There's a story behind my silence
There's a pain hidden under my smile
Before you judge me, stop a while
Judge me by my fate & not by my appearance

Everyone says I've changed a lot
Without giving it an other thought
No one looks at the pain I've got
No one ever said I've compromised a lot
You may feel I'm an insane
But believe me I'm just a bit crazy
Even I've seen days which were daisy
And then there were days of pain

Even I'd those beautiful "dreams"
& live my life as a "dove"
In garden of so called "love"
But ended up with all those "screams"

There were calm and tranquil nights
In which I've painted my future bright
Thinking about which brings me delight
But then later it all changed the sight

The only person and my desire
Whom I love and admire
Is separated from me to infinity
& now (she) needs time to talk to me!!!


I was always there for her
Time to me doesn't matter
My life is just a verse
From one of the chapter of hers

Please judge Mr by my ffate, not by my appearance
There a secret behind my silence
There's a pain hidden under my smile
Leave me alone for a while

The lights going down
only saffron surrounds
our shadows going mile
your beauty is your smile
My hand tightly you grasp
our breath coming in gasp
with the night getting dark
our heart is lit with spark
The birds flying back to shelter
and now I'm feeling much better
welcoming the coming night
happy to see you in my sight
under the glistening moon light
I open my arms and hold you tight
I wish if I could halt the running time
the moon is envious to see my moon shine
I want your lap for my life to rest
coz today I saw the beauty at its best
whether it was the beautiful sight
or your presence that add to my delight
whatever it may be
I want you to be with me
through all the day and every night
though not in gloomy but at beautiful sight
holding hands and enjoying the nature
we're happy with the plan of creator
there's a lot I want to speak
but the silence is at its peak
I'll let the silence do its talk
and holding our hands let's take a walk
cold breeze touching my face
though with you its not the case
coz the water is splashed on my bed
and the pain is doubled in my head
though its my head where pain resides
but its my victim heart that cries!!!

"SOMETIMES V/S MANYTIMES"

Sometimes we feel happy
but many a times
we don't know what are we???

Sometimes we enjoy our company
but many a times
we don't know where are we???

Sometimes we find our job to be easy          
but many a times
we don't know how can we???

Sometimes we have surplus time to keep our words
but many a times
we don't know when can we???

Sometimes we are proud of us
but many a times
we don't know who are we???

Sometimes we love everyone
but many a times
we don't know whom do we???

Sometimes we feel we belong to everyone
but many a times
we don't know whose are we???

Sometimes we desire to change the history but many a times
we don't know if can we???

Sometimes we love living our life
but many a times
we don't know why are we???

Sometimes we feel we are too stupid         
but many a times
we don't know so really are we.

I'll put all my effort
to bring a smile on your face
no one will ever find sadness' trace
I promise with me you need no escort!

indeed your smile is beautiful
to evade it I'm a great fool
forgive me if you can
I know I've been the reason of your pain

I'm sorry for troubling you
I promise I'll wipe your tears too
I'll put my sincere effort
just to make you laugh

my words they were harsh
they might leave the mental scar
punish me if it makes you happy
I know my behaviour have been shabby

I know I can't do much about the scar
allow me to delight you up to the par
I promise I'll never hurt you again
and will never allow you to go through any pain

for the words I've selected, I'm sorry
the action I preferred was really folly
I've proven that I'm a great fool
indeed your smile is beautiful!

I'll do all I can
for your smile to sustain;
on your lips and your face
I won't let it simply erase!

And all this while
I've been a fool
indeed your smile
is really beautiful!

I feel lonely
and its killing me
there's a million thing
I wanna say
but I'm not supposed
to say it any way
the heart weighs a lot
pierce my chest and keep it apart
I don't love you anymore
but its not from my core
coz I love you and I know
I can't get over you anyhow
I wish I had a choice
but I'm dying to hear your voice
to smile with a broken heart
yeah I'm good at this art
the heart is bleeding
and desires are dying
hold me tight and let me stay
with my life, this love will fade away
your silence is killing me
instead shoot me and set me free
I don't love you anymore
I know its not from my core

yeah I'm back for the revenge
to take my beloveds' avenge
here I'm waiting for the three
out of casino to set their soul free

