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Oct 2014 · 2.1k
discussions- i'm tired
lost girl Oct 2014
My mother always tells me--
"Sweetie make sure you're not out too late, you wouldn't want to get *****.
You never know what will happen when you're walking the streets alone, always carry your phone.
Honey, never dress too provocatively you never know which eyes will see.
So please, cover up. Are you sure you don't want to wear the fleece?
There are sick people in this world
always be aware, you can't trust anyone anymore.
Never leave the house late and alone
You might not come home.
Always pick up the phone.
Honey, I want you to come home."

(a.d)
My mother is always telling me this and I am sure many other parents are having this talk with their daughters about this as well. It's sad that the world has come to this. That humans have resorted to taking away others rights. That they have made others live in fear. Little girls shouldn't have to hear this and grown women shouldn't have to constantly look over their shoulder when walking at night. Women shouldn't have to live in fear of other humans taking advantage of them. They shouldn't have to considered being ***** when walking out at night or when picking out what to wear.
It's sad that things are like this now.
Oct 2014 · 2.2k
sorry
lost girl Oct 2014
I'm sorry I can't be more metaphorical and compare you to a summers day. I just don't write that way.

( a.d)
Oct 2014 · 1.8k
Say A Word Enough
lost girl Oct 2014
Happy*
Happy
Happy
H a p p y*
Maybe if I say it enough times
Or if I crack enough smiles
I might start believing it
And stop spitting out so many lies.

(a.d)
Oct 2014 · 1.5k
Living in a Glass Case
lost girl Oct 2014
I'm alive but I'm not living
I'm walking around as if I am in a trance
I think I even forgot how to dance.
I am going through the motions
But I can never catch a chance --
A chance
to slow down and pause for a second
or maybe two
maybe then I would be able to see
what is really true.

(a.d)
Oct 2014 · 1.2k
Untitled
lost girl Oct 2014
Do you think it's bad that i don't want my scars to heal?
that I want them to stay as a reminder of the years
that I tortuted myself with the blade of self harm
never forgiving myself and constantly doing harm

(a.d)
Oct 2014 · 2.4k
Sorrowful Truths
lost girl Oct 2014
The most beautiful words
Come from the most ****** up minds
So tortured and sorrowful that you begin to wonder where the enemy lies
Is it inside
Or somewhere beyond?
Can it be stopped from causing so much harm?

(a.d)
Oct 2014 · 1.3k
✖️
lost girl Oct 2014
Be grateful for the darkness
that conceals your tears,
breaks your heart,
and brings forth your fears.

(a.d)
Oct 2014 · 1.0k
Tears For All of My Fears
lost girl Oct 2014
If you could read my mind, you'd be in tears
You'd see all my flaws and all my fears.
The deeper you go
The darker it gets
You'd see how twisted my mind really gets and all of the coffins
that I had once layed to rest
You'd know my suffering
and all of my regrets.
You would know the truth and how deep my mind gets.

(a.d)
Oct 2014 · 767
Love Letters ➕
lost girl Oct 2014
If I could write a love letter to the dead
I would write a letter
to our star crossed love that came when we were young
and seemed as if it would last forever.
That made us feel as if we were infinite
As if we can live forever, together and alive in each others love.

That's not possible anymore.
Now all I have left are my love letters to the dead.
〰(a.d)
Oct 2014 · 914
Explicit Wounds
lost girl Oct 2014
Nothing lasts forever
I shouldn't have been naive
I'll always remember the times we had together.

Sometimes I wonder if it was worth the fall
Cause I landed and I landed hard.
I doubt things will ever be the same
And I only have myself to blame.

Will time stitch things back together?
Or will we stay scarred
and broken forever?  

(a.d)
X
Sep 2014 · 648
I sign myself over
lost girl Sep 2014
I'm overwhelmed and it's all my fault.
I'm bleeding and I'm the one who pulled the blade.
I'm endlessly crying and I caused the tears.
I'm working hard and I'm the one holding myself back.
I'm having nightmares and I'm running from myself in those dreams.

(a.d)
I'm my own worse enemy.
Sep 2014 · 3.4k
Loving You From Afar
lost girl Sep 2014
I'm scarred to admit this but -
I think we made a mistake.
I know that something's are better left unsaid
and that this is a huge risk to take
But I don't think things are going so great.
I don't know if I'm the only one feeling this way -
or if you see it too.
Sometimes I think that we would be doing better
if we had never been together.

Just know that I will love you forever,
I just feel that loving you from afar would be better.

(a.d)
Written on the back of an envelope
lost girl Sep 2014
Dying flower
Broken heart

Crying eyes
Missing parts

Feeling lonely
Slit the wrists

Close your eyes
Plea the fifth

(a.d)
Doubt you'd understand but then again I don't think I fully understand either.
Sep 2014 · 732
4 am - dried mascara
lost girl Sep 2014
stop crying
put on a smile
and keep trying.

