And then he asked "but, how do you still find your smile when such dreaded things have happened?"



"Darling, a tear wont change my past, but my smile can mould my future"

And his eyes will always show up where you least expect them...

In your dreams.

We have walked on beaches, and kissed in the rain, held hands in front of friends, have our picture in white frames... and you wonder why none of it has worked.

But baby, the truth is you just can't force love!

And my heart was in too many pieces to be fixed.




But he still wanted to try!

If he makes your heart pace, and your palms sweat, he's not the one!

You will know he is the one when you are comfortable enough to pull the ugliest of faces without wondering if he still thinks you are beautiful.

I walked myself
off of the cliff
over the edge.

And for you
it still wasn't enough.

She just wanted somebody
to share her weird with

Brother dear, wipe your eyes
it hurts my heart to see you cry.

Brother dear, have no fear
if she leaves I am always here.

Brother dear, careful with your heart
don't hand it to her at the very start.

Brother dear, I know it's hard
when your heart sits in your chest fragile and scarred.

Then you left
And it was finally safe to dance again

Now I can make myself smile
so I am content in being alone

So lucky to have you
I never noticed before
Sister I love you
It's you I am thankful for

And it only hurts more
because I cannot stop crying out
over someone who has never shed a tear for me

It is so sad
that I had
to love you
to know that
you never truly
loved me

My love for you came like the rain in spring...

Nothing at all.
Then all at once.

The ache was a parcel:

I knew it'd arrive soon,
but when it did,
it wasn't as great as I had expected.

My head yearned for him.
But my heart...

just didn't?

It wasn't meant to bee

I'm the honey
you the bear

because you stole me
from those that really
deserved my flavour

We all sin.
But we aren't all sinners.

My smile may show
I am happy.
But my eyes will never
hold back pain.

He is the type
to stab you
and ask you
why you bleed

I craved the discipline
to march with the rest
in line.

But they told me no
for the second
****** time.

****.

They all say sorry
as they grasp my hand.
But you can't really be sorry
for things you don't understand.

He bathes in the tears
of broken-hearted girls

You complain,
saying he treats you "like a mug".

But darling, he will always fill his cup
as long as you boil the water.

Some days I wish
I could bury you.
Other days I wish
I could share your grave

He uses
your heart
to fill
his appetite

He said he would make you his
Queen.

In reality he treats you like a
Scullery maid.

Don't try to be strong for someone else,
when you aren't even strong enough
to love
YOURSELF!

You hold your heart
loosely in your hands.
You'd let anyone passing by
hold it too.

Protect that sh*t, man!

And you cannot really give your heart away,
until you know how to protect it.

Baby,
don't give your whole heart
to someone
who gives you none of their kindness!

There was thunder in my hands,
lightning in his fists.

Thunder always claps,
but lightning always hits.

He might say he loves you!
But does he really mean it?

Does he hold you when you cry?
When he says ****, do you feel it?

And the devil will paint his words
in the style of a Da Vinci canvas.

But how
can you
truly
love me
when you
don't even
love
yourself

Mysterious eyes
lead the way
met the man
knew not what to say.

You cannot call it love
for we have never met
your eyes fill with disdain
and mine with respect.

Just another girl in love
this is all you think of me
but close those mysterious eyes
only then shall you really see!

I'm just trying
to cover my mistakes up.


He said "baby girl,
don't hide behind your makeup"

I hope it hurts
that I decided to leave
and never came back

You could have numbed the pain
but instead I turn to whiskey.

I drink away the sins and pain
I wonder if you miss me.

You left but it's unclear why
there is nobody here to get me through it all.

So I drink myself unholy
and pour my heart out onto the table.

It was too quiet
And my heart was too slow
Should I fight to stay
Or should I just let go?

It was hard to understand
How could this be
I said I loved you
You said you never loved me

My heart feels like ice
But my skin is on fire
Now I must let go
Of what I used to desire

I feel like death is calling me;
I find comfort in the thought.
But if I slit these ******* wrists,
would Mother be distraught?

These winds of time
weren't on my side
you took me by the hand

Leading me away from who I was
leaving footprints
in the sand

A pretty life I left behind
now a dark hole I am in
it feels like the emptiness
has stolen me from my skin

I said I'd see her later
so she'd think it wasn't planned
But all along I had the pills
gripped tightly in my hand

They all know you
Better than I ever could
They say you hid your feelings
Beneath a heavy hood

They say the rope took you
Or was it you who took the rope
As a child I'd sit at home
All I could do was hope

She says you left by your own accord
She screams it time and again
It is like your rope left her mind
Coated in red wine stains

When you left he came along
A temper in his fists
Like the thunder rumbled in his voice
And often she'd assist

My head is an ocean
My heart is a fire
Neither of the two
Can agree with eachother

Talk to someone
They say it will help
But it wont matter
When I crash this car
And 'forget' my belt

They call it PTSD
A different kind of war
Instead of gunfire
Demons come knocking
At my door

"Stop thinking about it
I am sure it will help"
I used to call them nightmares
But now I have dreams
In which I **** myself

They say falling in love could help
That only broke me more
Like my beating heart
Kicked down the ******* door

My head floods with scary thoughts
A tornado clearing out the nice
A hurricane destroying the sweet
Now I don't sleep at night

I romanticise death
You know, it could be sweet
Maybe leave a letter
To apologise for being me.

**** I let too much slide
I have opened up too much
But it's crazy that it was you
That fixed me with one touch