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"homeostasis" poems
Lovesick and you've got the cure. Got all these symptoms. You know what for. Don't be afraid of this contagious disease, Just take my requisition form. I've made room for you in my atria and ventricle. You're the capillary to my arteriole and venule. You're the amniotic fluid to the child in my heart. I find you even in the interstitial parts. Treatment like uours is like a centrifugAl force. So be the **** stasis my heart is longing for. Some homeostasis is what we need. We will make compromises to succeed. Lay me supine and you in prone. Sensory neurons fire Exocrine glands make to pressure Spark endocrine glands to hear you moan. Without your heart I'd be anemic. Withiutbyour arms I'd be half a paraplegic. Your kisses give me air, without them I'm cyatonic. You're the fibrin in my veins, to my pain an anesthetic. I'm ready for some long-term care and affection. Got a chronic condition that needs your attention. I k now I'm concluded, parts of me sclerosed. Don't wait post mortem to know that you're the most.
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Aug 1, 2014
Aug 1, 2014 at 3:51 PM UTC
a medical love letter
Standing before the masterpiece she lamented it's incompleteness, nothing ever gets completed in universe thank homeostasis for the illusion
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Mar 29, 2014
Mar 29, 2014 at 9:29 PM UTC
The illusion of completion(4&20)
The parasympathetic nervous system is responsible for regulations unconsciously transpiring within the organs and the glands of the body. Such as: urination, salivation, digestion, defecation, and lacrimation (noun. ‘the flow of tears’. Latin. from lacrimare (‘weep’) and lacrima (‘tear’). It’s why I cry even when I don’t want to. You are the parasympathetic nervous system. The (ortho-)sympathetic nervous system is responsible for the mobilization of the fight-or-flight response and constantly maintaining homeostasis within the body. It acts rapidly, enacting an attempt at stability and the necessary and critical ability to suddenly escape on pulsing legs or cling to survival through brandishing adrenaline-doused knuckles and dilated pupils. It’s why you live even when you don’t want to. I am the sympathetic nervous system. The parasympathetic and sympathetic nervous systems are two of three essential nervous systems which compose the autonomic nervous system (a part of the peripheral nervous system) that manages involuntary functions of the body. Such as: swallowing, perspiration, arousal, breathing, and heart rate (noun. ‘the speed of the heartbeat’. usually expressed in beats per minute. mine speeds up when I see you). Individually these two systems oppose but compliment each other like our hands do— pressed together and omitting equal force; veins meeting at the fingertips and throbbing at the wrists but running amuck on our respective digits otherwise. You are the invariable and unspoken reminder to breath, love, sweat, and live. I am the sudden snap of reality always aiming to save you but grudgingly willing to fight you and ready to leave. From the deepest lower half of my brainstem and from every nerve in my cycling body, I’m sorry. From all of my chromaffin cells and from the truest parts of submandibular ganglian, I am sorry.
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May 12, 2014
May 12, 2014 at 8:17 PM UTC
don't ask me what a submandibular ganglian is because i won't know (a biologically correct love letter)
The parasympathetic nervous system is responsible for regulations unconsciously transpiring within the organs and the glands of the body. Such as: urination, salivation, digestion, defecation, and lacrimation (noun. ‘the flow of tears’. Latin. from lacrimare (‘weep’) and lacrima (‘tear’). It’s why I cry even when I don’t want to. You are the parasympathetic nervous system. The (ortho-)sympathetic nervous system is responsible for the mobilization of the fight-or-flight response and constantly maintaining homeostasis within the body. It acts rapidly, enacting an attempt at stability and the necessary and critical ability to suddenly escape on pulsing legs or cling to survival through brandishing adrenaline-doused knuckles and dilated pupils. It’s why you live even when you don’t want to. I am the sympathetic nervous system. The parasympathetic and sympathetic nervous systems are two of three essential nervous systems which compose the autonomic nervous system (a part of the peripheral nervous system) that manages involuntary functions of the body. Such as: swallowing, perspiration, arousal, breathing, and heart rate (noun. ‘the speed of the heartbeat’. usually expressed in beats per minute. mine speeds up when I see you). Individually these two systems oppose but compliment each other like our hands do— pressed together and omitting equal force; veins meeting at the fingertips and throbbing at the wrists but running amuck on our respective digits otherwise. You are the invariable and unspoken reminder to breath, love, sweat, and live. I am the sudden snap of reality always aiming to save you but grudgingly willing to fight you and ready to leave. From the deepest lower half of my brainstem and from every nerve in my cycling body, I’m sorry. From all of my chromaffin cells and from the truest parts of submandibular ganglian, I am sorry.
