This letter I write to you, with my heart turned to stone
Empty this cave of sorrow, without your guiding light
This empty dark abyss, no longer feels like a home
Your voicemail on repeat, craving your voice
Bereft of choice, I scream at my phone

I love you! You the air that I breathe
Your name sweetened my life
Now a suffocating vice ,  I choke when I speak
Our love severed, by our bond it bleeds
From the broken promises it seeps
Cuts left wounds deep, left defeated and weak
Trying to remove the knife you stabbed me with
Tears me to tears when I feel

I thought our love was unique

You lifted the veil from my eyes
Happiness I no longer see
Replacing your love with hate
So I can finally be set free

This final letter, the beginning of peace
Breathe, I wipe my saddened tears
Erased from my scars, as I click delete

A phoenix rising from the ashes, drenched with the possibility of a new tomorrow
.... hope

I want to be married to a  future with this love obsessive, insatiable, I can't wait
....elope

The future is my protection from a hated past,my saviour, it will released me from caged thoughts ... escape

The enemy is myself,questioning self worth, getting in lost in despair
.......hate

This face that I wear, Is to hide my Tue self, this lie that I'm living
.......fake

Why do I keep on rhyming
Without even trying
It’s like these words has its own wings and just keep on flying
I get that your dying, but please just stop climbing,
This slippery ***** of hope
that leaves everyone crying
Knowing you’ll be missed as we are defining
The life left behind the conclusion
it’s subliming
Sorry! I mean sublime
there were some slime
on my pen and the word just went sliding
So back to the writing…
Where was I? Oh!  This looks exciting
Just let go and the afterlife most likely won’t even be that frightening…
Do I talk from experience
No!
Only hope that you are biting
And to ease off to the afterlife that some time seems so inviting
And all hope against hope
here’s to you dining…
with Kings.

Morning sun awoken slumber
Now a nightmare truly begins
Dreams becoming the hunted
Obstacles daily in-cumbered

Pushing through treacherous hurdles
Morning sun awoken slumber
Shedding all unwarranted burdens
whispering failures a cumber

Self worth in a constant wonder
Searching for all the fading stars
Morning sun awoken slumber
All failure singed within memoirs

To learn from all life's mistakes
Not to be another number
Happiness at times we must fake
Morning sun awoken slumber

The earth shatters
fear cloaks its hidden intent
Scattered earthly regrets, illuminates the darkened night sky
Enraged words of a mother wronged
Molten lava and promised lost destiny’s
Streams down like love lost reunited,
Into the hungry arms of enraging oceans eternally wronged
Fallen stars filled with tears crushes stabbing regrets
lost love and chosen greed
As prayer itself screams for salvation
Death hallowed grip releases the last hope of a tarnished race
The earth’s last word drenched with a fate always known
A word slowly whispered……Armageddon

Morning dew glistens off the surface of waking flowers
The sun happily calling the sleepy earth to awake this hour
Early birds flutters in song as their day begins
Sounds of love and longing fills the melody they sing.

Moment of peace before chaos arise
Silence before hatred split the divide
Serenity before pigment of skin matters
Tranquility before the ignorant chatter

Some demons awake with no ill intent
Earth screams in agony in quiet torment
Chaos rains in smiles and greetings
Choking on air she struggles breathing

Tears in the moons eyes as it arise
Dreams in prayer sent to the skies
Oceans rage with angered despair
trapped unhurried demise ensnared

As the night go silent
I can hear her breathe
Change in the climate
Close to being deceased

As I journey through the tracks of life, I lost my train of thought

Emotions avoiding to feel, it's closest touch of feeling, is distraught

Trapped in a whirlwind of unemotional cyclones
Feelings trapped, feelings caught

My essence seeping from my skin daily, I question of fight or flight
Decaying self worth
I fought

Dividing by zero, a bitter chaotic end, life has its lessons, I'm not listening
It comes to nought

I'm married to the darkness, a trial in error, the verdict still out
Im lost in court

