Im letting go
Moving on
I have to let you go
Ive held on so long
Ive held on even when I knew
There wasn't much more to hold on to
Ive watched us fade
Ive fell apart
Trying to keep it together
Ive cried a hundred tears

I was young and naive
Innocent if you please
Didn't know what it meant
To much to uncover
Afraid of what we might discover
Loved you like no other
How will I ever recover
You became my obsession

How you tried to make it last
Did you really think it should
Now its time to let it go
Its been coming for to long
You just didn't want to know
Its tearing you apart
Holding on to something gone
Like a guest that stayed to long
Now its time for me to go

Somehow somewhere we belong together
Some how Somewhere
I wanna be right where you are
But where you are is to far
Somewhere you're happy
Some how you found away to live without me
I couldn't find away to let you go
My love for you never washed away
I still dream of a place where were together
I hang on to the past
Willing it to be the future

I met you
My whole life changed
At first it was good
Then we took a turn for the worst
Im broken hearted
Full of tears
I spend my days missing you
Waiting for you
Asking myself if its worth it
If you love me
Second guessing myself

Should I start a fight
Make rain pour down
Make the sky scream
Light up the night with violent lighting
Then you would see the pain I felt when you left

My heart says run straight toward you at full speed
My brain says run the other way
I think my heart is winning

You're gone
And I'm waiting
On time to speed up
Or to turn back
A temporary fix
We can't go back
There is no future
My love is strong
But I can't do it on my own
You try to come back
But I'm beginning to think you don't know how

I want to go back to the beginning
When our love was fresh and new
And we haven't hurt each other
Back to when you were a mystery  
Before I knew all your demons
When our story wasn't written in pain

You live in a box
In a song in my dreams
In my memories in my heart
You my love live in my past
I dream about you
I think about what could be
You come into my life
And leave just as fast
This is not a jump in jump out
Kinda thing
My heart can't take it

He's a gypsy soul
Known for leaving
If anyone ever made him want to stay it was her
But his gypsy soul wouldn't let him go
So he let her go instead

I need you like a drug
I thought one more hit
Wouldn't do any harm
So I took another
Thats all it took to get hooked
You made be feel so high
The withdraws was always the worst
Late nights craving you
Wanting you feeling like I needed you
You have your drugs and I have you
I don't know which one of us is more addicted

He was like a hurricane
Hurricanes at first it's exciting then ends in tragedy
Evacuation warnings warn you to run away
There's a risk of it that keeps things exciting
Drawing you in
Every storm comes and goes
The greater ones they cause destruction
Suddenly when the sun rises again
You're left to pick up the pieces
Before you know it they're gone again
Bound to return the next season
Just as everything is back to normal
You will chase the storm again
Given in to its wind
You crave it
With its exciting destruction

If you don't love me let me go
I won't forget you
You're the one I hold on to
I see you in my dreams
You're always on my mind
It doesn't matter if you leave
Because I still hold you in my heart
If you leave ill be a shell of what could be
You will live in a broken heart
Because I will never let you go

Ill follow you down even as I break
Ill hold on to you as long as I can
Its dangerous and uncontrollable  
My love for you
Its something I hate and something I love
I let you wear me down
I don't care what it does to me as long as I have you

I overdose on you
Im like a ****** needing a fix
Doing everything I can to have you
I can't quit you even if I tried
Its heaven and hell your highs and lows
Im addicted to your love
I crave your voice
I can't let you go because I'm so tangled up in you
Ive convinced myself I need you

Under this siren's spell my heart buckles
I want you forever
But time has taking us apart
There's still shadows of you in my heart
I cry out for you in my tears
As a plea for help
But you ignore my pleas

You run and hide
Playing hide and seek with my heart
When I find you
You keep hiding in darker places
Its not fair
You are much better at this game than I am

I want it to be how it used to be
Before you told me you had to go
That this was the end
Before you broke my heart
I want to trade my tears
For the laughter and the smiles
Id give anything to go back to your room
Where we were us
Where we began

You are chaos strong and pure
I am warmth on a winter day
Cozy by the fire
You are outside barefooted
Im safe and careful
You are wild and carefree
Reckless and dangerous
I'm ***** and innocent

