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Dec 2015 · 591
Time Control
Maryrose Alarcos Dec 2015
The frosty holiday breeze
flowed against my pale exterior
as I walked over white paralleled lines.
And as if fate was on my side,
I met a pair of dark brown orbs
all too familiar
all too beautiful.
In an instant my line of sight zeroed
on those enchanting eyes,
I was left in a sweet daze.
This figure I know all too well
sent shivers into my own.
Time seemed to stop
as we our gazes locked
and everything else was a blur.
For a moment,
it was only us.
Nov 2015 · 523
Terribly
Maryrose Alarcos Nov 2015
What time is it?
What is the date today?
Days just seem to pass by
Aimlessly
Passively
Life has always been this boring
Unless I feel you burning presence

It has been two weeks
Two painfully lifeless weeks
Since I've last encountered
Your glorious existence
So can I please see you?
Even for a minute?
I just miss you terribly.
Oct 2015 · 639
With You
Maryrose Alarcos Oct 2015
Nights became sleepless
Days became restless
I have become so tireless
As my thoughts would always lead to you

I was never so sleepless
So restless
So tireless
Until you said those words to me

All because of you
You made me feel
How it is
To be truly loved and cared for

Now, my heart cannot wait
To spend more days with you
To share more memories with you
To live my life with you
Oct 2015 · 903
T-shirt
Maryrose Alarcos Oct 2015
Your scent lingers
On this black fabric
That was once yours
But gave it to me
In the most unexpected time
The sweet yet manly scent
Never fails to entice me
Never fails to arouse me
And now this article
Of clothing is in my possession
I can now wear it
Or even cling to in my sleep
Whenever I long for you
Whenever I miss you
Whenever I need you
thank you for the shirt.
i will take care of it as much as i do for you.
Aug 2015 · 685
I still do
Maryrose Alarcos Aug 2015
Why do I keep looking
For a presence that has long been gone?
Those eyes that lost its glow
All because of one mistake
That was never meant to be seen
I'm sorry
I take the blame
But do know that I love you
I still do.
Aug 2015 · 817
State of Solitude
Maryrose Alarcos Aug 2015
In the state of solitude
I am at ease
I take my time
And indulge in serenity
To revitalize my essence
To rejuvenate my being
I wouldn't mind fleeing
From this weary society
Full of sanctimonious slaves
I'd rather be here
In my own realm
Enjoying the splendid view
Of endless greens and blues
In my state of solitude
I'm always at ease.
Jul 2015 · 1.2k
I do hope so...
Maryrose Alarcos Jul 2015
Could you give me a clue?
Because I'm utterly confused
Do you feel this burning heat
Consuming my heartbeat?
I do hope so
Do your lips curl upwards
At the sight of this girl?
I do hope so
Do you like her
As much I do to you?
I really do hope so
Jul 2015 · 545
DO YOU KNOW?
Maryrose Alarcos Jul 2015
Do you not know
Of this obsession
I am currently
Fawning over?

Do you not know
Of this drug
That I’ve been keeping
Since a month ago?

Do you not know
Of the reasons
Why I’m always
On a high?

Of course
You wouldn’t know
You’re too occupied
With the thoughts of her

You wouldn’t know
Of the things I do
Because you won’t even bother
To spare me some attention

You’re the drug
You’re the obsession
But hell, you don’t know
And I’m sure you won’t even care
Jun 2015 · 1.7k
Path
Maryrose Alarcos Jun 2015
Maybe it was just me
Maybe it was all in my head
That I thought there was something more
That you were something else

Maybe it meant nothing to you
Maybe it wasn't what it seemed to be
That you did it out of pity
That you were there to merely be of comfort

After all the times we spent
After all the memories we shared
You put them all aside
You disregarded everything

I cannot blame you for it
I cannot change your mind
Because you were never mine
And I was never yours

Still, I felt no regrets
I felt only a little pain
Thankful for your existence
Thankful that we crossed paths

Someday, we shall find our own destiny
And learn to settle with our own fate
So that when we meet again
Our smiles will reflect each other's *happiness
made out of boredom
Jun 2015 · 1.4k
Done with you
Maryrose Alarcos Jun 2015
Don't mess up
Other people's feelings
When they're done
With all
The crap
That you
Caused them.

Don't come back
And smile at anyone
Like nothing
Ever happened
In the past
That made them
Hate you forever.

