During the brief moment
Of utmost vulnerability
The end of fairy tale kisses
Marking the era of a cruel reality
With the intention of shattering
You came, caressing the scars
With glimpses of desperation
And envying the collision of stars
With my inability to hinder
Your plans to have mine stolen
During my reconstruction of walls
You planned out the forbidden
You acted, without a shred of doubt
I responded, through utter loss
Now that its ended, I still can't believe
That what I warned others of, happened to us
I nearly passed out... Or did I? Wait!
I need to help the darkness princess..
I must swim up!
I must save them all!
I emerge from the shadow filled pond that was formely a prison cell of some sort. It held captive the princess of darkness. They were all waiting for me! I felt all of their touch. I felt her hold me. I then felt her breathe. She wispered into my ear.. " Thank you... Please help me take my world back. Help me spread my benevolent darkness to this endless light. Pleaseeeeeee.. I need your shadow, I need your shade, I need your darkness to spread today. You are the Shadow savior.. The twilight song, The blessing of shades... " As she held me I noticed that my darkness started to spread into the air itself. I felt a shift inside my heart as I gave myself all to the darkness! I could now spread darkness without physical touch. I was now a dark star in a world of light. I grew and I grew.. The light beings were all trying to run away from me.. I was a singularity, I was a black hole! My sadness grew infinite! I was a sad shade and shadow! This world of light was no world at all! It was the very sun that gave life to us all. The dark princess laughed at my mistake.. She laughed at her deceit!!
COME ON KID!! COME ON KID!!! COME ON KID!!!!!!!!!
"So, tell me. Do you love the game?" he asked.
"Yes. I do," I reply as I strain every muscle in my head, trying not to nod as if I was also convincing myself.
He gives an almost imperceptible nod as if trying to convince himself too.
I do nothing but watch him turn his back and leave.
And every single moment spent staring at the mirror not recognizing the con artist I have become flashed in my mind.
I have decided to play the game yet you have conceded the moment you sealed the wall as you turned away.
We were the only ones playing the game yet we were both losing.
You're a spider, with your eight eyes
and your web of haunting lies
It almost feels welcoming
And you're seemingly beckoning
Why would I want to be
Your next meal? I should flee
But something brings me around
And just like that, I'm down
Wrapped in a silken suit and left to die
Before you eat me, let me say "goodbye".
Dear god, he's so sweet! Too sweet in fact.
I don't even have to be sultry, or bat my lashes with this one.
I knew I had him when I noticed his glance
As we passed each other earlier.
He's quick too! Of course, I get told all time how pretty I am,
But they ALL start to flush when I tell them that's not so.
He may be quick, but he's also too quick to hand out his trust.
I know better than to do that!
He so stiff sitting like that.
He'll relax the longer I lean into him.
So still.. Normally they get courageous by now.
Better be careful, I may start to like him.
I can tell he's enjoying the attention.
Seems like he's starving for it deep down
The way he talks so openly to me.
"I've only had two or three girlfriends."
"Two or three?"
"Well, I guess one month doesn't count as a relationship."
I don't find it hard to believe this kid.
"Better be careful," He says after a pause.
With genuine curiosity I look up at him
"I'm starting to like you."
Don't think I've met a more honest guy in my damn life!
I almost melted in satisfaction, and got ever more cozy in his arms
Right after giving him a hard kiss on the cheek -just in front of his ear.
That gave him the dumbest grin I think he ever had.
Or will ever have.
Feeling his chest breathe as I lay against it almost reminds me of…
He feels so strong too.. Just like..
Stop it! I'm not here to bring back stupid memories.
He may be sweet, but every guy's the same in the end.
They all wind up leaving more than marks
On your heart and on your face..
Finally pulled his arm over my shoulder- hand nearly on my breast
Just take the bait for god's sake!
This nice guy shit can only take you so far
Gonna need some action sooner than later.
Must have been two weeks since my last romp.
Fuck, I'm so hungry..
I wish he would just take me back to his place already..
I'm starting to get bored now.
What balls! Actually leaned in
And kissed me on my cheek
Maybe this isn't a bust after all.
"Sorry." Soon escaped his lips. - Bust.
He's too innocent. Shame.
What a fucking shame!
He could've absolutely taken me
Bent me over... anything! But.. (sigh)
He's still warm though.
I can sit here for a little longer.
But sadly, I'll be sleeping in a cold bed tonight.
Tomorrow may bring someone with more promise.
I never meant to love you.
I never meant to ransom my heart
for lies that'll linger long after
the ashes from these brittle bones
soil the earth.
I never meant to find myself in the
center of your storm: heartsick.
My mind a chamber
for me to rot, a kingdom for you
I never meant to confuse peonies
for roses. And you -- you
never meant to hurt me.
It felt sinful to cry
in front of you: my agony.
the woman I had
wronged. So many times,
in so many ways,
with so many words. They were false
truths I hadn’t meant to mean. Yet
somehow, along the way,
I had picked
them up and whisked them away
in my bag, your baggage and everything
else that had marred me.
across the glass of my
actions: your face. I hope you can see
past the fog of my deviance. I’ll draw
a smile in the condensation, blurring the
cadence of an attitude—the pure
and their righteous, the demented
and their sin—to make a clearer picture
from this polaroid dangling, overexposed,
from the edges
of our friendship—the soft curve of a lie.
It tastes so smooth, rolling
up through my tongue. It sounds so bitter
wafting out from your throat.
I always thought I might
be weaker than you
but I wasn’t right
because that isn’t true
you can’t stand your ground
just can’t tell the truth
when she comes around
you are no longer the you that I knew
because you said
the romance was dead
and that she was just
in the back of your head
but why did I trust
and believe what you said
now I just feel very mislead
I should have seen
what was underneath
how could I let myself be
so extremely deceived
for I already knew
what a broken heart can do
and though I saw it in you
I turned my head
ignoring what was true
and believing what you said