My tears pouring down like rain
Running down my cheeks
On a cloudy day
Thunder escaping my lips
Im running towards you in this storm
We've made
You are lost somewhere behind the fog
Running the other way
The storm is getting to hard
So we keep going our on way
Torn apart from each other

My love for you changed me and when you left that changed me too

Memories run through my mind
I close my eyes and I can see your face
And my heartbreaks again
I can close my eyes and almost feel your touch
Your voice I can always hear
For your so close to me
You live in my heart

Im drowning all alone
No one here to save me
Im falling apart
No one to pick up the pieces
So I'm gonna save myself
Pick up my own pieces

Cutter cutter heres your lullaby
Take this knife and slice it away
Cutter cutter it won't be ok
Cutter cutter make me bleed
The voices in your head tell the truth
Cut away the pain its the only way
Cutter cutter you won't be ok
Cutter cutter go deeper
So many scars on her skin
They tell the story of her
Cutter cutter your scars tell you past
Cutter cutter how much longer
One day you might go to deep
Cutter cutter it'll get better
Cutter cutter cut no more

Memories run through my mind
I close my eyes and I can see your face
And my heartbreaks again
I can close my eyes and almost feel your touch
Your voice I can always hear
For your so close to me
You live in my heart

I'm not gonna find you in the bottom of this bottle
Im not gonna see your face in this puff of smoke
So why am I on this downward spiral
I will always love you
Even if you're far away
When your heart belongs to another

What if I told you that girl over there.
Yeah the one you just complimented on how skinny she's gotten.
What if I told you that that girl is staving.
Staving in so many ways.
Yes she is hungry. In the literal way and metaphorical way.
She is starving but it goes deeper than that.
She wants to be seen. She wants love. She wants life.
She wants happiness. She wants to be pretty. She wants the things you do.
Hell she doesnt know what it is she wants anymore.
Maybe she is just like you in away.
She cant even pinpoint when she decided this for herself.
Maybe it was the first compliment. The first time a guy looked at her.
The first time someone told her she was pretty.
She wanted to be prettier skinnier better.
She doesnt even realize she is living in hell, or maybe she does and doesnt care.
She wants all these things that much. That she doesnt care.
And you are "feeding" into that with every compliment, every look and every word.
She has made herself weak. Weak in so may ways.
Mentally and physically. Now look again. You see it now. Dont you?
You see the circles the tiredness in her eyes.
Now look again you see the sad the hurt and the pain.
Now look again you see that she is me. Now look again she could easily be you.

All I have left are
Dead dreams and broken promises
They are lost at sea
No one can find them but me
I tried to draw you a map
To my heart
But you threw it away

Im all alone in this world
No one to share my tears
My love My pain
I have all these secrets
Parts no one will know again
I shared them before
Ive learned thats a mistake
They will leave
He will take his hammer and shatter your heart
Your secrets spilling out where everyone can see

Tears running down my cheeks
I saw your face
I didn't see pain in your eyes
Even though you were breaking my heart
I saw relief that you'd be rid of me
You never wanted anything serious
I guess it got to much for you
So you gave it up
And left me with my heart in my hands
So I had no other choice but to leave with a smile on my face

Despite all the bad you've done
How you treated me
All the tears I cried
The late nights with no sleep
I did everything I could to keep you
Yet you still left
What I gave wasn't enough
I gave you the world
I handed you my heart you could of had it forever
I was willing to do anything for you
I gave you all my love
I altered myself to be what you needed
I visited parts of myself I never would have without you

You love me
I love him
You're good for me
He is not
But my heart screams his name
Every night I see his face in my dreams
I try so hard to love you
And stop loving him
Something about the way he is
His voice his smile
It has my heart
And won't let it go

In your eyes I see hope and love
I see something that you're working so hard to get
Something that I can't give you
I care enough to care but not enough to love
That part of me broke when he left
It isn't your fault there's nothing wrong with you
If anything theres something wrong with me
Im the one that can't let go of someone that broke my heart