A life settled in coin, casket to cross the river to the afterlife
Paid in full with despair
It's bought

I wish this train would return,
Take me with it on it's journey, let my self worth become my companion, I crave it
My escort

My love for you a thousand fold cloaks the universe in it's entirety.  
Reincarnations of my future lives has pledged it's loved soul to you
        Your essence my oxygen. a match adorned in heaven
A cocoon of hope, reborn as a phoenix with eternal love shared
     Giving every fiber of my being to you in it's splendor entirely

You are the conqueror of my frailty, my strength your luminescent smile
vanquishing the embedded dark, hidden within my tortured heart

                 I will journey with you to the earths end
                             A question never needed.

Deep into the mind of an eternal slumber
The thought of death crosses me
I struggle to push these armed thoughts away
Deep into my subconscious mind
Where bad memories has long been forgotten
Oblivion
The thought of nothingness overwhelms even the best of me
A life wasted
These thoughts darkened even my shadow
A innocent in my spiraling demise
I fight
To have but a speck of me etched in time
Oblivion
A word that shakes every ounce of my hope stained soul
Forgotten
A word more fierce to me then ten thousand scythed deaths
Fight I will
Till every word I give wings
bleeds my pen dry
Fight I will
Till the words I breathe reaches generation to come.
This will be...
My Speck etched in time.

As stormy feelings tears me deep
The last words you whispered tears I keep
God called you to his side
I don’t understand…This raging feeling I can’t hide
The promises of love shared
Now just scarred memories that I bare
Emotions flowing twisted and cold
I cry, no crave, your love your touch your soul
This empty feeling undying severed my heart
What happened to the notion we’ll never be apart
How do I live this life, how do I move on
I still need you, I still love you
Or are we just pawns
Broken hearts represents our stars
Your sweet lips on mine seems now so far
As a perfect union now broken apart
My love for you will never die…
I promise for you I eternally cry.

As stormy feelings tears me deep
The last words you whispered tears I keep
God called you to his side
I don’t understand…This raging feeling I can’t hide
The promises of love shared
Now just scarred memories that I bare
Emotions flowing twisted and cold
I cry, no crave, your love your touch your soul
This empty feeling undying severed my heart
What happened to the notion we’ll never be apart
How do I live this life, how do I move on?
I still need you, I still love you
Or are we just pawns
Broken hearts represents our stars
Your sweet lips on mine seems now so far
As a perfect union now broken apart
My love for you will never die…
I promise for you I eternally cry.

I spew this enflamed and enraged words
weighted heavily with sorrowful regret
The vivid memory of a promise broken, shakes my reason for living
A promise that our entwined souls sealed with a kiss
A promise seeping with such illuminating purity, Angels adorned our union.
The memory slowly ripped from my unsuspecting soul as the words screamed across your bitter sweet lips.
These words that shook every fiber of my being
It lingers with a numbing sorrow, it is as  death himself pried it from your cold lips
These words….
That only the devil himself could have forged in the deepest pits of hell.
Good bye!
The eternal vow to have your craved embrace for all eternity
To have your love as my soul mate even long after this world is a forgotten memory
As I look upon this broken mirror scattered to all corners of this dreaded existence
I can see the shards of my broken heart among them
An eternal vow….Broken

Life has been cruel to me, it couldn't get through to me
Continually calling my name calling constantly out to me, what does it want from me, what does it want from me
I'm living by my rules, It's making it hard to breathe for me
Leave me alone, let me break free from this mortuary.
Freedom an illusion forged by forgery, embedded in history
Forget me, I don't want conform to be part of this chaos and greed
The cancer of sceptic filth deep in to our society seeped.
It reeks, the stench of decay of innocent  souls reaped, horrendously embedded in the earth deep
When it's quiet and earth survived it's days riot, if you listen closely she sadly weeps
There will never be peace, segregation the key.
Split a world with hate, through a little screen.
Robbing our life while we complacent and they unseen

Run like there's no tomorrow
Cry only to alleviate sorrow
Live like our time is borrowed
lets not cower
take this life by the neck
imprint you are not a coward
the hurt makes us stronger
punch with everything you made of
even sorrow we devour
churn it in our soul
then spit out flowers
let your flamed courage bring forth the rain
let it descend
It's a meteor shower
let this winged words take you higher
soar above the chaos
i bet life will seem brighter
we are all born as fighters
its for us not give up
in this world
with all the power.

