"forver" poems
From a young age I tried to fit in,
Observing those around me from where i was sitting.
Taking in their smiles, jokes and body language,
Learning this social code which they use to their advantage.
My manual is not the same,written entirely for me but I have not read it properly.
Navigating a world where I copy to survive,
Forver wondering if I sustain this will I learn to thrive?
I have become a result of continuous masking,
In social situations I feel like I am drowning.
Living in a world which does not feel for me,all I can do is write about my isolation in poetry.
Mar 11, 2023
Mar 11, 2023 at 4:27 PM UTC
writing comes like lightning
I'm fighting this writing
tired of wanting to explain things out
I feel more like im drowning
cause knowing you aren't all right
got me staying up every night .
its night out, all alone out
tryna block these thoughts out
pause the flashback of the last call we had
the feelings that flowed out
your heart out to reveal
hit me like lightening
some sort of frightening beauty
it has me sinking
not knowing how I should be thinking
ive wanted this for a long while now ,
and not ever receiving was little pleasing
so excuse me for shrieking
this apology wasn't anything I thought id be getting
you've made me drown more than known
sinking further in a world of fucken dumb love
you are what I hate when I love , love when I hate
does that even make sense
you make me be better then okay
not many are lucky to say
I know you don't believe me
but it is your world, im lucky to be living in it
your world and lucky I had a chance to be in it.
year gone now I don't know what to say
im not better off , im a disaster since we fell off
life just feels wrong and its taking me on
im trying to stay strong
wish you would only call
then I could keep on
not move on cause I hold onto your flame strong
I know its dumb
but ima be here even if it takes forver long
cause I meant it when I said
ill always be here
even not near
you got me on my feet
can even be a buttdial without a speak
youll have me at my peak
quick away from weak
just think
you could assist me from this lightning steak
cause im almost knocked out off my feet
waiting to take leave
if we never get to speak
so please
message me when you read
and tell me I better chill before you leave
or you know what I mean at least
lates
Oct 2, 2018
Oct 2, 2018 at 2:49 AM UTC
There's something in the way,
it's stopping me from leaving.
All the pain is building up,
why can't I just stop breathing?
I've used up all my strength,
now I cannot move.
For I am stuck here forver,
why must I lose?
Everything you said to me,
is coming out from the past.
I remember it all so clearly,
why did it have to end so fast?
I didn't see this coming,
for you left me with no clue.
And since I'm stuck here forever,
I'm left with the cold-hearted truth.
Jun 12, 2010
Jun 12, 2010 at 6:15 AM UTC
You just wanna **** me outta spite...
Problem is I wanna go all night....
And how many times of the night
You call me when you and that ***** have a fight
And I'll still come threw even tho I no it isn't right
Only cuz I have a weakness for you that ain't no if or a might
And while she's fiending for his attention.....
I'm fiending for her positions....
And the same week day ***** he be deep in
Is the same shallow ***** I damage on the weekends
Could be my private dancer..
One phone call and i'll always answer
**** them other ****** cuz I'm down for you
But you ****** them others ****** and made that same sound to
****
As much as I hate to admit it I was wrapped up
We was only suppose to be ******* but that change once I didn't wrap up
But now I gotta back up
Cuz she don't wanna leave him but still wanna use me as a back up
And I no this but still I can't control this
I hate that he gets the first appointments an I only get the first notice .... Dam !!!!!
But baby ....it's yours, it's yours, it's yours , it's yours that's for sure .. Just tell me what you like !!!
Sep 16, 2013
Sep 16, 2013 at 1:41 PM UTC
Music
holding its many tempos
fast
slow
just like a heartbeat
fast
slow
beating through your chest
as I lay my head down
I listen to the heartbeat within your chest
at first; fast
as you drift off to sleep; slow
in these moments I realize
no matter the tempo
I could happily listen to the music that is your heartbeat
forver
Jun 2, 2015
Jun 2, 2015 at 9:48 PM UTC
Your hair is white now
and your skin, it's getting dry and wrinkled
but for me, your still the most beautiful woman,
grandmother.
Your bones are brittle now,
and your joints, they're aching,
but for me, your still the strongest woman,
grandmother.
Your ears can't hear now,
and your eyes, they're no longer 20/20 in visual acuity,
but for me, your still the best listener
and the best person who sees and understands my true feelings,
grandmother.
Yes you're old now,
and your days are almost up,
but for me, you're still young and would eternally live
in my heart forver,
grandmother.
I love you!
Feb 16, 2012
Feb 16, 2012 at 5:45 AM UTC
***Pain and sorrow lace my chest,
I'm sorry that I must do this.
I can't aid you in your heart's quest,
Although I'll always think fondly of our first kiss.
The tears I cry will surely end,
But that doesn't mean that I'll stop caring.
You'll always be my forever-friend;
Though I'm sad to say it's no longer my heart that yours is snaring.
