I loved you through the tears you caused
I wanted you even after the pain
I thought about you even when I was falling apart
All I ever wanted was you
And you took that away from me

When I'm drunk I don't have to miss you
Every sip makes me forget you
Your bottled up in the empty bottles
When Liquor runs through my body
I can no longer feel your touch on my skin
When I'm sober it hurts
Because I remember
Your touch your voice
I remember you
I'd rather not be sober
I don't want to feel you not here

Someone should of told me
When I met you
That in the end
I'd be left with a broken heart
Empty space in my heart
Someone should of told me
I'd be torn apart

It hurts it hurts
It hurts to know its over
What we were
What we are
Nothing last forever
I wanted us to last forever
Tug pull tug pull
I can't take it

I dont sleep to rest
I sleep to escape life
Sleep is the only time I feel relief
sleep is my death fantasy
I look forward to my little deaths every night.

He was like a hurricane
Hurricanes at first it's exciting then ends in tragedy
Evacuation warnings warn you to run away
There's a risk of it that keeps things exciting
Drawing you in
Every storm comes and goes
The greater ones they cause destruction
Suddenly when the sun rises again
You're left to pick up the pieces
Before you know it they're gone again
Bound to return the next season
Just as everything is back to normal
You will chase the storm again
Given in to its wind
You crave it
With its exciting destruction

Its not healthy the way I cry for you
Brownies and swings remind me of you
My heart aches for you
My stomach turns when I think of you with another
You calling someone else baby girl
Holding them calming them down
Cuddling the way we use to
Calling them out of the middle of nowhere
Writing silly little poems just to make them smile
Showing them your favorite songs
I wish you were still doing those things with me
And the worst part is I don't know where we went wrong
Was it you scared of your feeling
Or me being to clingy or to obsessive
Or a little bit of both

My tears pouring down like rain
Running down my cheeks
On a cloudy day
Thunder escaping my lips
Im running towards you in this storm
We've made
You are lost somewhere behind the fog
Running the other way
The storm is getting to hard
So we keep going our on way
Torn apart from each other

I want to go back to the innocent girl I was not the one that knows hurt. Not the girl that knows how the world works.

You take and take from me
Never realizing what your really taking
You carelessly take pieces
Never knowing if you keep taking
There won't be anything left
And when you run out of things to take
There won't be anything left of me

Do I know you do I truly deep down know you
Are there parts of you I don't know
Parts that would give me chills
Make me cry
If I knew your past like a movie
Would I of fallen
If I knew your soul your heart
Your thoughts
Would my heart love you

I want to go away
Go away
Go away
Help I want to go away
I want to escape myself
Help!
I'm gonna go away
I'm losing myself
Help!
I'm out of control
I'm almost there
Almost gone
Help!
I'm gonna go now
Help!

When your heart breaks
It breaks
It's gut wrenching pain
You lose apart of yourself
You will never get back
But in the end
You are who you're meant to be

When Everything's quiet
My thoughts are the loudest
In this darkness
I ponder my mistakes
I feel like I'm running
From everything that's hiding
Deep inside

You scrambled my pieces up
Until I was so confused I couldn't put them back together
You changed me before I was truly who I was supposed to be
You took years away from me you took who I could of been
You made me something I couldn't understand
You made me a angry kid
You made me a messed up and anxiety filled teenager
You made me a confused adult trying to figure it out
I was a blank canvas
And you painted it
With self hate and panic and anxiety
And I will never know what picture I would of been without your brush strokes

Love comes at a cost
The cost of your heart
You will be broken after
It will leave you on the floor with nothing
Nothing but memories  
Memories that breaks your heart over and over again

I feel this way
You feel this way
Im scared to feel this way
Just to let it all go
And be with you with no worries
It scares me
It scares me that I need you
That you are the only thing that makes sense
That you're the one
I feel like I'm diving in ice water blind folded
Not knowing what will happen
Trying to find something wrong
Where everything is right
Driving us both crazy

If you break my heart ill call it fair
I broke yours every time you saw a scar
Every time I cried a tear
Shared all the things from my broken past
So if you break my heart don't worry about me

She was innocent
Never had her heart broken
He made tears flow from her eyes
And kept air from her lungs
She made her mistakes
In the past
But she doesn't deserve this pain
She feels like she is dying
And apart of her is
Who she was will always be his
The girl she is now will never be his

You come and turn my world upside down
My heart inside out
Tears fall like rain
I want to take cover
But the only safe place I find is you

You called me today
You probably thought I didn't want to talk
Because I was short and hung up fast
I didn't do it to be cruel to you
Or because I didn't want to talk
I did it because I can't handle the sweet sound of your voice
It took me back to old times
Something so familiar and something I used to call home
My heart started racing like it used to
I can't go back to that just to be left again
Just to have to start healing myself again
I can't go back to unanswered messages and missed calls
And I can't shed another tear for you
I can't feel my heart break
I can't feel the pain of you leaving again

