From lovers,
We turned
Two strangers
With commitments

People-

They look at you,
They don't see you
.
They laugh at you,
They don't laugh with you.

They check out your clothes,
They never check up on you.

It's a herd of million faces
Saying same words in different voices.

This morning was special
Woke up with the taste of your lips,
And a smile that wouldnt wear off

Thanks for visiting from so far
Meeting me where I waited all along-
My dream- away from reality but close to the heart

Humans showed me sympathy
But dogs taught me empathy
Humans said, "You give me depression!"
My dog said, "Leave it & scratch me in slow motion!"

How do/did you cope up with loss?

For me
LOVE is truly a four-letter word
For me
It synonyms for ELMO
For me
He was more than a dog
For me
He meant LIFE all along

Elmo,
Your name and your face
Are engraved in my soul
Why did you have to go
Didn't you know you were my home

You have left me homesick
For now and a lifetime to see
You were my best boy
Please come back for one last treat

Your laugh used to
Synchronize with mine,
What seemed inseparable
Was just the trick of time.

I always thought
Love is a caviar
Fancy & pricy
Like a little sprinkle
Is all you need
Like a delicacy
Only some could relish

But it truly is
The first sip of water
When you had been thirsty
The chocolate you eat
In your sweet cravings
Your same bowl of cereal
From toddler till adulting

Once the calm ocean
Engulfed the entire sky

Once the gleaming sun
Made the homeless cry

Once the soothing wind
Uprooted innumerable lives

What a sinful wrath,
It haunts for a lifetime

The paper on my desk,
Waiting to get exploited
Since the day I met you

Ink on my shelf,
Waiting to be spilled
& wash my sorrows in blue

Pen in my pocket,
Waiting to scribble
The cries of my heart it listened to

Unspoken words,
Waiting to come out
In cursive, but mute

..

Here I start,
My first chapter
About heartache & you

My volcanic heart
is erupted
The unrest inside
will spew fire
So I
Set ablaze my sanity
And released
My sinful empire
You just wanted me
To be the 'real me'
And so your fist
That smashed my integrity
Here I am,
Now are you ready?
Are you willing?
To shake hands
With the devil?

How do I not love you?
How to cease what I feel?

It was just a casual romance of
2190 days & infinite memories.

The more I grow old,
My empathy grows bigger.

The more I understand,
My feelings become liberal.

I feel so much,
Say so little,
Why is my courage
Hiding under guilt

I want to shout
& cry & slam & curse
Instead, I shut my rage
Turn them into words

Silence is a prison,
Ignorance is too.
Don't punish yourself,
You need a shoulder too

Your lips are sealed,
You are not you,
Your soul cries affection,
Will you let me help you?

Not always you get the value you give,
For them your presence is just circumstantial
Neither they wanted or needed
You just happened to be there

For you, have always been the listener,
So every word uttered from your mouth
Goes unnoticeable, & sometimes thrown to the gutter,
The gutter where you find your old words decomposing

Back off to save yourself,
Because when you are being their shield
They are not willing to be yours
Apology is not there cup of tea, please let them be

It's tiring being
The little one,
The sacrificing one,
The loving one,
The compromising one,
The caring one

Sorry I don't want to be any of these.
I am tired, and I want to leave.

I lived a lifetime,
In your temporary presence.
Independent & free,
You unarmed me from my weapons.

It wasn't just a summer fling,
The memories are now a stain,
I regret we never said I love you but..
Happy, I got to hear you call me by your name.

-Elio to Oliver

My baggy eyes
My dark circles
Are unsettling for you,
But I am okay.

My belly tire
My non-existent thigh gap
Are unsettling for you,
But I am okay.

My firmless breast
My tanned skin
Are unsettling for you,
But I am okay.

One day I am the adviser
The next day I am the intruder
It's like people are paying me
To entertain them like a joker

Life & people in it are temporary
Make sure to live the first, love the latter.

Poetry- what a fine liquor
A sip of courage in a bottle
You can say I am drunk in words
An addiction I can't let go off
Pen & paper are my drinking buddies
Listening quietly while I blabber

Oh I married the nature
Wearing the wind as my wedding gown
Scent of flowers as my expensive cologne
Beautiful sunshine is the grand chandelier
Tree leaves rustling like my friend's giggles
The bird's are singing my wedding song
I walk down the aisle to my blue sky at the altar

Hazel brown eyes
Apple chin,
Angelic stride
Irresistible grin

Oh you masterpiece,
God's finest creation
From distance I worship,
For a touch of your affection.

