You're my addiction
my guilty pleasure
everything you are
is a treasure

I tell myself
to let you go
but the urge
to see you
overgrows

You're the only one
who makes my heart pump
And you're the only one
who can make it stop

All I see
is risk after risk
but what is life
without a little
danger?
After all,
you're no stranger

People call her beautiful
but I know better
after all
beauty is more
than skin deep

She's the devil in disguise
nobody sees past
her puddles of lies
she's ruthless and cunning
she sends all the
good guys running

There's no hope for her
all she wants is to conquer
she's like the wind
she can never be caught
but boy, oh boy,
she can be brought

The darkness;
A hollow demise

Filled with torment,
and torturous cries

Being chosen second
or maybe third
is a hurtful thing
even if it was only a fling

I was never someone's
first priority
I was only one girl
of a majority
I was never the one with
someone looking out for me
I was never the one
dreamt of in their sleep

I wanted to be looked at
like I was the best thing
the world could offer

I just wanted to be wanted
I was desperate for love

My body burns
it tells me things
eat, eat, eat
it says

The hunger is overwhelming
my throat is on fire
'food will come soon,'
he tells me
liar liar liar

My stomach grumbles
I let out a groan of pain
he grabs a lighter and
sets the stove aflame

I watch as he cooks
mouth watering, I see
he sets out the plates
one for me
one for his date

But it is not for me
he sets it on the table
his date digs in
so does he
he lied, it is not for me
liar liar liar

He looks down at me
takes in my pleading face
he winks and chucks a chicken leg
'don't tell Trace'
he says

I look at the chicken
all cooked and sweet
but then I see the dirt and hair
laying upon the chicken
that's not good to eat

I look upon my paws
why can't I be fed like them?
I may be an animal,
but they are being rational

Why want a dog,
when you cannot feed them?
why call me family,
when you do not treat me like one?

I want to be free,
like a bird
I want to fly but
not be heard
I want to go places
without a degree,
but that's the rule
of society

We are all caged
like rats at a lab
scratching at the bars
trying to grab

What's the point?
Why cage us, why break us?
Why make us appoint?

I want to be free
not sit here, caged
thinking of treachery

Now I see
we live in a dollhouse
they are the puppeteers
and we are the dolls
we will never be free
we will always be behind walls
and them?
they get to walk
through the halls

I loved you in the same way
the water loved the shore,
even when you tried to drown me,
I came swimming back for more

You told me it was just fun and games,
you told me it was cool,
you rolled the dice and bet on our love,
I guess I really was a fool.

It felt like someone had made a dagger out of ice,
dipped it in poison,
then stabbed me thrice.

Now I know to never trust you again,
nobody,
not anyone, has to tell me twice.
You had gambled our love,
now you must pay the price.

Their words
****** and harsh

Their lips
soft and pouted

How can such
***** words
fall from such a
beautiful mouth?

Their eyes
fierce and cruel

Their mouth
pulled to a scowl

How can such
gorgeous green eyes
be so horrifyingly
ruthless?

Jealousy ******
the feeling you get
when you watch them
make up

The anger that boils
just under your skin
grows stronger
as you watch them grin

The hopeless feeling
climbs up your spine
there is no hope anymore
you let out a whine

He had led you on
then left you in the dust
well at least you know
who not to trust

Judging eyes
look upon me
they know nothing
of my story
yet they judge what they see

Judging eyes
stare at me
criticizing my looks
my choices
my passion
my right to being free

Judging eyes
are a curse to me
they think they know me
I disagree

He steals my heart,
like a ****
But I don't mind,
he's like a drug

His eyes
capture me,
lock me in a cage,
never to be free

He's like a rainbow
after the rain
he's there for me
through all the pain

He's the thousand stars
I'll never catch,
he's too out of reach,
and I'm just too attached

He's the foot prints
in the sand
the waves wash over
hes out of hand

He's the one I love
but he doesn't know
I guess that's why
I have to let him go

Caged and shackled,
the darkness grows
a cold wind crept upon my toes
the small fire crackled
before the flame retreated
now, oh now,
I feel cheated

Unattended,
no food or drink
all I hear
is nothing but a clink
I feel my heart drop
like a stone
because I know
I'm all alone

His eyes,
brown
pools of chocolate
my hands reach to clasp
the gift he has given:
a locket

His hair,
midnight
like a raven's wing
on my hand
his promise:
a ring

His skin,
tan
like the sand on the beach
a badge held in my hands
reminding
he is out of reach

On the table
a note lay
tears fell
dropped to the note
smudging the lines
of which they wrote

He was gone
out of reach
lost in the storm

I felt cold now
he was the one
keeping me warm

You lead me on
Oh, so cruel,
You told me I was the one
But you knew it wasn't true

My self worth is gone
Lost in the dawn
And its all because of you
If only you had
just told the truth

What do I do now?
You were my world
I guess I should get over you
But how?

Feelings can't be
gone overnight
If only I hadn't
Entered your sight
I guess now-
All I can do is write
And I'm not going to stop
not until my
fingers are white

It's strange how
fragile
life is

We're all delicately
put together like paper dolls
ready to break at
any given point

Our bodies
weak
so easily destroyed

A knife to the heart
A bullet to the head
A hideous accident

It's unfair

Why live
only to go through such pain?

Grief hits me
like a punch to the face
I see the casket being lowered
covered in lace

My hands shake
my heart breaks
nothing is good anymore
because he's gone

There's no hope
to carry on
reminders of him
plague my mind
he will never be
left behind

Life without him
is like being blind
nobody is the same
everyone is too kind

But there's still hope that
maybe he's waiting for me
because it's not the same
without him

It will never be

Words leave their mouths
they cut me to the bone
scars lit my body
but they don't know

Each verb hurts
each one more cruel
each one creates
another scar
and blood pools too

Eyes stinging like acid
my body flinches back
somehow
their words are more
hurtful than a smack

My insides were frozen
my body numb
my heart was broken,
and expression glum

I guess I can thank you for that
After all, you made me this way
It was all because of you
Nobody else to blame

I shed no tears
because you aren't worth them
but as the rain falls to the ground
slides through leaf stems
I realize
the sky is crying for me
the water falling from the fruit tree

There is an allure
to the forbidden

the greater the risk,
the more tempting
the prize becomes

We battle
we swipe
for hours
upon hours

We battle until
showers fall
upon the flowers

It always ends
in sweat and tears
it's sad to say
this had been
happening for years

My friend once told me,
"he loves you so much,"
I don't think so,
if he loves me
why would he
battle so much?

Then again,
maybe she's right
After all,
what's love without
a little strife?

Her wise eyes
are oceans of demise
color of the sea
forever trapped
never free

Her wise eyes
have been through so much
love, hate,
countless dates
her wise eyes
bear the softest touch

Her wise eyes
radiant like
a thousand suns
have been through torture
have heard the sounds of guns

Her wise eyes
have seen too much
now she keeps the memories
never to show
never to touch