The day I heard your voice
It broke my heart all over again
It brought me back to that night
When you broke my heart
I was reminded of the tears
The pain of losing you
It also took me back to old times
When all it took was your voice to make me smile
Late nights talking in your room
You making up silly games to past the time
It took me back to when you used to be mine
And I was yours

I spend my days
Drinking you away
Tears running down my face
Smoke escaping my lips
Thoughts of you drowning my mind
Time passing me by

If you break my heart ill call it fair
I broke yours every time you saw a scar
Every time I cried a tear
Shared all the things from my broken past
So if you break my heart don't worry about me

I want you
And I wanted you to stay
But now that your gone
I want you to stay gone
But I can't stop missing you
So you might as well come back

You called me today
You probably thought I didn't want to talk
Because I was short and hung up fast
I didn't do it to be cruel to you
Or because I didn't want to talk
I did it because I can't handle the sweet sound of your voice
It took me back to old times
Something so familiar and something I used to call home
My heart started racing like it used to
I can't go back to that just to be left again
Just to have to start healing myself again
I can't go back to unanswered messages and missed calls
And I can't shed another tear for you
I can't feel my heart break
I can't feel the pain of you leaving again

You called me today you probably thought I didn't want to talk
Because I was short and hung up fast
But the sound of your voice took me back to old times
It also made me realize that we can never be how we used to be
That the past is just that and there is no future between us
Your voice still gave me butterflies
My heart started racing like it used to
I wonder what it felt like for you to hear my voice again
And what you thought when I didn't text you back
I didn't do it to be cruel to you or because I didn't want to talk
I did it because I can't handle the sweet sound of your voice
Something so familiar and something I used to call home
Ive worked so hard to get over you
And I can't let all that be wasted just because I hear your voice
You know just how to use your words to get back in my heart
I can't go back to that just to be left again
Just to have to start healing myself again
Because you won't be back for long
It will go back to unanswered messages and missed calls
And I can't shed another tear for you

To much drink
Brought up old memories
She couldn't remember
Buried deep forever forgotten
She remembers her countless lovers
Who loved her body but not her soul
She remembers who she used to be
He remembers the stories she's told him

I want you to look at my picture
And feel the way I do
When I look at yours

You left
That was your choice
A choice I had to deal with

When did it change
When did we break
What made you leave
What made me stay
My heart is broken
And you're just fine
Im waiting on you
While you're moving on

I want to be angry
******* and hate you
In stead I'm crying myself asleep
Falling a part wish you'd come back
Knowing that if you come back it will be different
Because the way you hurt me broke me
And I'm not the same girl you left

I just want you happy
I want you ok and if that means life without me
Im ok with it as long as you're ok
Because you're my one the one that will haunt me
The one I never really will be over
The one that changed my life
The one that I want happy even if that cant be with me
Even if you hate me or love me or cant handle me
Even if that means a life without you as long as you ok
Im ok with it
Im struggling without you sometimes it hurts to breathe
Sometimes I wonder if you think about me
Sometimes I crave your touch your kiss
Your voice your everything but all of that doesnt matter to me
As long as you're ok
Because  you matter to me

Ive always been told we all have that one. The one that will haunt you. The one you will never really be over, The one that changed your life. You're my one. I want you happy even if that means you're happy without me. If being without me makes you happy. Im ok with it even if I'm falling apart. Even if I'm crying as long as you're smiling.

To the guy that broke my heart
I don't hate you I couldn't ever imagine hating you
I wanna thank you
You helped me realize how strong I really am
And the pain you left
In away I'm glad to have it
Because its the last thing of you that I have
You knew the girl before the hurt and pain
Im not gonna say I'm a whole different girl
Because I'm still me
But when you left It changed me
It broke me to my knees
I cried all my tears
Its time to give my heart a rest  
You no longer have this hold over me

Im feeling so broken
Drowning in gray
Crushed under my self hate
Smothered under negativity
Wanting more

When you left
I broke and lost pieces of myself
You still have them
They belong to you now
I will never be the girl I used to be
You hold her in your memories and thats the only place she will ever be
When you come back I wont be the girl you remember
You wont recognize me
Your love changed me
And when you left me it changed me more