I followed the man who was stout
I'm gonna **** him, no doubt
he hurt my beloveds'  wrist
for his (own) I'm gonna slit

the drunk ******* was asleep
I slit (open) his wrist **** deep
he woke up with screams and cry
I watch the rascal- bleed to die

it was the time for the strongest man
who held me by my shoulder then
he was tough and could give a fight
so I tied him with rope, held him tight

I chopped off his shoulder
for his act of being bolder
I bid him last goodbye
and remembered you as I left him to die

my third victim had him isolated
to my surprise he sleeps naked!
I decided to stab him all over
no ones gonna listen as no one lives closer!

but my revenge is incomplete
until I punish the real culprit
the one who was following her
I'm gonna **** that scoundrel

luring the guards to back door
I found him asleep with irritating snore
somehow the guards find out
and give out a loud shout

to which his father came pleading me
begging my pardon and to have mercy
I stab the knife in culprit's heart and eye
escaping the scene, left his father to see him die

the guards didn't dare to cross my way
I wished you A Very Happy Birth Day
standing beside your grave
to be with you again I crave

the police came again to arrest me
but this time they only found my body
the bird was gone, my soul was free
I lived with my beloved ever after happily!

you look at that ******* there
looking him you got scared
yeah he's been following you
however fast you walk he still continue

I saw him glaring (at you)
and marched towards you snarling
that's enough I drove my bike on him
the scene created was really grim

the police came and arrested me
I was looking for an escape if any
the person whom I hurt was influencing
his father a great lawyer was debating

I had lost all my hope
you entered court out of scope
the Jury after hearing your statement
declared me to be innocent!

we left the court behind
left the world that was blind
but a group of people followed us
this all created a whole ruckus

we reached for the nearby taxi
but there was no vacancy
they followed us all over
through silent street I hold you closer

I whispered into your ear
"I LOVE YOU." though we're in fear
you pulled me down and planted kiss,
I was on cloud nine, of course on my lips

the stout little ******* approached near
our hands tightly clasp we're dead fear
the first attack he made was on your wrist
I stormed into fight with that little beast

the other members followed behind
with sharp knife hiding at their hind
the strongest man hold me by my shoulder
the little stout punched me being bolder

you came to my rescue
they stab the knife in you!
they left you there to die
tied me to a pole, left me to cry!!

I will be back I promise
won't leave them who did all this...

To be continued...

Oh what a great fun
When the clouds and ground become one
to sit under the glistening sun
is the leisure way to enjoy such a season

Oh what a great fun
to fulfill your lifelong dream
and walk into the cloud's stream
the pleasure it gives leaves you with a scream

Oh what a great fun
to walk into the fire less smoke
and into the atmosphere getting yourself soak
wearing a warm and cozy cloak

Oh what a great fun
to stroll through the long tree
and listen to the melody of birds and bee
who watching your extend away they flee

Oh what a great fun
to get your belly early fed
and bury yourself early to bed
where all your worries shed

Oh again what a great fun
to get yourself light burn
with a got cup of tea under the sun
At a warm and cozy place comforting your ***

Simply because someone spare you of your punishment, it doesn't mean they forgive you!!!
It just shows that they are strong enough to tolerate you!!!

Passing the nights
Rattling your name
Ask me not
To stop loving you
Its all I've got
kindly ask me to
Stop living instead
Hallucination is a boon
As dreaming you is all I do!

May be you'll read your name
Inscribed on my heart
Secretly,
Hidden at
Right place in
Attic of this body!

Dare to dream.
if you achieve it, you'll have something to talk about.
and if you fails, you'll have something to laugh about!

sometimes its easy to die
than to simply say good Bye!

The wound grows old to become a memory, while the memory grows deep to become a wound!

Don't interfere if you can't handle (me)

interfere in my life
influencing my heart
and persuading my mind!

To feel dead, you don't need to be one!

Now My pillow knows me much better than you does!

to show your LOVE you need to be INSANE
But to hide it you need to have STRENGTH/COURAGE

Loneliness never did killed me;
Its your thoughts that suffocates me!

sorry if I caused you hiccups
but I'm missing you so much!!!