First track got released on Spotify, any support would be greatly appreciated.

In My Feelings

https://open.spotify.com/album/5k9VvA0ZHbDUBRgNpMjZWS

This is writing at its finest
I’m speaking to you, I guess you blinded
Let’s rewind it
Take a second to relax
Just exhale, let me try and explain the facts

I write to be different
Conforming to conformity
To me it’s a sin
I grin
The worlds in a spin
Greed rule, and our moral light is set to dim
I see the dark of this world
But have nowhere to swim

I’m drowning again
Can you not feel the pain
I’m not talking about mine, but those children’s dying in vain
Being slain
For someone else’s gain
Why can’t these monsters just refrain
I guess it’s a global issue
Though I still have disdain
Why should it stay the same
Just maybe
This life is a rigged game
It’s insane
Wait, let me stop
Before I start writing in flame

I get lost in your smile, a rose among thorns
You've been blossoming for awhile

I get lost in your eyes, windows to one's soul
a kaleidoscope of colors
I'll never make them cry

I get lost when you whisper,
The sweet nothings drips from your lips
Our tongues together quiver

I get lost when we touch
Your skin a silken petal
embraces the senses with lust

i get lost when you speak,
your words leading me on a journey
this path of discovery is so sweet

You get lost within me,
they say love is blind
our love for one another
is clearly.............all we ever see

same as your mom, I will always love you,
in two minds accepting you into this world
currently in the grips of war,
with every passing day, humans become worse
perverse, we have become cynical,
clinical in being tyrannical, it's what I observed
have no fear, I'll lay my life on the line to protect yours
I'm being sincere, you a blessing that brings light
the good in me you ignite, with hope you made me reunite
for you the world I'll fight, if they interfere

for you, I'll always, be there for you
I'll always be there for you

want you to know, in this world there will always be pain
sometimes it's inhumane, cry, there's no shame
it's what makes us stronger, eventually it fades
we'll create music together, as our escape
never give up, no matter what anyone says
you will always be great,

for you, I'll always, be there for you
I'll always be there for you

for you, I'll always, be there for you
I'll always be there for you

I'll give you what it takes
be there every step of the way, till you can take your own step
fly away,
I curse the day, I'm not here to stand in your way
here to love, support and guide you, till you find your sun amongst the grey
till find where you belong amongst the human race
I'll be by your side, till the day you find your place
If the worlds ever becomes to much to bear becomes grizzly
bare its teeth, loses grace
I'll always be there, if you need to find you
with open arms I'll embrace

for you, I'll always, be there for you
I'll always be there for you

If the card you been dealt becomes cruel
by chance I couldn't be there to see this through
know that I love you, always strive for the best version of you
to your values always stay true, I'll be with you every step of the way
from heaven I'll be smiling down on you,

for you, I'll always, be there for you
I'll always be there for you

Can you not see that I'm fragile
My heart you own wholeheartedly
I declared this out loud
There is no space for another
Yet
your heart has a devide
I see it hourly, if only you knew
It slowly kills me inside
I wish I could just let go
Rip open your eyes
You are the cause of my sorrow
The cause of my demise
You are slowly breaking me
If you don't feel what I feel
Let's say our good by's
I cannot be the one to leave
As your love, I still need daily to breathe
So please, I beg of you
It's just me
That I want you to see
We went through so much
I just wish I could break free
But it looks like
I'll just continue to die in this union forever......
Silently

I must have encountered the whispers of a gorgan in a past life,
my  heart has turned to stone...
Vines entwined with heartbreaks now grows where hope once reside
My shadow, a soul of it's former
Self
A journey of self discovery ended directionless
I'm lost,
healing voices fall on deaf ears, my demons bellowing hatred from it's darkened abyss
my light snuffed out,
My flame extinguished, like a candle in the wind of hopelessness
My mind caged,
Sinister thoughts treadmilling
worth decaying ....
These thoughts endless...

