Time never stops.
It waits for no one.
It doesn't care
whether it's the moon
or whether it's the sun
time just marches on
and leaves us all feeling robbed
and needing more
but the worst thing about time
is the way it seems to pour
through our fingers
like grains of sand
and no matter how hard we try
seems we can never plan
to have enough
to save it up,
to make it stay
time just keeps slipping, slipping
far far away...

i would leave home for days
no one would ever ask where i was at
it began to feel as if i could just disappear
without a sound, without a word
no one would come searching for me
maybe that's why i've become so obsessed
with this idea of dying

Sometimes before the sun comes up,
I like to disappear.
You won't catch me sleeping peacefully in a bed beside a boy I love,
because I simply can't.
I sink myself into the mountains before the dew even sets on the ground.
As I go higher up, I know I will eventually disappear into the fog.
If you are looking for me, you will not find me
because i am learning the art of

how to disappear c o m p l e t e l y

The date that marks another month
came and went before I had a chance
to dwell on it.

You're already fading,
already disappearing
from my mind.

One day you will fade away completely,
only a memory
and no longer a heartache.

Well darling I wish you would stay,
please never stop haunting me
in this bittersweet way.

Because I'd rather have this heartache
than let you fade away and
become nothing but a shadowed memory.

it makes me too sad
i can't hold your hand
yesterday you wouldn't look at me
and today i feel you disappearing
i remember when you were nice
hold me tight, 'i love you, good night'
don't go, just don't go
you always wanted me close
tonight i sit on the couch by your side
we're watching a stupid movie but you aren't listening
and all i want to do is shrink and fade
into this dark room
you won't notice, you won't see
you're not listening
you're not hearing me
you'll say soon, 'let's go to bed'
and you'll want to have ***
and you'll hold me close for a brief moment
before drifting off
and i'll lay here awake
with the tv playing on in the background
thinking of all the wrong things
i've done this week
when i was trying, to not get in your way
(i don't want you to hate me)
do you want to go away?
i always told you that i was a ghost
and now around you, i truly feel like one
i'm so cold and so alone
you're right here
but you don't want me near
can we restart?
i'll be perfect, just as i was
before the bad things came out
and i am screaming at them to die
when all i want to do is die
and i need you
but you can't see
you're not listening
you're not hearing me

After thinking long and hard,
Of what I'd wish upon a star,
Now the decision is very clear,
But how does one wish for darkness and fear,
My life has been cloudy and left out in the rain,
I've hit to many stops signs,
Its become Grotius when falling not feeling a thing,
Not brave enough to do it myself,
Only a wish that I wish for myself,
Darkness as my eyes close,
I begin to freeze,
Into a deep sleep which then I'll disappear,
No more heart break,
No more tears and definitely no more fears,
No more pain not a worry,
Only a memory that will become blurry,
But then at least my life will finally get to end,
Especially when this life is over and my new one gets to begin,
But that's like asking for rain without thunder but you always will get the sun,
So let my life be over,
So Reincarnation can start over.

I first felt it in the morning
My fear progressed with the day
I knew behind me something was creeping
Why won’t it go away?
No matter how fast I ran I could not escape it-
It would not escape me.
It must be amused at my lack of wit
I can’t figure out how to flee.
I run in circles and cut corners
I try to hide but everything seems sheer
I am about to exceed my own fearsome borders
When will the feeling disappear?
As night comes the darkness takes over
Still afraid, but in this I’m not alone.
My stalker can no longer hover
Now that the sun is no longer shown