Your friends become fake
As you stand on the edge of the world
You feel like you're destined to break


And I can't deny, I would hide in my room
And would cry from dealing with ya


I'm takin' my boxes, I've made a decision
I'm done with your dissin' ---
I tried to be nice, but you just wouldn't listen
I couldn't wait for the day
Just to give you my take on the **** that you did
Silly old *****, never be like you, never be so rude


Battle tested, learned my lesson to forgive, but not forget
I spilled my heart, opened my chest
Irrelevant, you are to me, but part to me, honestly
Thought I should address, life often makes this mess
I've come to give you more while everybody else gives you less


I'm just telling you this - that feelings may fade, but memories stick
Hope you're happy with him/her
I honestly hope you're happy with him/her
And he does all the things that I would and tried
But I couldn't - could keep going on, but I know that I shouldn't
I shouldn't waste any more time


When you're drunk off the wine, do you find me crossin' your mind?
We knew this would happen with time


I tried pickin' you up ---
But now life without you isn't where happy is found


Ripped out my heart, you abused and you used it
Love's not a label on Facebook


Well now let's just put it to rest I wish you the best
My friends don't respond to my texts


And you put no in no effort at all
Now you got me confused like, "What did I do?"
Used to tell you if I'll make it I'll bringin' all of you


And y'all walked out and left, that left no one to lose
I got nothing to lose
And nothing to gain not by tellin' the truth
Been barely believing in love
I still really don't really know if I do
But if someone was ever to make me believe
Then that someone is you, I promise it's you


You're someone I wish that I could always have
And to be blatant, girl, your name is -
Still can't say it
Never could say it, scared you would hate it


I'm patient, I'm waiting for you


Maybe one day we'll be, we'll wait and we'll see...

Kiss me hard before you go.

I don't understand why you decided
That leaving was better than staying;
Or why you think
That you don't need me anymore
But its fine dear,
I can only hope this is temporary as usual
And so when you come back,
I'll foolishly accept it
And try to pretend and hide the reality


10/28/19

I had a feeling it'd come to this,
Yet I didn't want to accept such fate
Though I'm still confused,
As to what the **** I even did
Laughing and joking with all perfectly fine
A week of absence
Then suddenly years of memories thrown out the ******* window

Tell me,
Did I mean so little this whole time?

Nevertheless I laugh,
For I believe and trust you'll respect what has happened in our lives together
Realizing we shouldn't part ways;
Likewise that the first fight your boyfriend and you get into,
Will bring you strolling on back
Or even if your boyfriend and you break-up,
Shall do the same

Until then,
I mind to wait...



10/29/19

I'm somewhere between heartache and agony,
Where your soul feels it's being crushed mercilessly
Yet, a raging anger
Burning its way through my body and melting my brain
Singing my insides;
Unable to think rationally

Trying to ignore you is like trying not to breathe
I can't help but look at your face,
And to tell myself this isn't real


10/30/19

You lose yourself trying to hold on to someone who doesn't care about losing you.

She whispered sweet little lies and I believed every word

I like people too much or not at all.

Girls like you
Deserve a love
That always
Feels like summer

Being in love
And not loved back
Is like lying on grass
And feeling needles

Your body, so crazy I bet your mind's amazing

Out of all the hearts you could break, why did it have to be mine?

Greasy hair,
No sleep,
Forgot her glasses,
That's me

Maybe I'm just a memory;
Maybe you're just giving up on me...

And in that moment it hit me

You don't care,
And you never did

You only came to me when you were bored;
I guess I was a second option to you