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adept Jul 2018
i’ve held on for awhile now,
and all the while telling others
to let go. so this time i am going
to listen to myself, i will
officially let go now that i know
the truth, and it’s a long fall to
rock bottom.
it feels good to be freed from your own conscience.
Shofi Ahmed Oct 2017
It broke through the black box
shining down the sky
the first light touched
the bottom of the night!

Yet the sun sets, flies away.
Didn’t it catch the black swan night?
Kewayne Wadley Jul 2018
I had this tremendous fear.
The mist soon all around;
The water around capsizes.
Substance attends, a funeral of sorts.
I've never ventured this far.
Soon they return, looking back.
Fleeing wildish scream.
My former thought bold.
Such my hope.
Resurfacing the ill fated.
The thought of sinking.
Forced to roam in darkness.
Where would I place my feet.
Perplexed, nothing was the same.
Cold, unable to find comfort.
I drifted, longing to chance the size of waves.
Distant waters courteous in expectation.
I too braced for it.
Becoming motionless.
Awaiting descent.

Not all ships sink.
The voyage extended from strangers eyes.
When the wind stops and the sail settles.
Some peculiar gaze, heavily weighed in length.
The ship sinks.
But this I feel far too late.
I am at the bottom.
The bottom of her heart
liza May 2018
the basement of depression
was where i learned my lesson:
temptations of death
are the feed of bad thoughts

i had to decide
to leave those habits behind
- it left me homeless
but in hope was where i lived.

under the bottom of rocks
life found ways to throw me down
But i kept on going
even if it meant by crawling

up the basement's stairs
i had no sight
but i was desperate
for something bright

So, i kept on going
kept on crawling
dragging myself
closer to light


;
Shawn Callahan May 2018
They say you can't fall anymore than Rock Bottom
But I've painfully crashed a thousand times, and
melted into the Earth's Core; filling the cracks
With liquefied remains of what I became...a failure.

My broken pieces caught in alluring lies
and tangled Bed Sheets

Rock Bottom is every bed
A boy has invited me in
Because I could not accept
God's knock on my chest.

Rock Bottom is every cigarette
I've shakenly put between my lips
Because I could not let
God's words fill me.

Rock Bottom is each step away
from my Body
Because my soul-my remains
Are left alone above someone's covers.

My soul is locked away in a room
I can never return to.
It's been captured in his bed.
So I fill myself with broken glass
hoping the reflection of what once was
shines through.

I drown myself in self-deprecation
Praying that a form of baptism
Will return my soul to me...

But it wont.
Not until I open my chest,
Not until I fill my lungs
with scripture.

My soul was captured
Because God told me
Who the Devil was...
Charismatic, body like a snake, and
Eyes filled with love...maybe lust?

But the thought of happiness captivated me
And comfort was found in his arms...
I ignored God- calling him a fool.

Now, I must heal and find my soul
Because I didn't listen the first time.

I open my chest
My lips spill with alcohol soaked apologizes
And He still holds me,
Cares for me,
He has not Forsaken me...
like I had Forsaken myself.
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I used to think that no one can ever love me until I met you

It was a sunny morning
Sunlight beaming and kissing my pale skin
I was deeply in love
Fallen head over heels
Moved mountains for you

A storm shattered my soul
It continued to hunt me
A ghost that was created by you-- who I truly trust
You caused me so much pain and yet I stayed

My love is greater than your flaws..
I said
I loved you unconditionally
I helped you change
Be better
Did everything and whatever I could
To save what's left of us

I never knew then
I was going downhill
Rock bottom
I was empty
Something has changed.. I realized
I cannot give anything now
I tried to control everything
Nothing is working--
                Nothing worked...
                                ...and so it ended

                                            - Ella Salvador
(c) February 2018
Amanda Kay Burke Apr 2018
You swear you're happy, are you really?
It looks like you have fallen far,
My harmful actions dethroned you,
And left you a hardened scar.

How can you gift forgiveness?
I am a deep drain at the bottom of a shower stall,
Too many insults accumulated ,
They sometimes back up but I swallow them all.

You are a boundless river,
I will have to throw in some satisfaction,
The curl of red-tipped waves crash,
I am the reflection of each careless action.

Truth hidden in monotonous glare,
Smell of disappointment and unrest,
I fell for you, you fell first,
I was the one to hear your heaving chest.

I know I need to jump the rare chance,
Show you the light inside the dark,
I have not been the best version of me,
I completely hate myself for leaving that aching mark.

I have many problems and flaws,
Sitting in the past waiting for them to self-correct,
You lost your sanity dealing with issues,
I never learned how to nurture; only neglect.

We dizzied eachother spellbound,
I am unsure if I bring you more joy than pain,
I am trying to clear our stormy skies,
In the meantime we will dance in the rain.
Life isn't about avoiding the storm, it's learning to dance in the rain.
Amanda Kay Burke Apr 2018
VERSE 1:
Pick the glass up off the table
I take another drink
There is an empty bottle of whiskey
Sitting in the sink

I do not know why the alcohol
Will not keep you off my mind
It seems it has always worked
Every other nightly time

Memories are too strong
And I cannot be alone
I stumble until I find
The nearest lonely telephone

CHORUS:
Call you up drunk
Get the message machine
Say I love you and I just wanna know
Do you somehow still love me?

VERSE 2:
I am from a dusty small town
And so tired of the ways
Locals cover up their hurt
With the command each obeys

We shine like stars in the world's sky
Swim in a substance-filled sea
Fill our stupid souls with *****
Til full and still are empty

CHORUS

What else will numb the pain
When the pain and sorrows won't pass?
We are all just chasing our problems
To the bottom of a glass
An old song I wrote, to the chords Am C F Em for the verses and C F C F C for the chorus.
XPY Apr 2018
They say when you hit
Rock
Bottom,
The only way left to go
Is up.
But what happens
When I reach
the top
of the mountain?
What happens
when there is no way
to reach higher?
is that my Limit?
When you reach the bottom,
the only way left to go
is up.
When you reach the top
Can you go no further?

I think
I’m crashing down.
Based on the "gifted child burnout" troupe.
© KMH 2018
nicoarty Apr 2018
It’s when you reach the bottom
Can feel no lower down
No longer can see the Sun blazing over you

That’s when we turn our heads up
To the sky above
Seeing nothing but the starlight chandelier
Hanging over

And dream of flying,
   amidst it all

Of laughing and spinning our way
Dancing through life
In sparks of never ending beauty
Feeling weightless
              For all the world to see

For it is only ever in the darkness
That we birth our brightest dreams
Im not promising I can stay positive but I know I’m going to try my best when I can, and I know how I can get there, how about you?
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