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A populace filled with totalitarian tranquility The supposition that the world is in a harmonic homeostasis Blissful ignorance that leads to careless calamity Amid the uproar of the most populated of places Therein lies the seed of humanity’s deceptive destruction A solitary host housing a virulent virus Infectious disease that proceeds crisis and corruption Hope only stands with the powerful and pious Prognosis describes communicable cannibalism Rabid outbursts show signs of voracious violence The harrowing pandemic leads to ceaseless cataclysm Cities and towns suspended in systemic silence Habitations riddled with gratuitous gore Hope fades in the wake of the crimson carnage The pestilent hoard feeds to a glutton’s galore The Author of humanity publishes the final page The closing verse rains down a rapturous recompense The high cost of a dense population paid at humanity’s existential expense
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Oct 31, 2018
Oct 31, 2018 at 11:06 PM UTC
Affliction’s Assimilation
She chases homeostasis,    with assorted frantic faces. She is home when her heart races    as she desperate fills the spaces. Replaces missing graces with far places dreamed in cases; displaces taken paces, just retraces lost embraces. Baseless
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Jan 30, 2015
Jan 30, 2015 at 12:09 PM UTC
HOMEOSTASIS
living can be tiring and decisions regretful, so often we find ourselves marching to the beat of obligations’ drummer – unnecessary paths are safely untreaded doing only because the doing is necessary – to keep life at its homeostasis fixing but not tinkering – the return to normality is the goal just accepting these ************ days for their lukewarm livability
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Jul 12, 2010
Jul 12, 2010 at 11:22 PM UTC
these ************ days
My flesh crawls, and my blood flows As I attempt to turn to marble True stasis Homeostasis Oh to maintain beauty to be gawked by muses And to never have been alive, merely beings of retired faith But unsurprisingly, just as pointless I sigh… I may parish in mind and finally body But marble will diminish slowly ****** All while watched and attemptedly preserved I breathe. Homeostasis
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Apr 17, 2018
Apr 17, 2018 at 1:56 PM UTC
Homeostasis
You should never make fun of someone else’s beliefs Where you are right now has less than a few hundred million miles of surface area You can’t even walk on 70% of it 77 years of life on average if you’re a healthy American That’s only 4,015 weeks 28,105 days on this small planet floating in a large black mass You’ve already lived about one eighth of your life Time won’t stop for you Your days on this blue marble go by and there’s nothing you can do to stop it Believing there’s something more is nothing to scoff at Do you really believe that? they say Do you really believe there is a man in the sky? Well since you asked here’s my answer I believe there is meaning in every day I believe there is a point to waking up and doing good actions I believe there is a spirit in emotion And a metaphysical being who loves me endlessly Yes I believe in something more Now it’s my turn Do you really believe that? Do you really believe this whole thing is a scientific coincidence? A cosmic collision at a specific point An explosion that created all of this Perfect atoms with electrons that bond and share Creating perfect cells with all the right organelles A process of cellular respiration that coordinates as a perfect opposite to photosynthesis All to maintain homeostasis, the so-called “wonder process” that keeps us all alive Our bodies preserve an exact temperature, the ocean an exact pH and salinity and the ground an exact resistivity To keep us all alive Scientific coincidence We are all a coincidence? What about that shooting in Newtown More than one kid took a gun to his head and what for? Why was that so tragic? The shooter could have been conducting a scientific experiment What is the basis of right and wrong derived from? What are feelings derived from? Don’t tell me it’s science Don’t tell me that it’s science that makes you cry when you get dumped Science that breaks your heart when you lose that state championship Science that lightens your spirit when you go home to your beautiful family after a long hard day It’s not science It’s your soul A soul given to you with a light side and a dark side A soul with genius thoughts and horrid sins Genius thoughts you should act on Horrid sins you may commit anyway and He will love you He will forgive you Will your precious science forgive you? I wouldn’t force anything on anyone I wouldn’t question beliefs in science had my faith in God not first been tested I’m not asking you to believe, whether you do or not won’t affect our relations I just need to explain To each his own So don’t laugh at me
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Apr 16, 2013
Apr 16, 2013 at 10:12 PM UTC
Scientific Coincidence
