We desire a love

that makes us stop on our feet

the eyes follow on dreams we can't
reach

the hands cramp of holding what we can't grip

the heart begins to slow down as she walks by

thats the time you'll realize all things come and go

and the show must go on

I want your nails up in my back
as the mood intensifies
you'll scream more
in every muscle moving
as my lips pressed on your neck
in a bed we called paradise
The only heaven we won't share
and a perfect place where lovers
can hide

Taking back the time
no time machine needed
all that we need to have
is us
in a place where memories stayed
and love
faded

So take me back
use the time machine if needed
bring yourself is all that I need
to a place that our memory fades
and love we've been dying
to heal

If you'd ask why I didn't choose you
My tongue curls up to say
That you were the dream
and she was the reality

I've slept far too longer
denying every truth
that the heart needs to wake up
knowing it will never be you

You were the happy thought
at the back of my brain
kept lock inside
being scared that things might change

But I found the weapon
to end all of our suffering
no deadly blades or guns
but only a tongue
having the courage to say
"i'm letting go"

The intro played and so did the memories
Fantasy was our  favourite place to hang out when reality separated us

For a slight moment we had
Like a 4 minute music
it was too perfect to end
too beautiful to stop

The music stops
I press repeat
not just only  to remember you
but repeating a music
a music that was both loved
by me and you

If she's happy
I'll smile to that
for all the misery I weighed on her shoulder
it's time for her to let loose .

Love may or might be
a closest thing to reach heaven
yet here I am
wondering the widest road
to get her close once more .

I know she won't make you wipe her tears away
She's a woman that you dont need to worry
She'll make you think twice
before you even say sorry .

She's a keeper
yet I left her lonely
a broken heart for not choosing her
got me feeling blue
an ache I long subdue

A single smile , like the battery to any machine it brings the life out.
Everytime the world feeds hate , one joyful approach ain't a mistake
If you see a person walking by
,chin up and look at them in the eye
tell them a good day.
people are peculiar being different is a happy thing
share a laugh and smile
before everything  ends in a click

Mother why does your tone speak like shattered glass?
everytime I make a mistake you seem to make things last
Mother you have the most talent
to turn your voice into a broken recorder you often say things again and again
Mother I don't mean to insult you
but mother you are so focused on what your eyes see me
Mother Im trying my best
Isn't it so hard to see?
Your child is moving mountains yet you only see me moving rocks
I'm making a change while you're just making myself more into pressure
Mother can't you see
or am I the only one that can face
me?

The last time I saw you
the word "perfection" will never be enough to describe you
your light brown hair
the way you look
as if the moon shines its way back to you
words can never fit in my hand
as metaphors can never be enough to kiss you
and poetry cannot completely describe how I miss you
but I'll write this while im drunk
to let you know
drunl thoughts always leads me to you
always you

Heaven drop a little rain
For a dry heart cant take the pain
In times I pray for a little water
In God I ask for my mind to have a good weather #broken

It may sound false but I tell you it is always true
There's no true love in life if you're not true to you
The things we feel on how to act makes us vulnerable
making our glutton for love more critical

The metaphors we see,predicts us on what our lovers should be
So I ask you again.
Is it true love or just a love you wanted it to be?

How to love you
If you got someone and I got mine
If my heart does not understand the circumstances
of forgotten touch.
Changing clothes baby I can't change no more
Lingering on the me I used to be
when i'm with you.
How our eyes look desperately
looking for answers to the wrongs
How the promises we once kept
turned to a vow that we never fulfilled .

Won't you be the center monument of an exquisite scenery in a place called "my arms?"

Where even you will outshine the sunshine while we set a picnic near a sunset.

Would my rhymes be a crime if I disguise my metaphors as roses to let me get a grip of you?

Will this be enough?
Or do I still need to beg?

******* in heart shaped knots
I found you
You captured me
but I'd rather be broken honestly
than to be chained with lies

Let's get coffee at midnight
where we could savor the brew and get high while looking at the stars
I know coffee taste better at morning but It taste best when you're around

Let's drink at the morning !
When the sun shines so bright and the heat spreads the room
Where my throat burns but my heart burning for you.
I'll pass out early in a four cornered room full of your smiles
and speak sober of what we used to be.

I'll dream of you and what we used to do
Where coffee was on the morning
as your lips kissed the cup and I envy it.
Where we pass out drunk at midnight with the stars shining our night.

I woke up at midnight without you
with coffee at the table
and her in front of me .

Feeling drunk and I'm looking for something to feel right
But if love is what you want then I shall be the euphoria of your night
I bow my head with the burns of acid on my throat and with a heart made out of forgotten sticky notes and ripped love letters
For meeting me was not common in an area full of forgotten lovers
I wish to dance , but sadly only walking is my dance step.
I could use that to take you to your home's door step
I reach out once again to take this universe one more chance
So hi, i'm really drunk , do  you want to dance?

I held the cigarette more than your hand , it tasted sweeter than your kisses can
With Nicotine inside my lungs and liquor that stained my insides ,
Is there any other way to dry up my cries?
For endless days turn to hardest of nights,
My heart still yearns for a fight.
For countless of times I ran with ache on my chest
and a burden on my back trying to escape God's heaviest test.
Now I held the beer bottle more than you hand .
I moved on and drank it up
and now,Thankfully it's more empty than I am ..