It's terrible
No words said
Yet your eyes yell
Pinching aroma embed
Oh, well
I wanna be more innocent
To make your heart discontent

Don't be a prisoner
Of past
If you do
Only pain will last

Don't be a over thinker
Of present
If you do
It'll be malignant

Don't be a liability
Of future
If you do
You'll be left alone creature

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               |@@@@   I believe I can, what
               |  ------      is hindering me then
              /                       is ego?,that I feel
            /                          myself so low
           /                          or is it fear?, that
           ===                     I won't able to
               /                      clear.  Or just an
               ==                       over thinking
               \                              that I am
                |                        sinking. I feel
                 =======          so gloomy that
                                |        everything
        ­                        |          appears
                      ­                   dark being
                                  Bloomy, evytime      
                             I stand I fall , criticizin
               Myself believing I am small
       I believe that ending will be fortunate, Coz what worst can occur in my fate. Maybe its just rough time and
Once again I will shine, maybe its just
My test,that will lead me to my success nest, maybe its just a blessing to complete me from what's lacking.

He says I should stop being kiddish...
What he doesn't know is
That I love this innocence of us

He says go for it ...
Either say or make him do it
N I m here waiting for exact time

He says u both r noob
Well he is right
Maybe that's what makes us stupid enough
to know each other

He says get mature
Take desicions
N I m just pondering
Not to get hurt

Silence is sword
But I'm slayed by a word

how's this feeling?
I wish I knew
My everything is fine with you

Let's leave all the crazy talk..
Looks, attraction and attachment
Just be mine for this moment

Weird isn't it?
I Won't repeat this line again
"You are my Paris in Rain"

Hope you get this
Coz I'm not outgoing girl
So handle this pearl.

Holding a pen
And writing your fortune
Isn't a piece of cake
But not rocket science either

You get choices
You get opportunities
You grab some
Some are like missed trains
But you are
Accompanied by your soul
Which is waiting, wishing, and dying
For you to explore & explore & explore

So don't panic over failure
Step on it like a ladder
**** your fear
Kidnap your ego
****** your temptations
Be a MONSTER!!!

I have lost the hold of me
Wanna shout so so so high...

It's been really long when I heard my voice
Now it feels so chocked...

Wanna cuddle coz I hate this feeling
Not able to make out or in...

Hope I get out of this mess quick
Cause it ****..

I always admire things
when they are gone
leaning on the past
with a fantasy song

sitting alone
doesn't mean i 'm lonely
coz, its my time
to revive my past strongly

i knew importance of them
but never knew
i was important too
coz, they never claimed

they moved out
they moved ahead
and i 'm still there
with my heart shred

i was crying once
but no one heard
i criticised myself
made myself blurred

then one voice
came out of ashes
it fired and burned
all doubts and dark forest places

i stood up, started moving
now there is no looking back
coz, i have a task
to fill my pride stack

though i criticised this moment
but it let cat out of the bag
now i need to
wash and wipe my 'MISS FRAGILE' tag

now my soul knows what to do
i gotta have my mind in my team
i promise
i will not be inclined

" understanding someone
before them speaking
is a sign of genious"
But look at the misery
If I speak I know the result and
If I don't then this pain will eat me up

Its me,
I was the one
Who allowed you
I was the one
Who is hurt

Its me,
I am the one
Who cared
I am the one
Who is blurred

Its me,
I will be the one
Who will be searched
I will be the one
Who will be missed

I don't know how to behave
While others are watching

I don't know how to hide
While others are seeking

I don't know how to express
While others are listening

I don't know how to sit
While others are staring

What I know is...
I don't need these 'others' anymore...

a person who,

apply feelings instead of brain
though the ending result is same
always that unending pain

i love enjoying rain
the tears of heaven
that only shower
relief my pain

i smile at the sky
i converse with it
it replies
with those beautiful shapes of clouds

i criticise myself,
my life, my fate
knowing everything
still unknown

always thinking
an unsung song
which always wanna come out of me
but is hidden somewhere
like a lava of volcano
i wish i find it
to know who am i

i always wish to be a good person
so that even after worst
i still come up the best
but then some incidents
proves me rude from the rest...

All I want is a voice
To give my song a meaning
express same emotion
my soul is feeling
...
Wanna have someone to stare
With a couple of thoughts raising
Disturbing my mind
Make my heart pacing
...
Someone invisible to world
Someone transparent
Ofcourse it's a fantasy
Cause I can't go against them

...
Wish you knew
That even after me seen with everyone
I can't see anyone with me
At times it's the best feeling
But I don't just know how is it going
Time like tide is flowing
N I can't stop it , don't want to stop it
...

Everytime I make my mind
To talk to you
But then those days
those faces rewind
I had a lot to tell
But there wasn't a word I spell
I couldn't ,just couldn't
Neither to you nor to myself
I blamed my hormones
Everytime for everything
Trying to ignore you
With every blink
I feared just a thing
What other's ll think
And even now I do
Coz, they'll judge me
Without being in my shoe
I just wanna let you know
That it was just amazing
To ignore you with eyes open
And think of you with closed

Well I know
I'm the only egoistic
In your fb friend list
But today I wanna tell you
Something which was only for you
i.e.
I liked you

At times it do feels
That I have lost me...


I used to be a free bird
Always busy to improve me
and now I am just wondering...
Over and over and over
To get back that carefree attitude,

Pondering over others opinion
Nevva letting me shout
Maybe I have shut me up so much
That Now I have lost my voice!

Is it the matter of priorities
Cause I guess they change

Is it the matter  of time
Cause I guess it flows

Is it about the people
Well I guess maybe

Not today
I just can't relate
With whatever you say

Not today
I can't hear
All your emotional blackmail

Not today
I can't see
Honesty in your play

Not today
I can't pretend
That fake smile of everyday

Not today
Just don't pass by
Those feelings slayed

Life was great
When I was immature
It turned gloomy and dark
With maturity's spark

I didn't had questions back then
Now I have millions
No one bothered me much
Now everyone *****

I was in my own world
Ans now I'm lost in emotional spur
I had no friends to call mine
When I had, they lost with time

It was just one thing that never changed
My bond with pen and diary
That very thing which stayed
Neither hurt me nor played....

Hey! I see you through this glass wall
And yes you are truly amazin ;)