I can still feel your hands on me,
The way they took, the way they gripped at my skin until I screamed.
You liked hearing me scream but you held a hand over my mouth just in case there were ears nearby.
You bruised my lips with how hard you held my face in place, I could barely breath.
Your hands they took, savagely, selfishly
Your eyes trailed my body with a tenderness that you couldn't possibly possess.
They humiliated me, for I was open, helpless.
Weak.
You took and took, and you ******* took!
I cried, I kicked, I begged, but you were all about finishing what you started.
I can feel your hands, everyone who has ever touched me has your hands.
I'm crying, I'm crying, I'm crying, somebody help me, please stop, no more!
I want to feel pretty but not like this.
I flinch at the unexpected embraces.
I awaken in fright when I should be at peace in the night.
You took.
And you couldn't even look me in the eyes because you knew.
You knew
...
But you still took.

I'm stuck in an elevator
Between floors
I can't remember if it was going down,
Up,
Maybe sideways,
I guess it doesn't matter anymore.
I'm stuck in this lift,
Alone,
I've always been alone.
Ten years ago I thought I was,
You convinced me otherwise
Now you're gone,
Moving up,
Or down,
With somebody else.
And I'm stuck,
Between floors,
With myself.
You told me in the end I was terrible company,
Now I know,
It's true.
I don't know that person
Looking back at me
In that mirror
In a lift,
That is stuck
Between floors,
Maybe 9 and 10,
Both are my lucky numbers,
Not anymore.
I've been trapped in this cabin
For hours
Perhaps days,
I'm not sure
You took my watch.

I loved you with all my young heart.
All I could see was you and I. You were what I thought would be a permanent part of my every day.
324 days I spent in your embrace.
Until one day you grabbed my poor heart and tore it apart.
She took you from me. But did you know, she wanted nothing to do with you?
You handed me to a boy who only saw me. But did he know, I wanted nothing to do with him?

And now you have become my closest friend. And do you know, that even though I will never forgive the boy for his actions, that I have fallen for him?

I miss you my love, my first, my best friend.

She selfishly took from me what I wanted most.
Broke my spirit, Every bit of it.
As I watched it all fly away,
I wondered if I could stand again
If my spirit could be rekindled.

But today, I looked back and am glad she did...
Am grateful she took it all
And savoured it all
Without a second thought.
It could have been my downfall
To a bitter pit
Not sure how deep and dark the pit would have been,
But am sure she saved me
From a lifetime mistake.

Because now I can fly..
Far beyond my imaginations.
Now I see clearly
That such a dream couldn't have been enough for me.

I want more
I deserve more
And I won't stop flying
Till I find a nest
Bigger,better and for eternity.

Am finally free
To love and live again
To reach for my dreams.


November 20,2014

I've run out of stories to tell
about how you took
the best of me.

I don't care that you left, you know.
All you took was my happiness.


F.Z.**N

I hate that you took my breath away
And took off