took a break
in writing down my thoughts

took a rest
in spilling my words

took a while
in pouring down
all my heart and soul

I’m getting weak recently,
that kind of weakness
when someone’s
holding you

I didn't believe
that someone
could take my
heart in a beat
until I saw
a radiant smile
that left me in awe
but there's something
much more charming
than his smile
it's his laugh
I saw how his eyes glimmer
the moment he laughed
that's when I realized
I have never fallen in love
with somebody's laugh

earnestly pray
for what your heart wants
and patiently wait
for it to be granted

she’d like to ignore
everything that she feels,
to realize her worth
and what she deserves,
but what can someone do
if the heart tells otherwise?

got so much
love to give
but no one
to give it to

the one
whom you prayed for
the one
whom your heart longs for
the one
whom your mind speaks
the one
whom you want to spend the rest of your life with
the one
whom you will choose everyday
if given the chance
again

can I have a shoulder for a minute?
where I can rest my head
and put my mind in peace

can I have a hand for a minute?
which will be holding me
when I start to tremble

can I have a pair of ears for a minute?
who could just listen to my thoughts
without judgment

or

should I just have someone for the rest of my life?
whom I can lean on
and be in my vulnerable form,
someone who can make me feel
that I am not alone in this oh so cruel world

gloomy days
will pass
sunny days
are coming

it took only
one message
for the memories
to come back

only then
that I realized
the feelings
never really left

it has been
quite a while
when I felt
everything
at once

memories do hold
a thousand feelings
that linger in our hearts
and make us feel alive

a sunny morning
reminds me of the time
where I made him smile
because of a cheesy burger in exchange of his hard disk drive

a windy afternoon
when I first heard
him deliver his corny joke
while he fixes a subscriber's telephone line

a gloomy 3 pm
when he drove to see me
hold back my tears
for a friend that failed to battle for his life

a quiet sunset
where he gave me
his birthday gift
and watch me as I open it with delight in my smile

a rainy night
where we both ate
our take-out McDonald's inside his car
as we listen to the radio and held hands

wistful I say,
that these kind of days
remind me of my
one great love

love, don't be disheartened
of not receiving the love
you gave away

remember this:
the love that is deserving of you
will come when you least expect it

keep your faith,
that what you have been praying for
had been answered and now on it's way

To all the stopovers
and endings
the delays
and the in between
and the waiting.

I know that it was God's plan
so I will keep still
while pouring all my faith
and trusting God's hands.

amid the chaos,
I found peace
Troubled mind;
restless heart;
damaged soul.
All came in piece
but I will not be swayed,
gonna keep the faith
every pain will be worth it.

one day
when the night is no longer lonely
and when the day starts to get sunny
I will find my way
into someone's arms,
which I can lean on.
someone's hand,
which I can hold on.
someone's heart,
who can love me.
but for now I will wait,
pray to God
to continue guiding me.
and lead my way.
but for now,
I will find joy in these lonely nights,
and patiently wait for my sunny days.

he took away,
all that there is.
left nothing,
but ruins.