Tonight this poem has been finished,
But it's lines will be forever writ,
And although, like this poem, our lines together are finished,
A brand new stanza has just been fit.***
Dec 10, 2014
Dec 10, 2014 at 5:59 PM UTC
How little men control
Their own destinies.
At a lost,
As to my internal monologue,
In a deluge of constant questioning.
And as to the control I do command,
With what to, is done?
As to the destiny I am ******
Is it better to dither from forver, hitherto?
Or slaughter fear, and give anxiety the rub.
Jun 13, 2023
Jun 13, 2023 at 8:37 PM UTC
i know i love you
and i know we're
different
i know we're strong
so please just
listen
i know it's hard
it's life
they say
so let's try and
cherish today
i don't like
talks that
expose our flaws
imperfections
is not who we are
we are warmth
we are laughter
we are one
you are my life
i am your moon
you are my sun
having moments just like
day and night
we see rain
we feel thunder
but the rotation
it's just right
insecurities
dreams
hopes
aspirations
will **** us both
if we don't seek affirmation
we've both been
broken
down to the ash
on our knees
we've both given to God
our needs
and turn to each other
to be free
so you go be you
and i'll go and be me
remember in who
they become
it will still be "we"
cast away your doubts
i will bury mine below
i choose to love you forver
and forever you'll know
Jan 8, 2017
Jan 8, 2017 at 2:52 AM UTC
Let me look at you for once and forever,
As you are the most beautiful thing i have ever seen.
Let me touch you for once and forever,
As i could sense my heart skipping beats.
Let me hug you for once and forever,
As it warms me in a way, you couldn't understand.
Let me kiss you for once and forver,
As i want to feel high without drugs.
Let me love you for once and forver,
As i want to feel love ln every special way one can.
Apr 4, 2017
Apr 4, 2017 at 5:09 AM UTC
That feeling is gone
The one I'd look forward to every time your fingertips touched my flesh
Laying on your couch
It wasn't the same
All that time I spent wondering where you were
Secretly longing to hear your laugh in the front seat of your car
I was haunted by those words you rarely spoke
Like a secret begging to flee from your mouth
"I love you"
That feeling is gone
That one I'd get by the taste of your lips
It would linger on me for days
You were all I could taste
That feeling of joy I'd get because you were so sweet
That feeling is gone
You were frightened I'd find the truth
Two years down our path I did
Now you trace my face with your gentle hands
It wasn't the same
That feeling I'd get when you look me in the eyes
Like we could live in that moment forver
That feeling is gone
I used to make you laugh
That familiar laugh that would play in my head for days
I imagine the past, then the future
It wasn't the same
I jump up whispering goodbye
As you drive away with that sorrowful sigh
I don't want to look back
All that time ago
On your comfy couch, somewhere lost in love
It isn't the same
May 18, 2013
May 18, 2013 at 11:17 PM UTC
Written upon paper receipts
Where angelic kisses repeats,
Our love born upon cobbled streets
Emotions showing on backseats.
We were hearts in forward motion
Crashing on each, sand and ocean,
I drank you like a love potion
Affection riding emotion.
Could this one longing single kiss
Invoke such moments of pure bliss,
Distracted eyes of brown abyss
Lips joined once again reminisce.
One moment a seed was planted
Like a fairy tale love was granted,
Moment forever enchanted
With each new day love replanted
Feb 16, 2015
Feb 16, 2015 at 6:29 PM UTC
I am a ship
Steadily moving forward into an ocean of unknow promises
My strong heart pumping the heavy water
To propel me in the horizon
Tracing my path like an explorer
I am a sailor
A heart at sea
Lost into the depth of the abyss
I am not precious nor am I fragile I
Am neither one or the other I
Am undestructible
I am not the Titanic
I am the iceberg
And I make them all sink
D
O
W
N
Down down my cold body
Made of ice and crushing weight
I show them who owns the place
I am the ocean
I am heavier than the rest of the world
I am blue and green
Calm and stormy
When they try to tame me I push them down
Into my body I swallow them
For being too sure of their strengths they will disappear
Into my depthless heart
Long lost to that which will hold my eternal love
Land and water,
Caressing each other every second yet
Yet
Yet confined in our own beds of sand and ground
Forever held hostage of that which we give life to
Forever embracing the slight touch of a wave
The glowing sun warming my blood to heat up her skin of sand
Calling to the inhabitants of my ever moving body
To tickle the side of her sandy hand
With my love I bath her edges
With my rage I explode into a million droplets
Cursing the earth for this fate
Doomed to live forever together
Forver apart.
Oct 6, 2014
Oct 6, 2014 at 8:11 AM UTC
Take me back..
Take me back to the days when we loved each other
Take me back to the moment you first kissed me
Remind me..
Remind me how it felt when your heart beat in rhythm with mine
Remind me how it felt when you caressed my hands with your thumbs
Take it back..
Take it back, the 'jokes' and the criticism
Take it back, the way you pushed me around
Never forget..
