace against nun-hardened walls echoing Satan's laugh. Hope drowns in the ripples of a basin filled with water to wash our sins but not our fear. In the air hangs the promise of eternity (which is spiritual code for "death", but no one says "death" outloud. The more they don't say it, the more it sounds like "WE AREN'T GOING TO SAY "DEATH", WE CAN'T POSSIBLY SAY "DEATH", UNTIL IT IS SO UNCOMFORTABLE THAT WE MIGHT AS WELL BE SAYING "DEATH, DEAD, DIE, DIE, DIE, DIE, DEATH AND TO TOP IT OFF...ON YOUR MOTHER'S GRAVE"). Yet piercing through the promise of eternity is the frail wail of his baby's voice. Legacy lingers in a plastic manger down the hall. Resurrection is more than a prayer, it is his spirit rising for one more miracle. Faith is summoned like a woozy fighter demanding his will to go on, beaten, half-concious on the mat refusing to lay down for the count. "God, I believe. Help my unbelief." The weeping man stares into a statue's eyes for salvation.
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Jun 16, 2014
Jun 16, 2014 at 7:49 PM UTC
Newborn Father (companion poem to My Ever Faithful Father by AR Roberson)
if the curves of my stomach offend you i suggest you get the **** off    of me but when this rage comes you speak so sof       t ly and wonder why i look at you like you burned me but you don't understand how predecessors of your gender have treated me. kind words have never been spoken to me soberly or without weight behind them like bartering in a dark corner bed while everyone else sleeps where i stop being a woman, an entity, and become an unfeeling orifice whose name has suddenly become                                           baby because a few kinds words were mumbled against the shell of my ear you don't understand how hands have grabbed me in the dark and how my own hands have grabbed only out of desperation to feel something you don't understand how hard it is for you to touch me and for me not to feel lightening hot repulsion as i lay drunk, ready to sleep. you don't understand how when people touch my hair all i can feel are hands curling against my scalp and the way cold-shaking hands curled around my dress and the way fear has been etched into the lines of my brain like a map of the city i know so well like that alley i can't walk down alone at night or that part of lexington where men shout at me hungrily or the way stranger's hands sometimes 'slip' you will never understand the weight of my insecurity because no amount of sweetness you can pour onto me can replace the venom fed to me by the men before you no matter how 'enough' i may be with you you will never understand how 'enough' isn't tangible how beautiful doesn't really feel like a compliment and how much i doubt you actually love me
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Jan 7, 2013
Jan 7, 2013 at 12:40 PM UTC
what men will never understand
if the curves of my stomach offend you i suggest you get the **** off    of me but when this rage comes you speak so sof       t ly and wonder why i look at you like you burned me but you don't understand how predecessors of your gender have treated me. kind words have never been spoken to me soberly or without weight behind them like bartering in a dark corner bed while everyone else sleeps where i stop being a woman, an entity, and become an unfeeling orifice whose name has suddenly become                                           baby because a few kinds words were mumbled against the shell of my ear you don't understand how hands have grabbed me in the dark and how my own hands have grabbed only out of desperation to feel something you don't understand how hard it is for you to touch me and for me not to feel lightening hot repulsion as i lay drunk, ready to sleep. you don't understand how when people touch my hair all i can feel are hands curling against my scalp and the way cold-shaking hands curled around my dress and the way fear has been etched into the lines of my brain like a map of the city i know so well like that alley i can't walk down alone at night or that part of lexington where men shout at me hungrily or the way stranger's hands sometimes 'slip' you will never understand the weight of my insecurity because no amount of sweetness you can pour onto me can replace the venom fed to me by the men before you no matter how 'enough' i may be with you you will never understand how 'enough' isn't tangible how beautiful doesn't really feel like a compliment and how much i doubt you actually love me
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It is not The sweet, far thing But that wretched, near Temptation. That in shame Follows my heart To the safety Of my soul's chamber. Temptation That undresses My guilty conscious And makes love To my dreams. Temptation With blue eyes And the voice of a gypsy, Speaking only In lullabies. Temptation Bartering my love For those limpid pools of ocean, Upon which I sail When drifting to sleep.
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Nov 15, 2012
Nov 15, 2012 at 10:04 PM UTC
Temptation's Lullaby
people always talk too much and I try to sleep anyway but silence is hard to come by and you must silence everything with a knife. (purebred aggressiveness is preferable to casual ****** even when solace arrives in the morning, as punctual as the mail, your bloodstained hands have still come away empty and you still want to be held. (too bad you don't let nobody touch you, too bad they get the idea after the riposte to the heart) Of course they have survived it; we lived in a civilized day and age, after all,but they will still steal furtive glances at you, like they're waiting for something to drain away the remaining time until you next explode. it's a fair price to pay for the skill to breathe words like mere ambient gases, for free thought and a good pen. at least , I fell for it. I was never good at bartering, and what more could I ask than to wield words? and so the cycle continues! life,death,ashes to egg,egg to firebird, firebird to ashes. people will continue to misjudge where they've stabbed you and you will continue to obediently burn all letters and end up listening to Thom Yorke sing about cheap *** and sad films.
