how
are
you ?

oftentimes
it is better
to leave words
unspoken
and unheard

for truth
can be too painful
that it is better
to turn a blind eye
on things
that might have occurred

what if love
isnt just really
meant for people
like
us?

should we stop loving
or continue to chase
that magical feeling
called
love?

i've always wanted to write more
but i am here
gasping for words
overwhelmed by poetries
drowned in my thoughts

if i could
i would kiss away the pain
with poetries and prose
for all i know is write
until all the tears are out dry

but i couldnt

he collected me
once every piece
and shaped my edges
for him to fit me in

and then when he left
returning those parts of me

it no longer fit
the way
it used to be

maybe you were in love with those conversation we shared by the balcony while staring at the sky

or maybe you were in love with those sweet messages i sent you as soon as i wake up

or maybe you were in love with those poems i wrote for you specially when you are feeling blue

maybe you were in love of the idea of me being there

maybe you were in love with those,

but never with me.

do you love
when you are ready
or just whenever
love is there?

"why are you writing
poems and prose?"
asked a guy out of nowhere
while staring at my pen

"to breathe."
I answered with a smile

for writing lets me indulge
with metaphors and similes

it is my escape
the key toward my fantasies

i wonder
how terrible
things are going
around your mind
that you are able
to write those pieces
so heartbreaking
yet so beautiful

you are not asking for too much
no, you are not
maybe he is just not the right person
because the right one for you
will go even through the depths of hell
just to give you whatever he can
and he will love you
so much
that you will regret
asking your past
the least he can give.

i loved
comparing you
to sunsets
but now i am afraid
that i did

for sunsets
are portraits
of beautiful endings--

and ours was nothing to keep

you are
the complete personification of the ocean

deep and enchanting,
so blue yet charming,

and i am a swimmer

allow me to explore,
unravel your mystery

let me dig deep,
solve you 'til eternity

i don't know
but it lingers within me
flowing through my veins
causing my muscles to ache
scratches my heart
and causing that pain

i must say
that emptiness
is finding its way
to knock down my walls
and make me think
about those dismays

never stop until i fall
into the grave of darkness
disappointment
and loneliness

i am slowly fading
but sadness keeps on prevailing

probably ours
was a very unlucky love story
for you were the sun
and i was the moon

you possess beauty
without me
while i can't even shine
without you.

i hope you realize
how precious
you are
whenever you wear
that smile

Let me pick those dull daisies
Supplant those with roses and lilies
Take the agony and sadness away
And I'll replace it
With ravishing orchids
As you do the same thing
With these flowers in my head

Let me pour love
And watch you bloom
As the sun shines directly
Towards us two
Continue growing with me
Even days are blue
This love will g r o w --
And so us, too

you can try
to cover my mouth
close my eyes
block my ears
and put my hand down

but you can never stop
a heart
that shouts for her rights
a heart
who wants to resist

because a heart that loves
loves so hard
and if she fights
she fights so hard

"are you
still in love
with me?"

asked the moon
with tears
flowing down
her cheeks

"i am afraid
that i
no longer am."

answered him
as he vanished
from the sky

the setting sun
leaving the world dark
leaving the moon behind

Disaster shalt dominate thy world,
Let the catastrophe within unfold,
Once a feeble humain being,
Be a living fiend― with havoc it brings

Thou shalt be wrathful,
Like darkness let it manifest your soul,
Hatred shalt flow violently in your blood,
With thy anger sins shalt flood

Wreck your life― for I will do it to your soul,
I am your aftermath― start digging your own hole,
Towards thy master― king of all evil
Prepare thyself― as you turn into a devil

Turn into a ravenous human,
Have a piggish demand on foods and drinks,
Go and be hungry even you are asleep,
Never be full― have an excessive eager to eat

I your master― said once that thou shalt be gluttonous,
Like a pig go and be voracious
Satisfy your hunger and cravings,
Drinking and eating what you want is never sating

For after thy life in land,
No food shalt pass in your hands,
Hunger and fire will **** you continuously,
So go and eat― before entering hell to join me

❝  i am commonly mistaken,
to be the answer for your hatred,
the result of your depression,
and the end of your misery,

i am used by people,
to suppress the pain,
forget the agony,
and escape the nightmare that they face,

yet i am the reason,
why each person close to your heart,
experience the pain,
and face their darkest nightmare,

i am the reason,
why they experience agony,
encounter depression,
and starts feeling the misery,

your loss is their downfall,
so please stay away from me,
i can't be your friend,
and we can't be together  ❞

Thou shalt follow me,
Be with me 'til eternity,
Turn into someone I want you to be,
With my decree thou shalt obey me 

Thou shalt be envious,
Like a culprit get what you want to use,
Live with thy desire,
Happiness of others you should acquire

Thou shalt be gluttonous,
Like a pig go and be voracious,
Satisfy your hunger and rapturous cravings,
Drinking and eating what you want is never sating

Thou shalt live with lust,
Like a tigress in bed you must,
Embrace the desire you have within,
Coquettishly caress and savour someone's skin

Thou shalt be wrathful,
Like darkness let it manifest your soul,
Hatred shalt flow violently in your blood,
With thy anger sins shalt flood,

Thou shalt live with thy pride,
Never ever let thyself subside,
Walk with your pretty cruel soul conceited,
Shalt not let thyself be defeated

Thou shalt be greedy,
Like me love thy life acquisitively,
Have the excessive desire to take what you don't need,
Earn what you want no matter if you exceed

Thou shalt live like a sloth,
Do nothing just lay at your couch,
Survive like a narcoleptic man,
Just sit down and hope that something will be done