I use my pen to get rid of this overwhelming frustration….
When my life feel lost with no direction.
I call out but all that silence is the answer….
It really looks like I’m backed in a corner.
This is really when I’m truly at my truest…
Even when the whole world is acting stupid…
I’ll fight till I die!!
If not for me, then for my family’s pride...
So I’ll fight till I die as I said before….
A true champion I am …right to the core.
Don’t stress or don’t run or even make a fuss…
I’m rhyming aren’t I …without having to cuss.
So sit back relax I swear I’ll make it to the moon…
Without any help it looks like…I’ll still be there soon.
At the top I’ll look down to scurrying ants…
I’m up here I’ll call …just listen to their chants.
In my head it comes loud a voice screaming you fool,
Just chillax!... This dark time will be over soon.
To those reading and think this is not tough…
You try telling a story that rhymes with like...stuff…
This is a skill so why try and act buff.
I’ll slay your thoughts with my written rhyme….
I challenge you …no dare you… to give this a try….
When you fail remember what I said….. This is not easy, just ask the demons inside my head.

was you and i together forever, seems you need a walk to remember
here's a reminder, was a night in November, eyes locked
love at first sight, the world cloaked in splendour
felt lucky, found a four leave clover, with a smile
that elevates, i soared, when we kissed, angels roared
with applause, started humming love songs, felt that's where we
belonged, faith in life restored, together our hands body's
explored, ecstasy with every touch every moan a reward
our love goes beyond,  forever adored
together chose the road unexplored, we couldn't be separated
not even by divine intervention from the lord
even now as you swing that heavy worded sword
much as you wish to ignore, i know you recall

go easy on me, my feelings raw
the situation flawed, i cant comprehend
when did my angel fall, our love a revolving door
I cant do this anymore, one day its forever
next day broken my hearts sore

stage set
I'm drained by this encore, furthermore
further i cant go on anymore, if love hurts
its time to throw in towel, or stay on the floor
we were counted out, what we still trying for
what we fighting for, if its not to stay together
this relationship flawed,

heading to a cliff with no breaks
on ice skates, on snowflakes, sound the alarm we jump
or we going down, we burnt at the stake
this high stakes i love you but I'm about to break
my love was never fake, never a flake
I think of you still asleep or awake
if you love me too you'll walk away
if you love me you'll walk away, live to love another day in another way
without the pain without the pain
without the heartache and pain

go easy on me, my feelings raw
the situation flawed, i cant comprehend
when did my angel fall, our love a revolving door
I cant do this anymore, one day its forever
next day broken my hearts sore

its weighing heavy on me, a ton of bricks added on top our tragic story
a tragedy ending going up in a smoke of glory
burning memories of happiness erasing bliss with sad mornings
fights and tears falling this faulty I' not faulting
I'm no saint, but that's what i' saying trying to explain
we should pull the plug, our loves draining
summer snow tears raining
with you I feel more lonely
than being alone, not Lying tales, true story
we know we love each other immensely but we heat and rubber
toxic together we need a breather, we burning out
it's running a fever,
we part ways with out leaving
in my nightmares I'll be screaming, time to get lost
in my feelings, know i won't be here if you need me...

