We Just Need One More
To Be Inches From Immortality

I'm not trying to over complicate
Something so simple
As holding a hand.
I have seen too many friends
Strip down until they are completely covered in
Vulnerability.
And watch the person they trust
Take what they want
And treat it as a joke.
This I have decided that the gateway to my trust
Will always be closed.
I'm quick for a kiss
But awfully slow
For holding your hand.

No.
I'm sorry but you can't.
I've had my fun with you.
And you've definitely had your time with me.
I can't be tossed aside when you feel like it,
And you sure as hell cannot come back to retrieve me
Like the bone a dog chews when it is bored.
I wish you the best.
Really I do.
You can't love me.
Because I don't love you.

My anxiety holds me hostage in my own body
It covers my mouth with lies
And holds my hands down with worries
I deserve better I think.

Hahahaha
A damaging exclamation
Hahahaha
Damning your reputation
Watch for your words
They pierce through paper skin
Ruining lives with an adjective or noun
Because words can hurt me

I wish people worked like clocks
They can be tall
Short
Loud
Quiet
They can be digital
They can be old-fashioned
They can be dressed up
Or even a little bare
And when they break
You can tell
And you can fix them
And make them all better

The girl hits good for a 5 foot 2
120 pound mountain of attitude
Her friends asked if she learned from a dude
But she smirked and said her Aunt Mary and her wife Aunt Jude

The girl liked the way it made ripples in skin
How a punch could change a person’s complexion
From a pale white to black and blue.

Her boyfriend was a different color every day
Blue in the eye and purple in the ribs
People thought he liked it that way
But they didn’t know how he truly lived

The girl used her jab as her excuse for coming home late
Her right hook to why she hooked up with his best mate
Her uppercut meant she didn’t want to take out the trash
And her straight meant she wanted some extra cash

He gave her what she wanted because all he could see
Was an angel who barely met 5 foot 3
And it’s not like he could ever talk back
Her left hook always dealt with that.

falling
down
down
into a blurry Slumber
shake me.
shake me.
but you will not wake me
from this interminable Sleep

the girl had Emotion in her fingers
her head was too empty with thoughts
and her heart too drained of recognition
that she stored her feelings in her fingertips