and there was a feeling -
a glowing in her chest,
a blooming nurtured by music,
an energy lulled by rest.
it moves through all things,
this pervading catharsis -
you may find it in the cracks,
or the things on your list.
as for her, she found it
on a road to nowhere -
one of a million infinites,
too heavy for her to bear.
she could no longer move the thing,
for hindered by her own weight was she.
she held in her chest a heavy heart,
dry heaving her way to her heaven to be.
and that was when she realized,
as the wind lifted her chin -
infinite is only as big as infinite is,
until infinite comes crashing in.
"what's left of me then?"
she sighed to herself.
and then the wind whispered, humble and true.
"what's left of you is still the very you."
"you may be the girl who has never won
after staring cruel despair in the face.
you may be on a million roads to nowhere,
but this is just the start of your race."
"the you who your mother cradled in her breast,
the you who looks at the world with wonder,
the you with color in her eyes and flowers in her smile,
who thinks light can be both a question mark and an answer."
a smile slowly began to set on her face,
subtly at first, then shining through her skin.
she no longer feared and fed on anxiety;
she felt stronger than she'd ever been.
soon she let go of what was no longer there,
and slowly she learnt to no longer despair.
with an open mind and a heart so true,
she began her journey into the blue.
inspired by the living sleep, an amazing ambient/post-rock band who i sincerely wish to thank. this couldn't have been written without their music serving as a sensory backdrop (:
