Inflamed with desire
  You will never meet
I often ache for it
  But always out of reach

The slow burn inside
  Becomes absolute
Yet there is never
  A chance to see its truth

I have become
  A person of only one
Never believing
  It could ever be fun

Then stricken
  With a sense always unknown
It has made within me
  Its very home

No longer will it be
  Absent from the mind
I smolder it only
  As a gift to be kind

For you To live my life
     It is difficult you'll see
For after about an hour
     You'd want to be freed
You just might finally
     See different and heed so many words
This time You will look at me differently
     I promise my every spoken word

I write my sadness
   To help explain

Without pen and paper
   It's just a stain

I am you
  You are me

So starting this day
  Let us all come to be

To share my feelings
    With my best of words
Is so deliberating within
    My most vulnerable state
I seek you often
    Though not every day
It spills from my lips
     After day upon day
And night after night
    When i feel there is not much
       Left of me inside
I lay here remembering
      All the days that have passed
And a tear slips down my face
      For the forgotten child
           who lives lost within

Fragile keep silent as we all can see
Truth there are no words to be spoken of
And the able speak loud and will strive to be
They continue on and still yearn to love

Then the silent reap not of one
More tear
Only to give in on their dark set hour
While the able cling to gray skies of fear
Upon which they shed another tearful shower

Then the silent no longer walk this land
Truth they have gone to a far away place
While the able see upon the fear and stand
With a heartfelt tear falling down their face

So it becomes that all shall understand
Fragile are gone and the strong forever stand

I breathe to stay alive in a world I'd rather not be in

It is such a natural thing, to fight for life

Yet, I also fight the urge to live
In this world

My fear of living with such pain day in and day out

Ii's not natural, yet I constantly think of death and how the pain would end

Laying beside him and unable to speak
He wraps himself around my every breath
Unfolding into his sensual warm wet kisses
If I go away this moment
I will have known what it feels to be loved
Finally

I want to love you
    It seems impossible
I yearn to love you
    But its not within reach
For you to love me
     Is more than i can love you

Always strive deligently far within

Until you see that spark of trust again

The thoughts are present
  Of yesterday
The happiness we had
  In such a way
Then night came to bring
  A new day
It was then that the trust
  Slipped away

The paths taken
   Feel so unforgiving
To hear the words
   You say are true
Stand strong and linger
    With a bitter taste

Can't you tell what's
    Right or wrong
And if the affects
     Lay within my reach
Just yesterday
     You pulled me in to help
          Feel safe
And now your like
   The Cheshire cat
       And his foolish grin
How can you wear two
     Faces at a time
Which one do you feed
     At any given time

The weight of this soul brings
Not of joy
Sadness generates and permeates continually

The song of contentment never at hand
Only waves of disturbances crashing one after another

Never allowing a breath of freshness
Only the harshness that burns the lungs

Bringing a heavy heart only made to carry
Slowing down this shell  it evolved in

The love of another brings with it such fury
When at first it only felt so light and hopeful

That which is seen by the eyes for all others
Never knowing it is part of ones make up

The age of which one becomes it's own
Given by the creator to grow and see that it prospers

Try not to pour more hate upon
Me
The nature of what sits within allows no strength to guard it off

Must walk away from that small pebbled path

For to continue on
Hurting bare feet

Is to blind yourself
From your own defeat

I will keep walking ahead
   No matter which path

For there's no wrong way
   or right way

Print after print
   never leaving an end

The proof shows the strength
   Of undying hope always striving within

Dark cold nights must come
Stealing life with eyes upon
Til death be to some

Whispers whispers
The whispering we all hear
He who
Whether alone or with others
Lends a listening ear
Should understand the loss
Of another's
Reputation
And protect it always
By rejecting
Their whispers
By expressing
With a hault of Their hand

Loneliness smothers me in the night
  My mind tired of the ride
Blissful thoughts
  Are not even a trickle

I whisper sadly
   You should JUMP
Then loneliness
  Shall be no more

I cry to myself
  I deserve more from me
How did I get here?
  Is what i ask

I cannot remember
  This day or night
For it takes its stroll
  Right through the light

Only to leave me
  On this same old path
How did i get here
  Is all i ask

There is not
  But just one ride
I answer myself
  Just hold on tight!

Let me go
   To where i will never be known

To laugh
   And play with no such shame

To the fools who claim
   They know you better

*******, *******
    You must not know any better