(a.d)
lost girl Sep 2014
i want to be alone
so please don't pick up the phone.

i love you but i just need time to breathe
trust me please.

i ask that you put your love on hold, only for a second or two
i promise you, my heart will always be yours to keep.


(a.d)
Sep 2014 · 1.3k
darling you must be mistaken
lost girl Sep 2014
you asked me the other day
if i ever got afraid
"you are so fearless."
you said.
i let you believe it
while i laughed inside.

i am no where near fearless darling.
i'm sorry but it's true.
for one of my biggest fears is losing you.

(a.d)
Sep 2014 · 1.1k
because of you
lost girl Sep 2014
i know the moment i fell for you.

it was when the skies were bright
and there was a twinkle in your eyes.
you were shaking your head
at something i said,
you were smiling widely
and your head was slightly bent.

i knew in that moment i was completely and utterly *******
and it was all because of you.
Sep 2014 · 11.0k
trapped
lost girl Sep 2014
I am trapped
in a pit full of
sad smiles and
broken promises.

(a.d)
Aug 2014 · 899
A Friend Once
lost girl Aug 2014
I had a friend once
who taught me
what it feels like to have someone to truly care for.

I had a friend once
who taught me
the importance of not saying
"I Love You Too."
Just because someone wants me too.

I had a friend once**
who I started to love
but now it's through
cause it was too much to lose.

(a.d)
Aug 2014 · 527
only a shadow
lost girl Aug 2014
everything that falls must be broken
for i fell for you and now i am made of broken parts.
for i cannot fly
and our love had no wings.
so when i fell
i had nothing to hold on to
and i became
only a shadow
of the girl
you once knew.

(a.d)
Aug 2014 · 2.1k
plug me into a math equation
lost girl Aug 2014
I am not some math equation.
I am not something you can solve
for in a math equation
you need all the parts
and I am sorry but
I am made up of
broken
parts.

(a.d)
Aug 2014 · 531
no hiding
lost girl Aug 2014
I am trying hard
but I can't seem to hide
those fears
that I keep
very
deep
inside

(a.d)
Aug 2014 · 382
Gone
lost girl Aug 2014
I thought what we had would last forever
but I guess nothing ever does.
Eventually it all would've died down.
I mean even the brightest flames eventually burn down to nothing.
Is that what we are? Nothing to each other now?
Have we gone back to being s t r a n g e r s ?

(a.d)
Aug 2014 · 357
some truth
lost girl Aug 2014
There is some truth in my lies.
Some demons that hide deep inside.
I am happy -- that's a lie.
I do despise those eyes I try so hard to hide.
My laughter is often forced
My smiles are often faked.
Sometimes I try so hard but I still hate --
hate the fate.
The fate I've been forced to take.

(a.d)
Aug 2014 · 361
so many questions
lost girl Aug 2014
will you still love me when I am old and gray?
stay by my side 'til the end of my days?
will you still care?
look at me with adoring eyes?
will you laugh with me?
and tell me not to cry?
will you still sing with me the lyrics to our song?

or will you say bye as time continues to fly?

(a.d)
Aug 2014 · 559
?
lost girl Aug 2014
?
I'm scared to admit this
but, I miss you.
Is it bad that I wonder
if you think of me too?

(a.d)
lost girl Aug 2014
I can't see the stars anymore.
Not where I live anyway.
Back when I was a child,
my mother would always tell me to look at the stars
when I felt helpless or down
because if the littlest stars can shine in the darkness--
then I can too.
Well I'm feeling down now mother.
What do I do now?
How am I supposed to look at the stars when there aren't any to look at mother?
If these stars can't shine through these
city skies,
how
can
I?

(a.d)
I wrote a version of this before but deleted it and decided to write another poem that followed the same idea.
lost girl Aug 2014
I can't say that you broke my heart... exactly
'cause you were never really aware that you held my heart
in your hands
and I guess I wasn't really aware of it either.
Until it was too late.

(a.d)
Aug 2014 · 444
Things You'll Never Read
lost girl Aug 2014
i.
I care about you.
I honestly do.

ii.
I didn't plan for it to happen.

iii.
I swear I didn't.

iv.
I had no intention of falling for you.

v.
I didn't even want to.

vi.
But then something changed in the way I saw you.

vii.
Your smile became the only thing I could see and I began picking out your voice in a crowd.

viii.
I didn't even notice until it was too late.

ix.**
And now I'm ******* and it's all because of you.

(a.d)
Aug 2014 · 461
Old Messages
lost girl Aug 2014
I deleted the old messages.
I kept on rereading them
And I couldn't stop thinking about you.
You moved on,
I need to move on too.
It ***** 'cause I would've loved to see it through.