They're living fine
They're doing great
You don't need
To step into the picture
All over again
Because it's over
And you can't bring it back.
Wooh! I'm back! haha
Apr 2015 · 1.3k
Another Chance
Maryrose Alarcos Apr 2015
You hurt me
But I endure the pain
You bring me trouble
But I always make things work out
You ignored me
But I didn't care
You made me cry
But I wipe up all the tears
You left me
But I'm still holding on
And if you ask me why?
It's because I don't want to lose you
It's because you're too precious
It's because you make me happy
It's because I love you
Call me selfish
Call me bad names
I don't care
I won't care
Because all my life
I've been so selfless
For my own good
So now that this happened
Can I be selfish just this once?
And give us another chance
Going through so much emotional (fandom) problems atm....
If you're an EXO-L, you would understand.
Apr 2015 · 1.8k
Look At Me
Maryrose Alarcos Apr 2015
Look at me, please
Stop being so insecure
Forget about everything
And focus on this thing right now
Look at me, for crying out loud!
I don't care about your past
I don't care about your flaws
I don't care about your sins
I care about you
I care about us
Now, can you just kiss me
And face the future together?
Mar 2015 · 529
J to the B
Maryrose Alarcos Mar 2015
You called my name out of the blue
I turn around at the sight of you
I asked you what is it
But you  just smiled and waved it off
It was an amusing thing to see
You who seemed so distant
Cold, boring, quiet, lifeless
Turn into a completely new person
Someone warm and welcoming
Yet manly, confident, and gentle
All at just one glance
The moment was too picturesque
Astonishing, breath-taking, priceless
That I could not utter anything else
A simple act made me feel all giddy
That little smile got me on high
Oh how I wish I had more time
To spent sweet nothings with you
I should say
I like this feeling
I hope you're feeling the same way
Because you had awoken
The inner romanticist in me
You stirred  my intellect
As much as you captured my heart
And knew my soul
Super random, but inspired by YOU!
Feb 2015 · 695
Me Time
Maryrose Alarcos Feb 2015
A cup of black coffee
My favorite band playing
The mere silence of my room
The constant roaring of vehicles
My pen casually stroking on white paper
I come to enjoy this time
When I can have some peace
When I can sit back and relax
From all the madness in this world
And all the crap I've made
So I close my eyes
Breathing in and out
Chest heaving up and down
I smile to this moment of "me time"
It's all about me
It's all about myself
It's all about I
Farewell outside world of mine
I'll see you soon enough
Right after I refresh my soul
After getting drunk on sanity
After I regain consciousness
After I come back to reality
A by-product of sickness and cramps... sorry :)
Feb 2015 · 698
Smile Again
Maryrose Alarcos Feb 2015
Time has come
For me to let go
Of the things that hurt me and you
Of the things that made us suffer
Like an old guitar
Slowly losing its strings
Running out of tune
These feelings we once harbored
Are now fading
Like the last notes of a song
It is a shame
That we have to separate ways
That we're now on our own
You and I are now nothing
But an old memory
A black and white photograph
Slowly fading into the background
I'm so sorry for this goodbye
We both know it's for the best
Because if we keep up this love
I'm afraid we'll both sink deeper
Into the depths of pain
And endless melancholy
So now, our hands are drifting away
My eyes brimming with tears
Your lips turning into a frown
Our hearts slowing its beat
We bid farewell to our past
We leave all the pain behind
As we approach a new day
A new tomorrow
A new future
Without the warmth
Of each other's embrace
The burning presence
Of each other's company
And the glowing love
That we once shared
Still, I thank you
You made me love
Like no other has done
Let's not be too bitter
About this separation
Because good things
Await us in the end
Of this tragic story
We'll be the very best of ourselves
Even without each other
Goodbye, my sweet love
Happiness is on its way
To make us smile again.
Jan 2015 · 720
Unfathomable
Maryrose Alarcos Jan 2015
You were everything and nothing
All at once
An inspiration and a distraction
At the same time
A someone and a no one
In both ways
You are so frustrating
That I cannot fathom
Into straight-forward words
Enrich in strong phrases
And complete into a sentence
Jan 2015 · 800
Five Seconds of Sanity
Maryrose Alarcos Jan 2015
In the midst of a crowd
In the middle of chaos
In the ****** of deep thoughts
Came the best five seconds of my life

It took my a jiffy
To recognize that bag
To remember that hairstyle
To realize that presence

And I was right
It is really you
After days of longing
You came and ended my suffering

To say that it was short
To mention my obliviousness
To describe that moment
Five seconds is already enough

Everything was in slow motion
At that moment, it was only you
My attention zeroed to your figure
It was the longest five seconds of my existence