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Mar 2, 2016
Mar 2, 2016 at 2:35 AM UTC
burnt letters
Halloween was always one of my Favorite nights of the year, Although the waiting was torturous As the date drew near. What to wear? was always the question. Not rich enough to be trendy, We put together makeshift costumes, And Dad would always pretend he Didn't have enough money To spend on fancy treats. "Besides," he said, "my theory Is basically sweets are sweets." We didn't have Darth Vader back then; Kids were pirates and cats, Skeletons, hobos, cowboys and Indians, Devils, witches, and bats. Mummies, scarecrows, fairies, clowns-- Whatever we could devise. Many kids were simply ghosts In sheets with holes for eyes. Ah, the treats: chocolate coins, Cookies, Milky Ways, Popcorn ***** candy corn, Necco Wafers for days, Abba-Zabas, Tootsie Rolls, Bubble gum cigars, Licorice, Candy cigarettes, And Snickers candy bars. We got Double Bubble in packs, Taffy, Cup-O-Gold, Milk Duds, Jujifruits-- A mountain of treats all told. The experts had TWO costumes And made the rounds twice, As if one giant bag of candy Was never going to suffice. Back at home we'd pour out our candy, And then the bartering started. Since I had two older brothers, I was usually outsmarted. Mom and Dad let us monitor Our own candy stash, And we survived the candy feast Without a sugar crash. Until I was fourteen years of age, I'd never had a cavity, Despite living in Candyland In utter sugar depravity. But I can still eat candy now And not go trick-or-treating, Though, granted, there are more nutritious Foods that I should be eating. - by Bob B
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Nov 1, 2016
Nov 1, 2016 at 1:11 PM UTC
Halloween 1950-Something
Halloween was always one of my Favorite nights of the year, Although the waiting was torturous As the date drew near. What to wear? was always the question. Not rich enough to be trendy, We put together makeshift costumes, And Dad would always pretend he Didn't have enough money To spend on fancy treats. "Besides," he said, "my theory Is basically sweets are sweets." We didn't have Darth Vader back then; Kids were pirates and cats, Skeletons, hobos, cowboys and Indians, Devils, witches, and bats. Mummies, scarecrows, fairies, clowns-- Whatever we could devise. Many kids were simply ghosts In sheets with holes for eyes. Ah, the treats: chocolate coins, Cookies, Milky Ways, Popcorn ***** candy corn, Necco Wafers for days, Abba-Zabas, Tootsie Rolls, Bubble gum cigars, Licorice, Candy cigarettes, And Snickers candy bars. We got Double Bubble in packs, Taffy, Cup-O-Gold, Milk Duds, Jujifruits-- A mountain of treats all told. The experts had TWO costumes And made the rounds twice, As if one giant bag of candy Was never going to suffice. Back at home we'd pour out our candy, And then the bartering started. Since I had two older brothers, I was usually outsmarted. Mom and Dad let us monitor Our own candy stash, And we survived the candy feast Without a sugar crash. Until I was fourteen years of age, I'd never had a cavity, Despite living in Candyland In utter sugar depravity. But I can still eat candy now And not go trick-or-treating, Though, granted, there are more nutritious Foods that I should be eating. - by Bob B
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The stars blinked out one by one, and for a second, I thought I had won. You always said I needed too much, that the world owed me nothing. But I wanted the debt anyway— wanted it piled high enough to scrape the edge of the moon. I wanted the universe to notice how I stayed up nights, bartering my breath for forgiveness and my spine for love. I thought the quiet was mine to keep. I thought I had tamed it— a wild joy, caged in the ruins of what we built. I bartered with silence, traded my dreams for detours, hoping to bend the night into something I could swallow whole— but it swallowed me first. The dark wasn’t empty. It was you—sharp as every breath I tried to hold, under a sky too proud to care if I fell beneath it. And the stars? They just didn’t want to watch anymore.
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Jan 7, 2025
Jan 7, 2025 at 9:50 AM UTC
Swallowing the Night that Swallowed Me Whole
Yesterday I fell asleep in class There was a soft humming Coming from the heater A girl was chewing gum And the professor kept talking And clicking on the PowerPoint I dreamt of Greenland How funny was it That the Vikings fibbed But if they were here today It wouldn't matter I dreamt of my feet Walking on rusted earth Warm and arid Comforting and challenging Leaving silt on my soles As the sun beat down Bleaching my hair I dreamt of bazaars and crowds within them Bartering, staring, leaning Turmeric coloring hands Cinnamon choking the streets Fathers teaching their sons How to run the business I dreamt of cold fogs In San Francisco Sticking under my eyes And under my clothes Towering green On top of steep cliffs Still yet ready to evolve Reminders of my hometown Of loud sirens and higher ground Prayers for the parking break I dreamt of snowfall in the city In the dank steam rising From the manholes and the sewers The palms all frozen and weeping The sea softly still The beach deserted The crowds piled into cafes Rubbing their hands Fiddling with Chapstick I dreamt of the broken White House fences Of small eyes turned downward Of everyone screaming Of my conscience ringing A bell It was too late for us from the beginning I awoke The professor kept clicking The girl had spit out her gum
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Oct 20, 2015
Oct 20, 2015 at 6:06 PM UTC
Yesterday