(a.d)
Aug 2014 · 471
Free
lost girl Aug 2014
Oh honey, I am more free than the bird who flees.*

(a.d)
Aug 2014 · 366
i'm screwed.
lost girl Aug 2014
i don't want to, but i do.
i promised myself i wouldn't, but i did.
i wanted to protect the heart
and feelings
that i hide so deep inside.
but then you smiled
and now whenever
i close my eyes
that's all i see.

(a.d)
Aug 2014 · 326
can
lost girl Aug 2014
can
You can run but you can't hide
from the monsters that hide inside
ready for you once you close your eyes.

You can sleep
but you won't be able to keep
what you so desperately want to hide.

You can cry
but that won't stop the monsters
from attacking you from the inside.

(a.d)
Aug 2014 · 374
Hollow & Broken
lost girl Aug 2014
she had broken parts
in important places.
hollow eyes
in meaningful gazes.

(a.d)
lost girl Jul 2014
i don't usually write love poems
but when i do, they aren't about me
they're about observations.
Observations
of others in love.

- lost girl-
just a note.
Jul 2014 · 308
idk
lost girl Jul 2014
idk
I don't know
how i feel about
anyone
myself
you
I don't know
if i want to
cry
fly
or sit and watch as time passes me by

(a.d)
Jul 2014 · 341
to you, for you
lost girl Jul 2014
I promised myself  I wouldn't
'cause I shouldn't
but here I am
writing a poem
about you
for you
one that you will never read
but maybe one day
someday
you will learn to see
just exactly what could be
and you won't need my words
or phrases
to believe.

(a.d)
Jul 2014 · 304
write
lost girl Jul 2014
i write more than i should
maybe i should talk more
so that i am not as misunderstood.

(a.d)
lost girl Jul 2014
i want to be part of a world
that feels alive every once in a while.
not like the city that never sleeps.
that's half dead most of the time.
i want to be part of a world
that recognizes life
that breathes
and
comes alive.

(a.d)
lost girl Jul 2014
Make way for the depressed teen
they're all like that nowadays
someone probably just broke her heart
she'll learn to deal.
No big deal.
I mean as long as she doesn't steal

She's just a teen
she'll get over it real quick
Probably come home late
trying to take a break

she's not trying.

Did you see the cuts on her arms?
It's probably a new thing now
it shouldn't cause no harm.
It's just an arm.  

Oh she's just depressed
Like the walking dead, but just better dressed.
She'll get over it real quick,
I mean it's not serious or anything.  She's just depressed.

(a.d)
Jul 2014 · 293
used to love
lost girl Jul 2014
I used to love
but now
i don't.
too many
broken records
and too many
missing pieces
of my heart
are gone
and charred,
wasting away
'cause everything
just got too hard.

(a.d)
Jul 2014 · 682
don't throw me away
lost girl Jul 2014
oh don't
throw me away
like a crumbled piece
of paper when you're
done with me.
when you have finished telling me
all your sorrows
and using me as a pillow.
don't discard me
and act like you don't care
'cause i do
and i don't think
i could bare.

(a.d)
Jul 2014 · 393
to blame
lost girl Jul 2014
i've come home
to find everything in ruins
nothing is the same
and i only have myself to blame
it is my fault
that momma cries
and daddy died
it is my fault that nothing
is the same
and i only have myself
to blame

(a.d)
Jul 2014 · 363
don't call me
lost girl Jul 2014
don't call me
when you're high
or drunk
don't call me
just because
you're sad and alone
and you just want to have some fun

(a.d)
Jul 2014 · 315
so long
lost girl Jul 2014
i've been gone for so long
and now
i just don't know where i belong

(a.d)
Jul 2014 · 414
never been in love
lost girl Jul 2014
i have never been in love
and i don't want to be either
why would i want to be constantly confused and love sick all the time?
why would i, give up my heart to be played with when i could keep it safe and guarded?
i have never been in love
and i don't plan to be either.

(a.d)
Jul 2014 · 356
i wrote about you instead
lost girl Jul 2014
I'm sorry
that I was too
"metaphorical"
for you
and
that
instead of showing
you
how I felt
I wrote about
you
instead.

(a.d)
Jul 2014 · 376
just because
lost girl Jul 2014
Just because you are insecure,
doesn't mean you aren't
beautiful
or smart
or pretty

(a.d)
Jul 2014 · 437
Oh Honey
lost girl Jul 2014
Oh honey, you can't break a broken heart
                 you can't wipe the eyes that won't cry
                 you can't stop the memories that pass you by
              
(a.d)
Jul 2014 · 328
Untitled
lost girl Jul 2014
Just thinking about what lies ahead is getting me stressed.
I am being put to the test
and all those requirements and deadlines
are seriously getting to my head
I think about all those times when
I could've fled
and now only one thing can be said --
I made this decision and now I have to stick it out
and hope for the best

(a.d)
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