Cold as the winter Snow
Demons of my dreams
Why?
Won’t you leave me alone
Allow me to grow
You weighing me down
With your burning brimstone
I can’t condone
Taking the little good I have
To the trash it gets thrown
I wish to break free
And let the good in me flow
I wish to disown
This feeling’s so cold
Please, I beg you to just let me go
I’m through with this horror show
I think that it’s time
To resurrect …..my halo

Waves of emotion crashing over me, i break
it rises, it's time for the tide
increased levels of unwanted emotion, i fake
now floods every part of my drowning mind

Thickets of rooted regret follows my scent,
running through loathed forests blindly
looking towards the heavens, i'm ready to ascend
the wind of change blows within my soul, kindly

i'm running in a waking nightmare, dreaming
a marathon of dark dangerous deceived destinations
awoken in cold sweats wailing, screaming
demons whisper beyond the trees, getting lost in all translations

the sandman hugs me to sleep tonight
my head on a clouded pillow lie
my wary eyes has given up its fight
in my welcomed rem state, i say good bye

Candlelight flickers
You rest your hand in mine
You whisper you love me
My Angels words divine
I get lost in your eyes
Reflection of a better me
Our souls in love entwined
They say love is blind
All I see is you
In heaven, our union must have been designed


We kiss
There is no sweeter lips
Honey coated
I now know eternal bliss

This promise I make
Forever we will be
Eternity,
I loved you in past lives
So this promise I will keep
I love you eternally
Forever,
Even when our souls get reaped
This moment,
Our lives has begun
There is nothing else,
Our hearts now beat as one

I get lost on your curvaceous silhouette
Whispered calls to my heart on the backdrop of a starry night sky.
A galaxy of awaiting wonder

A journey I willingly venture on.
Swim in your sweet essence, sip on the nectar of your intoxicating love.
Your flowing hair red as mars, cascading as the milky way

Your eyes where my paradise lies, brighter than the brightest stars.
Radiating beauty, it lights even the darkest hour of my life.

You are my earthly Angel, even the heavens adorned our union.

Our growing love like the universe ever expanding.
Together hand in hand, with locked lips ascend beyond time.

Our love was sealed with a kiss
                 From heaven

Ever think why we hate?
these thoughts we need to assassinate
a dictator hater with a hateful nature
a rattlesnake.
love we should demonstrate
kindness is the drive we need to motivate
change evident even in cold hearts it penetrates
happiness within if we open our minds and stop chasing
dragons who are missing it never existed
stop talking and listen
To the voice inside calling
for us to be great again
without anger or pain
without chaos which rains on our parade.
our leaders degenerate creating feeble divides
while their pockets line
yet humanities
battling on the front line losing our lives
for reasons benign, forget it it's our time
for us to consciously reach a higher consciousness
start using common sense let's stop the
ridiculous in this merry-go-round of ridiculousness
we are the masses let us unite on a higher conscious
find peace on the inside forget all the lies
created to erupt hatred they rationalize
to destabilize. Stand up awoken and arise
let's usher in a new civilization with peace
and attainable dreams, excluding the screams
In our hearts and minds.

Time willingly caught in deja vu, Repeating this timeless moment
I slowly drown in your ocean blue eyes
In this heated atmosphere,we stuck, icily frozen

Your embrace releasing all the pressures of life
I breathe in your essence slowly,
every ounce of my being screaming to make you my wife
my earthly angel, defeating the nights so lonely

Your winged whispered word takes me higher
you are my oxygen, a match made in heaven
you set my soul on fire


So as i put your hand in mine, together we ascend
Our lips embrace with hungered tongues
Our immortal love, together we transcend.