Your perfection on Instagram,
Ruins my reality.

Echos of your flipping notes
Ruin my clarity.

You lean to kiss her,
While I am still on your lips
You hold her in your arms,
While you tighten my fist

Words like honey,
Drizzled on the wall
I climbed my way up,
An ant following her path.

There is no aftermath
No happy ending to my story
The sorrow chose to be infinite
So here I write one more poetry

Words..
Just a jumble of letters
Some make you happy
Some break your heart
Some bloom beautifully
Some get lost in the foliage

I will love you unconditionally.
Just pour me kisses
Like it's our last day.
And whisper 'I love you'
When you grab my waist.

Three words came at me,
Banging my door like crazy.

I open, and see,
'Hey. You. Free?'
Standing in desperation,
Questioning my availability.
Smelling like they skinny dipped
In a pool of alcohol & jealousy.

I wear makeup,

For the eyes
That witnessed a sleepless night.

For the face
Turned blue from your venomous bite.

Laid my head beneath the sky,
Timid stars, looked so wry.
Asked, "Have you lost your bright light?"
Stars smirked, "You see dull 'cause your eyes fright!"

Showed my teeth, puffed up cheeks,
"See the smile? I'm not that weak!"
Stars mocked, "Fooled the world
Think you can fool me?"

Startled, distressed, I shouted
"What do you know about me!"
Stars smiled, "To be a star,
Had rough path, but never left glee.
Behold! what do you see?
Struggle? Or just sheer beauty?"

Suddenly, I was seeping in ground
Those heavy words dragged me down,
I lost my groove, as I struggled to bound
While the stars looked bigger in their glinting crowns.

Reluctant, I asked, "Is sadness all I've got?
Am I just like a desert's drought?"

Stars empathised, "Alas! You don't know what you are,
Pull yourself from isolation's tar,
& leave the lonesome den afar,
For you can shine brighter than a star."

'Good things in life are free'
Like laughing with family,
Wagging tail of your 8-year old baby,
Sitting by yourself with no company,
Sleeping for hours alone & independently.
Yes, I say,
Best things in life are really free.

Adapt to changes love.
Why being a frog amongst a bunch of chameleons?

Nails are blue,
Skin is sore,
Hands are cuffed,
By the winter wind.

Cheeks blushing red,
Cold air whispering in ear
Dewy hair tucked in hood
Teeth chattering in monotony.

The last time I lived a happy winter
Is now living on a piece of paper.
I don't know why its so different,
Only skin feels the winter,
the mind is living elsewhere.

My heart's burning with your touch,
Flames till the roof of my heart,
While this warmth keeps me alive,
The smoke chokes me to death.

'You grow better in love' they said,
Then why did I grow bitter?

What love is not?
Sitting together but immersed in phone.
Sleeping together but not cuddling anymore.
Walking together, but acting like strangers.
Talking 30 seconds even after 15 long hours.

Dear democracy,
Are you really there?
Fighters fought for freedom
Now the youth, for their share.

You taught us to be free,
You taught us to put our opinion
But lately you seem like a mere word,
To be used by only a politician.

We are all a little lonely.

To
the man driving to an empty house after work,

the homeless guy wondering life & survival,

the lover plucking petals to feed his infatuation,

the last petal feeling alone before it's plucked,

the lonesome bird sitting on a branch without a mate,

the happy dog who was just left off at an unknown place,

I want you to know..
The breeze touching your skin,
Has touched me too
I feel you my friend,
Now this is my pain too.
I hope I could find you,
Share your loneliness with mine,
Maybe we'll meet,
30 years later, below the ground.

From here to you I say
Writing is your healing,
Never let it get away.

To all the times you said I love you
My heart broke apart,
Wondered how many lies you could lip
After our 1000 trys and million re-starts.

To all the times you touched my lips
My soul tore apart,
Wondered how could you repeat everything
That you did with her behind my back.

I am sorry my love,
For now I am finally done.
Soon I'll be distanced from you,
Away I walk, away I run.

Four years ago,
I remember our hour-long talks
Four years now,
My Hey/s yearn for your text-backs.

Your unconditional love,
Awestruck gaze,
Your comforting presence,
Snuggling in bed,
Showed I matter,
Showed you care.

Yes its you my love,
My four-legged friend
With his wagging tail.