Today, I thank the heavens
For letting you appear in my most stressful hour
I thank them with all my heart
For coming at my least expected place

Now, I can finally face tomorrow
With a smile extending to my ears
A mind contented with thoughts of you
And a heart fulfilled with pure bliss

See you soon, my dear
*I'll patiently wait for our next five seconds of sanity.
LOL! this is a part two of longing....
Jan 2015 · 9.2k
Longing
Maryrose Alarcos Jan 2015
The week passed by
As quickly as it came
Nothing seemed to be interesting
For I haven't seen a trace of you

Everyday I was hopeful
That maybe just a glimpse
Maybe just a glance
I will witness your glorious presence

But everyday was a fail
I was a hopeless being
I forgot that we lead different lives
Separated by different worlds

It pains me to know
This inevitable truth
That I can't see you
That I can't be with you

At a time like today
When I badly need motivation
A sense of inspiration
I can say that I'm in desperation

So now, I surrender my pride
And pray to the heavens above
"Please let me be with him
*I cannot stand this longing anymore!"
Jan 2015 · 429
The Me Today
Maryrose Alarcos Jan 2015
I lay flat on the bed
Millions of thoughts
Running endlessly without fail
On my slightly clouded mind
Still, I remain unfazed
Unmoved by the situation
I endured life's pain
My heart that was once a glowing bright red
Is now burned by flames of hurtful lies
And crushed by a boulder of empty promises
Pain has made me this way
The old me was long gone
And is replaced by the me today
With walls built up to resist his sweet yet venomous words
A heart wrapped up in blizzards of ice that refuse to heat down with his touch
And a locked up soul that will never open up to him or anyone anymore
Pain has made me this way
And I think I'll stay this way forever.
i think this is ******... sorry guys
Jan 2015 · 373
When Can I Be Free?
Maryrose Alarcos Jan 2015
Freedom is an abstract concept
It is a noun that is defined by being free
It is a word that everyone wants
An idea that my soul seeks
And so I thought
"When can I be free"
Free from stress and sleepless nights
Free from pain and aching emotions
Free from fear and mad anxiety
Free from doubt and inevitable judgement
Free from sadness and pure melancholy
Free from everything that bothers my being
When can I be free?
When can I be me?
Dec 2014 · 785
You were a dream
Maryrose Alarcos Dec 2014
You were a dream
A dream that I wish to come true
A dream that I hope becomes reality
A dream that I can only imagine
A dream that I can only sigh on

You were a dream
A dream that only appears in fantasies
A dream that only happens in fairy tales
A dream that my mind creates
A dream that my being prays for

You were a dream
I just wish it could be more than that
I earnestly pray to the heavens
That you could be mine
And I can be yours

But you are just a dream
There may be a chance
But it cannot guarantee
A beautiful ending
A happily ever after

You were a dream
A dream that will forever be one
A dream that will never come true
A dream that won't become reality
And it pains me to know this cruel truth
it really *****! i tell you!
Dec 2014 · 3.0k
Tinkerbell
Maryrose Alarcos Dec 2014
You're peter pan and I'm tinkerbell
Someday peter pan will find his wendy while tinkerbell will only watch them from a far
and then it hit me like a bucket full of ice cold water
Dec 2014 · 5.2k
I'm Sorry, I'm not Perfect
Maryrose Alarcos Dec 2014
I'm sorry* for not being perfect
I was only being me
I guess it was not enough
To make you stay forever

I'm sorry for not telling you earlier
I just don't want you to worry
I guess it bothered you too much
To make you leave without a trace

I'm sorry for being such a coward
I was just too scared to hurt you
I guess I did anyway
By saying such beautiful lies

I'm sorry for being selfish
I just don't want you to get involved
I guess that upset you a lot
By blowing such harsh words to me

I'm sorry for not being there
I just don't want to see your crying face
I guess I was not meant to see it anyway
Because it would only hurt you more

I'm sorry for not showing how much I cared
I just love you in a way even I can't understand
I guess that love blinded me
That it had to lead us into this painful state

I'm sorry, I'm not perfect
But please know that I love you so much
It won't ever change
Dec 2014 · 299
Make This Real
Maryrose Alarcos Dec 2014
You're so fine
I don't know why
You make me wanna lose control tonight
You made me see love in another light
This feeling, I just can't deny

But then I don't know if you see
The feeling that I have with me
Don't wanna live in dreams
And make believes
I'll do my best to *make this real

— The End —