I don't know who's at fault-

whether its the insane heart in me
or is it your mesmerising beauty?
whether its my heart playing game
or is it you wanted the same?

I don't know whom to blame-

the heart which I believed
or my sanity which deceived?
I dreamt of something impossible
so I think its my luck plausible!

I don't know what to do-

whether to cry out loud
and shed all those grey cloud?
or to hold it for long
and with her departure;
I let it flow along?

I don't know what I want-

though I know its you, you and you
but I kept silent at all your view...

I know my answers pretty well-

yet I keep repeating my question
but believe me its not out of confusion
its out of the hope that you may
reply the answer I want you to say!

Un-Xplained… by Nirvana



How it feels
                                     When we have telephone
But we can't talk

How it feels
When we have number
But we can't contact

How it feels
  When we are near
But still apart

How it feels
              When we are desperate
But no guts to confront

How it feels
When we can be in touch
But no  such permissions....

We are strong enough
Unless we have a shoulder
To cry upon...

We are strong enough
Unless we are left
On our own...

We can bear the pain
Unless the person who hurts
Is someone known...

We can bear the pain
Unless we get nostalgic
Thinking of the dreams shown...
                                  -Unfortunately Nirvana...

my lips are tied
and eyes are numb
coz my lips always lied
impersonating me to be a ****

lies were told
and you believe it all
truth is yet to unfold
I'm already at a fall

your mind acted rational
while the heart acted dumb
lies you believed were intentional
but failed to read my eyes getting numb

my heart wasn't prepared
to unveil my feelings to you
so to my friend's heart I spared
coz he loved you too!!!

sorry if I hurt you
this situation was a bit new
YOU were not a trophy to be given
for this I must never be forgiven!!!

punish me with all you have
your absence is my reward
Really sorry for being a naive
and treating you like an award

my heart is crying
can you hear its sob
the time is running
can you hear its tic-tock
tic-tock... tic-tock...

The First Day:

our eyes met
and the plot was set
I acted my best
to get you impress

our eyes met
your mind got preset:
"throw him out at instant
he's a poisonous serpent"

The Next Day:

we met the next day
I dreamt in my own way:
you said words you'll never say
and the reality brings me dismay

we met the next day
you planned it in your way:
to reject me anyway
'SORRY' was all you say

you stood in front (of me)
I gathered my courage to confront
and express the feelings my heart prompt
you stop me in mid giving me goose bump

you took a while
streaming words from your pile (of words)
your 'S-O-R-R-Y' travelled a mile
you left me with apologetical smile

THE END.

woh zindagi bhi kya zindagi hogi
jisme zindagi hi naa **
koi gam nhi
aur koi shikva bhi naa **

Teri yaad bhi naa **
naa tera koi zikra **

woh zindagi bhi kya zindagi hogi
jaha koi alfaaz hi naa **
naa tujhe paane ki koi chaah
aur naa hi tujhe khone ka koi dard **

woh zindagi bhi kya zindagi hogi
jaha mai naa rahu aur tu bhi naa **
naa koi dikhavti hasi
aur koi aasu bhi naa **

woh zindagi bhi kya zindagi hogi
jaha seeney ki dhadkan sirf dhadke
aur dimaag sirf apna kaam kare
koi khwaahish hi naa **
koi aarzoo bhi naa **
yeh saasein toh chale
bas koi zindagi hi naa **

woh zindagi bhi kya zindagi hogi...
woh zindagi bhi kya zindagi hogi...
jaha main naa rahu aur tum bhi naa **
yeh **** toh rahe
par koi aatma naa **
yeh saasein toh chale
bas koi zindagi hi naa **

woh zindagi bhi kya zindagi hogi...
jaha main naa rahu aur tum bhi naa **...!

I love myself only for loving you
And for the rest I hate myself at everything I do...

A beautiful heart
With an insane mind

A beautiful thought
With insane action

A beautiful vision
With an insane stare (eye)

A beautiful wish
With insane words

A beautiful tongue
With insane lips

A beautiful me
With an insane I...

So shatter I'm
Yet you're the one I'm looking for

Hold me in your arms
Feel me in your breathe

I feel complete
When you hold me in your grip...

Drive me to your world
Tell me it isn't a lie

With a beautiful 'YOU'
and an insane 'I'