Never forget every tear I shed for you
Never forget the scars you've left on my heart
Tell me
Tell me that you'll 'uff' me 'forver'
Tell me someday I'll have your last name
Take me back
Take me back into your arms and kiss my cheek
Take me back to your bed and your soft white sheets
Remind me
Remind me that I'm beautiful
Remind me that you only want me
Take it back
Take back all the empty promises you made
Take back every word you cursed me with
Never forget
Never forget the nights that I cried over you
Never forget the smile that you once gave me
Tell me
Tell me you're sorry
Tell me you'll 'uff' me 'forver'
Take me back.
Oct 2, 2013
Oct 2, 2013 at 11:16 AM UTC
Forever is saying I would die for you,
Forver is saying I cant live without you,
Forever is like saying I love you,
But baby when it comes down to living with you,
Forever is a tragedy
Oct 4, 2011
Oct 4, 2011 at 8:03 PM UTC
You are him
you are the one for me,
I am sorry its been years.
All the tears
of the fears of being hurt by you haunted me -
day in and day out ;
added with all the drops of rain
from the struggling nights of our pain
questioning us, him, you, me and what we should be ...
mixed together
equals
I know that you and I will make it together
Forver.
Jan 26, 2011
Jan 26, 2011 at 12:44 AM UTC
I Don't Believe Anything Really Lasts.
If Things Lasted Forever,
Then Coffee Wouldn't Cool.
And Cigarettes Wouldn't End.
And Feelings Would Stay The Same.
And You Would Still Love Me.
But The Cold Hard Truth Is,
Nothing Lasts Forver.
Life Simply Goes On,
And I'm Trying To Figure Out Where To Go From Here.
Dec 23, 2014
Dec 23, 2014 at 4:42 AM UTC
I know that we have our issues but we can get through them.
We haven't worked this hard to stay together for nothing.
I want to keep fighting-you and me. You and me against the world babe. The more i think about it, the more I believe we can do it. We've come this far and I don't want to quit now.
I want you in my life.
Now and forever, forever and always.
Sep 23, 2015
Sep 23, 2015 at 4:15 AM UTC
at first,
its so easy to act like its nothing,
to act like your fine,
but its not
and you still do it anyways
but then
things start to get to you
your hurt
you feel let down
but you still keep it on in
by the time you want to say something
its too late
and you have to deal with it forver
some life we live!
Apr 27, 2014
Apr 27, 2014 at 5:35 PM UTC
Silence!
The word blurts out
These voices wont stop...
As my body sleeps
My mind can't rest
Because its plagued by these voices these terrible pests...
Prehapse they're my past regrets ?
Things I never said ?
Things I never did ?
Prehaps they're emotions of a confused kid ?
Sadness ,anger ,fear,hate,joy,lust,passion,nothingness, pain.
All of those fighting for control
Please
Please
Please
Plea...
Ple...
Silence!
I shout again
Stop your driving me insane..
I know I am broken that I can not change
The world turned me into this
And like this I will stay
I can not change so the voices to will stay
Emotions regret
So to I pray tonight
Lord above give me peace
So that I may rest
Or
Lord above take my soul so that I may forver rest
Freed from these voices
these terrible pests.
Oct 5, 2018
Oct 5, 2018 at 5:29 AM UTC
Family if forever,
Weather I like it or not,
It is a bond unbreakable,
I will forever be stuck with this lot.
Sure, I must admit,
Family can be annoying,
They sometimes make you loose it,
But this way life never seems too boring,
Because they will never let you quit,
They want to see you soaring!
Family can also be outside of blood,
Since I have my friends too,
I have my new and old buds,
Including little old you.
I have my Sunday friends also,
What a joy that always is,
I have old instructors steps to follow,
And teachers rulings to learn in order to take up any quiz!
I see God's love in all these people,
Friends, family, and parish,
In them I see no evil,
As they all love me so much,
Threw God's work and threw their own way,
All with a gentle touch,
They make sure I don't stray away,
And on the path of God I stay.
Feb 8, 2015
Feb 8, 2015 at 6:39 PM UTC
A flash flood warning is enabled from now until forver,
for a poets thoughts are held behind a waning dam,
and emotions may spill out and overflow at anytime
pulling any(and every)one into a current of ink.
sirens of "I tried to let you let know" blare in the distance
but you never know until you're too close, and too late.
May 2, 2017
May 2, 2017 at 11:06 AM UTC
I finally found you
you've got my heart singing a different tune
Your name is like the sound of calm falling rain
the sound of your voice an the words you say brighten my day
I know your name and it is unique in its own
You my darling Little Girl have given me a home
You an I stand side by side through the test of time
I saw your smile an took the way you look at me as a sign
I've gotten on one knee
I ask you to marry me
Now we're engaged
I warm your heart with these words i say
I will be with you forver an always till the end of days
Feb 6, 2019
Feb 6, 2019 at 2:13 AM UTC