I can't feel anything.
I'm just empty.
I can't absorb everything.
I'm so lonely.
I can't just take this.
I feel so gloomy.
What shoud I do?

I didn't choose you,
My heart did.

Back then and even now,
It has always been only you for me!

To be an artist is to be free, free of my own thoughts and ideas
Free from other's expectation and standards
Free from everything except the artist itself, me
I carve, I paint, I draw, I create
To satisfy my mind and souls' desire
Artist conveys what's in their head
Artist express what's in their heart
Artist tries to build connection in between people's heart
Just like how chef prepares a dish
WIth thorough preference of smell, taste, and texture,
Artist prepares masterpiece to appease the eyes with perfect features
Life is like an art
With an artist giving color to one's life
An artist never doubts his own outlook
Artist uses it to be converted into book
A book, full of experience and emotion
A book, soon to be shared and unfolded to the nation
When an artist loses its way
Art will find you to make you stay
In silence, in chaos
It doesn't matter
As long as it's always what we choose.

You seeing my naked soul,
I can't help but think,
"Why did I fall?"
I knew this from the start,
You got me with all your ****
I thought sweetness
Has to play a part;
But it's me slowly
Falling apart.

I know I should've not come here,
I know I should've not come near,
Hearing your cries,
Makes me want to withdraw all my lies,
'Come closer,' you uttered
I couldn't
Because your life mattered

Come to me,
and
I promise you
to only feel
eternity.

I look up to you,
How I wish
Someone would
look up to me too,
It was in the past,
Look how
My soul disappeared
so fast.

You were my once upon a time,
but never my happily ever after.

Look,
Leaves and petals
Are starting
To fall,
And slowly
Your eyes,
And lips,
Makes me
Want to stay.

You're lucky,
You caught me.

Saw you waiting for her,
Saw you fighting for her,
While I am
Busy waiting for you,
Been wanting to be with you,
Even if I wait million years,
Can you tell me if I deserve you?

If I'm too much for you,
go find someone less.

I may look like a wretch,
But I can do sketch,
Want me to come by,
and make your life outstretched?

Don't worry, I don't bite.
I love people who are fond of aplite.

I fell
again,
Help me
stumble upon
this word,
called "stop,"
Help me
think through
that I've
already had
enough.

In the sea of people,
I will find for you,
Battles I've aced, and;
Yet at the end, you're my race.

You were my anchor.
I even held hands with you by the shore.
Just everything about you, I was so sure.
I waited for you long enough;
Long enough to be longed every single day,
I was in dismay.
I decided to wait you until May.
However, I just couldn't stay.
How can I?
Leo,
Remember how you killed me that day?

Stars form above;
And I stare at them like I'm in love,
Like you,
I wanted to be loved too.

Sacrifices,
Slumber less nights,
Caffeine-fueled days,
and unwanted bad weeks
Have become my strength
To keep me loaded and
decided.

I did my best,
I can't even take a rest
Yet, every single person treats me like a pest,
I guess it's a curse, coz I'm the eldest.

I do wonder, what's in her that you'd always choose her?
What's in me that you can't even see?
Feeling lost, feeling anxious
But still, feeling ambitious
Hoping you'll look at me.

I heard you shouting my name,
I heard you taking all the blame.
Can you feel the flame?
Is it still the same?
I guess not,
Because it was all a game.

Hurry...
I'm in a hurry.
Slowly...
Can I move slowly?
Hide...
How can you tell me that?
Duck...
I'm stuck.
They're gone.
And I'm so done.
I looked at you.
And out of the blue,
You asked me;
"Want to be free? Press the button later."
It was a bomb.
How can I be so dumb?

On my silent days,
I miss you a little louder.

"Stop."
I can't.
"You're just wasting your time."
I'm not.
"Go find another work."
I don't want.
"Then go **** yourself. You have no direction in life anyway."
Had I not sacrifice my heart for you, I'm alive.

You gave me a flower with
Thorns that make me cry,
Petals that I wish don't die,
Fragrance that makes me high,
Just how I heave a deep sigh,
I thank you for a memorable goodbye.

Go run,
And have some fun.
Go wander,
Like no other.
Go free yourself,
And read some books on your shelf.
Go leave,
And live.

"Silence!'
He said.
I moved an inch, and again;
"Silence, I said!"
He shouted.
I'm amazed.
How can you see me?
I'm a soul roaming around,
Wanting more souls abound.
So, it's you.
It must be you.
Because you feel me,
Suffer just like me.

I just want to watch
the stars with you.
Shall we?

Hold,
As I am cold.
Stay away,
As I'll leave today.
Slowly,
I'll make a progress
and forget that
You died this day.

Inside a garden
Of misleading wonders,
A rose so wondrous
With thorns are obvious.

It's painful and slow
But carry overtones to grow
Its petals bleed
But worthy to be someone's lead

Thorns protect flowers--
Just like teachers
Who protect us to fully bloom
And pass through tall wall looms.

Just like everybody,
I want to remember you
As part of my journey

Because it's you,
The person I'l be saying my 'I do.'

You are the stranger,
I'm most familiar with.

How can you be so sure,
That his intentions are pure,
Maybe,
You're just yearning for something,
But you can't get that in a blink of an eye,
Because all he does is lie.

Hypothetically, yes.
Theoretically, forever.

I heard your sighs,
when you knew about his lies.

I want to be alone,
alone with you.
What's wrong with me?

Just tell me,
"Why do I always have to save you?"
Of all people, why me not Jenny?
Just why would they blame me?
Am I not enough for mommy and daddy?
Why must you sacrifice me?

Then you came,
You gave the world to me
And before I knew
There I was
So in love with you

They asked me what my favorite song was,
I couldn't think of any,
So I just told them, "Your voice."
Beautiful enough to ease my life's noise.

I told everyone that I’m okay,
But do I still need to say?
I wanted to be happy, just to be happy all day…
I wasn’t expecting you come into play
Expectations deprived me from watching sunset by the bay

They wanted me to be perfect but I couldn’t shine properly
I was criticized silently
And was perishing inside, slowly

I cried a lot; my life’s too dry
No one scrupled to ask, “Are you still okay?”
When you had the confidence to utter words, it was late.
Too late
I’ve taken my life and it was my fate.