Alone in my bed
All these thoughts in my head
I don't want to be forgotten
By someone I can't forget

Every time I cry
I lose some of me
but if that's what it takes to forget
then let me be.
I'd rather you have my tomorrow
than give away today,
for today I can lay
in the depths of your sorrow,
the sorrow that summons me gray.
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mehek

They say that beauty lies
lies in thy eyes
but yours is the one I don't need to see
for to me its the blue of the skies,
the depth of the sea
the skies that reel me in
the depth that I can drown myself in.
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MEHEK

You're my perception,
a hallucination
and I'm a lewd subconscious
the subconscious in which lurks our infatuation.
You're like death
the death that lures me in,
the death that gives me hope.

I'm sorry I forget,
Forget us
The distance creates in me a fret
I try to hold on
But the absence seeps in
Disheveling our forgotten bond.
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Mehek

I'm a stormy landslide
And you're an earthquake
A disheveling tide
Tide that caresses me
While I subside
Subside to heathens
The heathens whose embers forever collide
Collide in the arms of your feigned stride.
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Mehek

I could reach out to touch you
I could lie down to feel you
But you wouldn't be there
Cause you're an illusion
That keeps me from being delusional
The brighter you shine
The faster you die
Maybe, all you're is just a lie.
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Mehek

Normalcy is surreal
So surreal that it almost feels real
Trying to absorb it all
We get stuck in this timeless pitfall
In the end just callousing
If we could've done something different from it all.
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Mehek

Bloodshot eyes
Pumped up veins
Clustering lung
And a mind that drains
Are all the symptoms of you
That I try to chain
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Mehek

Sometimes I wonder,
Why do we need each other to be happy
But then the emptiness shudder
And I think I get it.

Wet chlorine splashing
Veins slowly numbing
I feel the coldness seeping deep inside me
Filling up the empty spaces
I wish I could be like this
Drown to null out the faces
But I'm not
I'm a coward tied back by your traces.
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Mehek

Words are what I try to decipher
Permanence is what I try to leer
Love is what strikes me
But only emptiness is what abides with me

To me you're the ocean
The deep blue that lures me in
The mysterious unknown that keeps me afloat
I want to drown in you
But be in the shallow
I want to give myself to you
But keep my heart hollow.
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Mehek

Together we crumble
Under our own heaviness
surrounded by fumes
that make our souls tremble
cemented together
demented away
living in this toxicity
we perspire
nothing but love we require.

The emptiness did not swallow me today
it was normalcy in which I lay
life seemed possible today,
the black hole in me had no sway.
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Mehek

Burning in some memories
my heart is now a folded crease
with ripped chords and
blooded knees
I'm standing here.
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mehek

How long till I get home
till I free myself off this misogynistic dome
till I build myself a brand new Rome.
How long?
Till I fill this void
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Mehek

Your love was like a paper plane
so fragile and filled with pain
now you've got me feeling insane
and all I've got is a broken plane.
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Mehek

Running makes me obscure
like the lone wind on a shallow shore
limbs rumbling
heart clenching
I feel alive.
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Mehek

Fear stricken
Lungs ridden
Here we stand
Forever stuck in this shallow abyss
~ mehek

There's a shallow darkness over our minds
That paves the lights like sheer blinds
for the quench of love in our broken souls
There's a fear seeping deep inside our veins
That's often too scared to care
too scarred to share
Sometimes all we need is someone to pull us out from the past
And a little time
to fill up the spaces in our minds.

~mehek