As a rose lay upon a grave…
So is the beauty in death.
How do I pull my enchanted thoughts from such pleasure
As the aroma of an eternal bliss sweetens with every step…
The struggle
That of a thousand battles I daily live for.
Saved again…
Her kiss breathes new life into my empty existence.
Like the first breath of a new born child.
Bringing with it the hope of a new future
The oxygen of my being
Together living for the hope of a new tomorrow

Completely spaced out again
When will this endless voyage end
The cemented past does not want to bend
Tired of trying to will the impossible i'm spent

I'm just a feather on a breeze, going with the flow
Life is the navigator, it's steering the boat
Erupting emotions about to blow
Missing again, i lost hope

Thoughts spinning, caught within the eye of the storm
Separate from the world, my pen refuse to conform
To the sadness and chaos it is magnetically drawn
I feel the worlds pain, in my soul it's still warm

Words of wisdom i spew
From a broken winged mind it flew
What i preach, please don't misconstrued
These words come from the heart, a place of truth

Let's take a second and realize what to the world we have done
It's beauty a hostage, locked in cages and paintings for our fun
This worried message is a global concern, its for everyone
The world is decaying, Armageddon has silently begun.

Notions untamed running through my mind, a marathon of thoughts

A world derivative of past decay as it's cornerstone, the refurbished building blocks of our decayed future's
insanity

Lives the lesser value of coin,
Youth, their futures severed
by puppets of greed, cut short
guilotined

Prayers on their knees, screaming for the truth to be heard, while lies cloaks impressionable minds, like the dark with deprivation of light, deceived

Our purpose to destroy life, preservation reserved only for our bodied selves
selfish

The iris refusing to envision peace as the essence of life
blinded

My spirit look to ascend, soar above a human race that is embodied with cruel intent
escape

You took everything from me, the moment that you said that you leave
My lungs is now pleading me, constricted so I cannot breathe
Why you feel like hurting me, you know for you I'll always bleed
You know your tears are crushing me, why you blind and cannot see

Took everything from me, everything I need to breathe
take away your kisses, It was the touch I need to feel
why yo got to be heartless, forever in love was the deal
Why I got only memories, Playing on a saddened reel
Messes with my sensory, tears of sorrow I cant conceal
your silhouette still present, like I'm in a waking dream
reality a nightmare, waking moments left to scream

You know that I need you, everyday and every night
You know that without you, the moon will never shine as bright
you know that I'm hurting, daily heartache becomes my plight
You know that I'm broken, left in the dark with no sunlight

As bullets rains misguided
Promising futures beheaded for daring to dream of a life bettered
Mother’s tears streaming down streets laced with innocent blood
Greed, the artist of a colorful masterpiece captures sorrows and lost love perfectly with widowed tears
Fathers and mothers all but a saddened mystery to lost children craving their touch in times of need.
Hatred seeps from horrored spectacle as masters of greed pays their toll with the blood of the innocent
Insanity is the call of the day as history’s past lessons imbedded with tragedy and raging rivers of tears completely lost to a generation unknown to its hidden Pandora
With false promise of immortality doomed to repeat it’s never ending self destruction
Insanity ……the repeat of our own demise

Why it like this?
See a anthill as a mountain untill we bridge the hurdle and fly over it, over sight
Looking back i can no longer  see my irrational fears
Washed away by all of my rational tears, hindsight.

Never forget we borne in a state of fight
Even if the evil of the world attempts around every corner to shut it out
We push through the blinding darkness
In our hearts we will always have a guiding light
Sometimes we wonder if we living right
The fact that you asked that question
Its a type of consciousness, so I have no doubt in your plight for righousness.

How did we get to this point
When the meaning life of has become less than a point
Everything we lead to believe is fake
There's no truth in this world
It got out, it escaped.
It disappeared with real history
Written in masquerade ink
Hiding mistakes and atrocities.

So in essence they killed it
So there is no escape.
So do we accept what they falsely feed us
Even though we know that it's fake
Nations wiped out,
displayed in musuems
History's grim laced with snakes,
Alexander was great, but Gengis was a tyrant that all woman he *****

What's the difference? Colour of skin.

Now do get where I'm coming from
Open your mind,
Stop eating
the sugary mold they've been feeding
To dampen the mind and truth becomes lies
The revolution is now,
Like a phoenix from the ashes new hope will arise.
Don't stay blind
Open your consciousness
Give your thoughts wings let it soar above the chaos...
The truth can no longer hide
We opened our eyes
The end of all lies should be Nigh.