you‘re still on my mind
and maybe this idea of love makes me blind

I guess, for you, I really fell
your name is the only one I can spell

still remember your smell
hoping you’re doing well

so if you’re reading this,
can’t you get me a kiss?
wait, what do you mean
“you’re not the girl I miss“?

you’re still on my mind
should I really leave it behind?

you could at least come back
and explain what made us crack

or we could start over,
maybe get a lil’ closer

because hope is the last to die
and I don’t want to say goodbye

- gio, 22.03.2020

All I feel is sadness, anger and pain.
It's really beginning to drive me insane.

Sometimes I start to cry,
and no, I don't know why.

People want to understand
and take me by their hand.

They say it's going to be okay.
Turns out that's all they can say.

my mind is trying to find a reason
why this may be happening
but it keeps searching
and it keeps coming up empty

there is no explanation
or logical reason
there is no solution
to this problem

you said so many beautiful words
and they’re saying
none of them meant anything to you
but how could i believe them
when i know your eternal soul?
why would you say those things
and not mean them?

How do I explain to you the feeling of
inadequacy when someone loves or compliments?

How do I explain to you the fear of being a disappointment
or not having climbed up to someone's level of expectation?

How do I explain when without warning I am plagued
with self doubt, layered with chaotic-heavy-blues
and harboring insecurities?

How do I explain when I don't want
these thoughts to matter?
when I just want them to be deprived
of care that they die within,
and never surface to my skin.

But somehow like the crashing waves
they envelope me in the depths and like
the black hole **** me from within.

i think about if he thinks about us