Submit your work, meet writers and drop the ads. Become a member
 
 Apr 2014 Paridhi Sharma
Rl
The past can make it so easy to relapse

not because of the past itself

but

running away from it

and burying it in the subconscious,

hiding it away and letting it silently

fest fest fest.

Is what causes you to be haunted.

---

Pain;

A raging sore, a deep wound, an eternal scar,

just wants to be felt; acknowledged.

So I try not, to ignore it

when I see the marks of the past; knives

digging into the valves of my heart; pain

even when it comes back

strong and hard and fighting

like a hurricane

carrying me away under water

suffocating the freedom in my punctured lungs

I will not let it destroy me.

—-

Its not because I am weak that I struggle with it

but the brain is strong; be aware...

For thoughts can make you a victim of your own mind

though I hope
there will be a time when

healing, that miraculous God-sent healing is at the end.

When

you stop ignoring the past

and instead start loving those broken pieces, the shame you felt,

the fear that crippled

and realise

it will soon ease, soon melt away, soon diminish

and you’ll remember

**pain has no authority to hurt
Breaking down with no one here,
Living in this world knowing no one cares,
Why must I be hurt for others to feel good?
And I’m left feeling misunderstood,
No one sees the darkness in my heart,
They can’t see the tears I cry, when am falling apart,
With these terrible things weighing me down,
I try to make them know, but I never make a sound,
I’m scared of this society that judge me,
Only happy when they've made me fall on my knees,
Hatred fills my mind tonight,
As I take this blade and end my life.
this song reminds me of you

i should listen to it while i can

while it isn't only sad voices
repeatedly whispering your name
into my ears
I have cried.
I have cried.

Just like you.
Just like you.

For how long?
For how long?

Must I bleed, when I know your watching.

I know there's something wrong.

Your concrete heart isn't beating.
And you've tried to.
Make it come alive.
For me.
But we both know will not work.

The shadows.
Red lights.
Now your here to rescue me.

No!

Oh I'm not alive.
I'm losing life.

You can't apologize for what I know.

Oh I'm not alive.
I'm not alive
I can not apologize.

So silent.
The violence.
Inside my head.
So loud and clear.

You're screaming.
You're screaming.

Covered up with a smile I've learned to fear.

No sunshine.
And dark skies.
Is this all we get for living here?

Come fire.
Come fire.

Let it burn and love come racing through!

Oh I'm not alive.
I'm not alive.
You can not apologize, for what I know.

I'm not alive.
I'm not alive.

I cannot apologize, no...

I've learned to lose.
I've learned to win.
You turned my face with the wind.
This is what I get for what I lose to you.

I will move fast.
I will move slow.
Take me where I have to go.

Oh I'm not alive.
I'm not alive.
I cannot apologize, no.
why can't i write about happy things?
i want to tell of love,
of breathless nights, and twinkling stars
of soft grass and beautiful sunlight
but the words will not come
the phrases don't string themselves together
all that i can tell of is the hurt
of the days of being lost and forgotten
of the loneliness that overwhelms me
i know this world is beautiful
but it won't reveal itself to me anymore
 Apr 2014 Paridhi Sharma
Kristen
I feel the only reason I drink is to fool myself.
In moments of the dull mundane
I get thirsty,
but not for drink or beverage,
no.
But for excitement and thrill
Something beyond the confines of daily repetition.
so i order a mix
in hopes it will lull my senses into believing
that the night was what I had hoped it would be:
exciting...
romantic...
calming...
freeing...
 Apr 2014 Paridhi Sharma
Xyns
We all miss that one person
Through everything

No matter how many others
No matter how many rings

We all had that one person
That haunts us even today

Though we're committed
Their memory just won't fade

We all miss that someone
The One That Got Away
 Apr 2014 Paridhi Sharma
D
You're not very far but you feel light years away
It's as if I'll never see that smile adorn your face
It's killing me to dream in a bed all alone,
Dreaming only of you
But am I really alone?

Maybe if I think about you enough, you'll finally appear
It's the law of attraction, I'll manifest you from my tears
You're 70% water anyway, if science is right
And if it just might work,
I think I'll give it try

First, I'll imagine your lips, pulling taughnt in a smile
It's quite attractive if I remember, though it has been awhile
Then the sound of your voice;
O, how it makes my tender heart
Rejoice

Next, your soft hands, running over the curve and dip of my waist
These memories, such sweetness.. I hope they don't go to waste
The taste of your lips as they move feverishly with mine,
These memories are surely fading
With the passing of time

I never knew which spice it was, but you always smell of spices
I can almost smell it now.. These five senses must be my vices
And you've still yet to show your face
Maybe I forget something..
Again then, just in case
Next page