I guess you could say I loved you
I guess you could say you broke up with me
But baby we were already broken
You and I both knew when it happened
It wasn't your fault or mine
Both of us broke each other
We both made the same mistakes
You can't blame it on me
And I can't blame it on you

You love me
I love him
You're good for me
He is not
But my heart screams his name
Every night I see his face in my dreams
I try so hard to love you
And stop loving him
Something about the way he is
His voice his smile
It has my heart
And won't let it go

I say I'm fine
But inside my heart is breaking
At night I lay in bed crying
Tears so strong I feel like Im shaking
When will this end and I be whole again

I fell in love with you
And I fell hard
It wasn't easy falling
I got bruises and scratches
And you left me to bleed with tears in my eyes
You looked me in the face and told me you loved me
As you walked away

She was a wild hurricane
Eyes as blue as the ocean
Personality like a fire
Her essence made you want her
You knew she was to good to be treated the way you treated her
But you were selfish and wouldn't let her go
And boy she would never dream of leaving you
So you both hung on far to long

Are we just a ship wreck
Stuck on a desert island
Traveling unknown territory

She passed with bright lips
And wet finger nails
Freshly dyed hair
Sad eyes a broken heart
Torn apart
She fell in love
Look at her now

It's midnight and I'm still up thinking about you
My mind is flooded of memories
Trying to figure out what went wrong
But was it ever right

Im not strong enough
It's not gonna be ok
Im broken
Im not saying that one day
I just shattered
I broke piece by piece
I felt every painful piece
Fall to the floor and then shatter
Im not saying that I'm special
Or that my problems are worst than yours
Im just saying I can't take it
You can call me selfish
Tell me I throw fits
I don't care
You don't understand me
And you never will

I'm not good enough for you
Pretty enough
I don't have the perfect body
And I probably never will
But friends is what we will be to eternity

Im letting go
Moving on
I have to let you go
Ive held on so long
Ive held on even when I knew
There wasn't much more to hold on to
Ive watched us fade
Ive fell apart
Trying to keep it together
Ive cried a hundred tears

She's a living dead girl she breathes but it isn't a life.  She is going through the motions of life but it isn't living. With every breathe she knows she is that much closer to death and that helps her live.

Despite all the bad you've done
How you treated me
All the tears I cried
The late nights with no sleep
I did everything I could to keep you
Yet you still left
What I gave wasn't enough
I gave you the world
I handed you my heart you could of had it forever
I was willing to do anything for you
I gave you all my love
I altered myself to be what you needed
I visited parts of myself I never would have without you

Like a storm you blew into my life
With a smile so sweet
With loving words I can keep
Like all storms
You led a destructive path
The aftermath
Left cracks in my heart
Nothing but tears falling like rain
Dark cloudy days to come

Somehow somewhere we belong together
Some how Somewhere
I wanna be right where you are
But where you are is to far
Somewhere you're happy
Some how you found away to live without me
I couldn't find away to let you go
My love for you never washed away
I still dream of a place where were together
I hang on to the past
Willing it to be the future

The memories we made
Is what made me stay
I've realize that no matter how long I stay
There won't be anymore good memories
All we're doing is contaminating the old ones
I don't want to remember you as pain
What were doing now is disgusting

When he left her it never crossed her mind
He'd come back
And it never crossed his that she'd be gone

I want you to listen to me and hear me
I want you to look at me and actually see me

I have this same recurring dream
And you are always in it
Mostly its us cuddled together
Legs over legs
Fingers laced together
You holding me
Sometimes Im crying
Sometimes were laughing
But all the time Im happy with you
I talk about my life
My childhood memories
I want you to know every part of me
Sometimes I want to give up
Because loving you this much hurts
But I can't imagine life without you
Because without you
I couldn't imagine
And that's why it hurts so much

I wish I could trust you when you say you care
I wish you could trust me when I say I'm trying

Everything's quiet
My thoughts are the loudest
In this meadow of darkness
I ponder my mistakes
I feel like I'm running
From everything that's hiding
Deep inside

I got to let you go
Because holding on hurts

Thoughts of you gasping for your last breath
I couldn't imagine the world without you
A place where you don't exist
The end of you
I don't want to know that pain
I couldnt even imagine it

I want it to be how it used to be
Before you told me you had to go
That this was the end
Before you broke my heart
I want to trade my tears
For the laughter and the smiles
Id give anything to go back to your room
Where we were us
Where we began

You are chaos strong and pure
I am warmth on a winter day
Cozy by the fire
You are outside barefooted
Im safe and careful
You are wild and carefree
Reckless and dangerous
I'm ***** and innocent

There's a emptiness
Where my heart should be
There's a ghost haunting my memories
He comes late at night
I can almost feel his lips against mine
His face is blurry
His voice is muted
But I know it's you
Am I a ghost to you or am I just dead
Do I visit you or am I something that never crosses your mind

Our story is
Worn out pages
Untold chapters
Covered in tear stains
It tells the story of pain and heartbreak
With a beginning and a middle
But written without a ending