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Skinny *** Poem (8/11/2014) Every kid wants to be something when they grow up. They picture perfect future families with puppies and kittens, but for me something was missing. I just wanted to be happy. Maybe my vision wasn't so great though, because 'happy' looked like it had 6 letters to me, and spelled 'skinny.' People used to throw bricks at my glass house. Shouting that I’d be skinny enough to slip through cracks. Cracks of life, cracks of struggle and strife, cracks of everything not nice. They'd tease me and say I looked like I smoked crack, when I'd lose weight, I'd gain it all back, in the form of their extra hate. But I didn't feel skinny on the inside. Although I had skinny bones and skinny skin, brittle enough to break within. Under the pain of that pang as their bricks shattered my glass house. Tell me, have you ever been afraid of words? Thoughts can be terrifying but once turned to spoken word, that in turn will turn to shouted word, that in turn will turn to incoherent nonsense. Which starts a sensation of ear drums ripping, being sawed in half immediately, no time spent ticking, by shrill shrieks and violent vocalizations. As if a sound wave could burst your body parts faster, no, more efficiently than a barrage of fists. Because it will know exactly where to strike, in fact, it will sneak through your solid surface, into every single crevice, knowing where the best place to hurt is. All it takes is a whisper strategically said in your ear, 'skinny.' 'skinny.' 'skinny.' I could feel it float away from me, carried off by the wind. As if a sound wave could carry an army of statements, piled up and armed with bayonets of every decibel level, ready and willing to siege each individual joint crack and muscle ache, being pushed under imposed stiffness. It will ooze out your pores, as if your fat face was an instrument amplifier. They thrived on the thrill listening to my shrill shriek. As I stepped on shards from my shattered glass house, And stared into the million fractures, each a broken reflection of the million me’s I could be. But none of them skinny... enough, skinny for everybody else, but never for me. I’d envision each day, blood drops staining my glass carpet. Each ounce of that luscious red, each day left my body filled with an ounce less of dread. An ounce less to fit into a size small shirt, and 30 inch waist Skinny jean. My body became my own private ****** machine. Every kid wants to be something when they grow up. I just wanted to be happy, I mean skinny.

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Aug 11, 2014

Aug 11, 2014 at 5:07 AM UTC

PseudoPoet

Skinny ***

Skinny *** Poem (8/11/2014) Every kid wants to be something when they grow up. They picture perfect future families with puppies and kittens, but for me something was missing. I just wanted to be happy. Maybe my vision wasn't so great though, because 'happy' looked like it had 6 letters to me, and spelled 'skinny.' People used to throw bricks at my glass house. Shouting that I’d be skinny enough to slip through cracks. Cracks of life, cracks of struggle and strife, cracks of everything not nice. They'd tease me and say I looked like I smoked crack, when I'd lose weight, I'd gain it all back, in the form of their extra hate. But I didn't feel skinny on the inside. Although I had skinny bones and skinny skin, brittle enough to break within. Under the pain of that pang as their bricks shattered my glass house. Tell me, have you ever been afraid of words? Thoughts can be terrifying but once turned to spoken word, that in turn will turn to shouted word, that in turn will turn to incoherent nonsense. Which starts a sensation of ear drums ripping, being sawed in half immediately, no time spent ticking, by shrill shrieks and violent vocalizations. As if a sound wave could burst your body parts faster, no, more efficiently than a barrage of fists. Because it will know exactly where to strike, in fact, it will sneak through your solid surface, into every single crevice, knowing where the best place to hurt is. All it takes is a whisper strategically said in your ear, 'skinny.' 'skinny.' 'skinny.' I could feel it float away from me, carried off by the wind. As if a sound wave could carry an army of statements, piled up and armed with bayonets of every decibel level, ready and willing to siege each individual joint crack and muscle ache, being pushed under imposed stiffness. It will ooze out your pores, as if your fat face was an instrument amplifier. They thrived on the thrill listening to my shrill shriek. As I stepped on shards from my shattered glass house, And stared into the million fractures, each a broken reflection of the million me’s I could be. But none of them skinny... enough, skinny for everybody else, but never for me. I’d envision each day, blood drops staining my glass carpet. Each ounce of that luscious red, each day left my body filled with an ounce less of dread. An ounce less to fit into a size small shirt, and 30 inch waist Skinny jean. My body became my own private ****** machine. Every kid wants to be something when they grow up. I just wanted to be happy, I mean skinny.