You should never make fun of someone else’s beliefs Where you are right now has less than a few hundred million miles of surface area You can’t even walk on 70% of it 77 years of life on average if you’re a healthy American That’s only 4,015 weeks 28,105 days on this small planet floating in a large black mass You’ve already lived about one eighth of your life Time won’t stop for you Your days on this blue marble go by and there’s nothing you can do to stop it Believing there’s something more is nothing to scoff at Do you really believe that? they say Do you really believe there is a man in the sky? Well since you asked here’s my answer I believe there is meaning in every day I believe there is a point to waking up and doing good actions I believe there is a spirit in emotion And a metaphysical being who loves me endlessly Yes I believe in something more Now it’s my turn Do you really believe that? Do you really believe this whole thing is a scientific coincidence? A cosmic collision at a specific point An explosion that created all of this Perfect atoms with electrons that bond and share Creating perfect cells with all the right organelles A process of cellular respiration that coordinates as a perfect opposite to photosynthesis All to maintain homeostasis, the so-called “wonder process” that keeps us all alive Our bodies preserve an exact temperature, the ocean an exact pH and salinity and the ground an exact resistivity To keep us all alive Scientific coincidence We are all a coincidence? What about that shooting in Newtown More than one kid took a gun to his head and what for? Why was that so tragic? The shooter could have been conducting a scientific experiment What is the basis of right and wrong derived from? What are feelings derived from? Don’t tell me it’s science Don’t tell me that it’s science that makes you cry when you get dumped Science that breaks your heart when you lose that state championship Science that lightens your spirit when you go home to your beautiful family after a long hard day It’s not science It’s your soul A soul given to you with a light side and a dark side A soul with genius thoughts and horrid sins Genius thoughts you should act on Horrid sins you may commit anyway and He will love you He will forgive you Will your precious science forgive you? I wouldn’t force anything on anyone I wouldn’t question beliefs in science had my faith in God not first been tested I’m not asking you to believe, whether you do or not won’t affect our relations I just need to explain To each his own So don’t laugh at me
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There's no health benefits to fasting: still. Your body responds in some paleo-way; calcium leaks from bones to balance lost ones escaping during the *** Always this homeostasis while peeing. A setpoint. There are those who fast because that is what's left to them, a prisoner in cell, on the street, sitting in cubicles feeling rightness with the same wrong skin as e's fellow mate. E does the daily pet cheats too, until e's tired of it all, until e wishes that there WAS a great fallen Leader to blame, or a giant green Tank to stand against rice's grain while holding defiant plastic shopping bags. When even violence has been taken away: still. We believe in peaceful God and fast, fast or set ourselves on fire because the concrete doesn't burn.
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Feb 26, 2013
Feb 26, 2013 at 9:18 AM UTC
Fasting
allocation of supreme alliteration illustrates perpetual contemplation and concentration that dictates a maligned mastication of federal incarceration of elongated complementary probation leaving you cuffed and based on baseless accusations conducted in aboriginal abbreviations masked task force concluding a course of brevity conducted in coordination then coordinating and copulating condemnation for a homeostasis of thought bought scolded eroded and shot inefficacy perpetrating cultural holocaust irrelevance somersaults galactic static of mathematical bombastic smack addict glued shut in a craft attic floral resurrection gartered section of ****** selection she moves fluid through unaltered perfection of cosmic bypass past the point of extemporaneous infinitude reciprocating fortitude of sinews congregating fabricating visuals of vitality soldering axonal membranes on the cerebellum and cortex simulation of sensual vortex demented fusion more blessed I am that which stands to understand the incomprehensible unconsidered options of racial conflicts the screaming round of unaltered copper fiber severing life from the living only now can we debunk the years
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Apr 17, 2013
Apr 17, 2013 at 9:01 AM UTC
White Demon
Do you like science? Cause I've got my ion you we're a dance of subatomic particles, you get my cardiovascular system worked up "Nerd," you declare with a smile sweeter than C6H12O6 I glare at you and giggle louder than 194 decibels, we break all the laws I'm so attracted to you, scientists will have to make a 5th fundamental force we fit together like sticky ends of DNA I fall in love with you every time I see you, faster than my DNA replicates being in your arms feels like homeostasis, we'll last longer than thorium I think I'm kinda maybe trying to say every time light reflects off of you and onto my retina the sudden protracted cardiac arrhythmia I get tells me that gulp Iloveyou
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Aug 10, 2016
Aug 10, 2016 at 11:01 AM UTC
We have a little bit of Chemistry, let's try Biology
fragile earth tarnish its pulp in my molars, adult and a sheen that lays paper kites flying inside gum nerves & the brass touches porcelain you give me cavities, my love our life is so sweet i feel your words before they are said the homeostasis as you speak strength.
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Nov 10, 2012
Nov 10, 2012 at 8:16 PM UTC
cavities
Head a hostile environment again Emotion overthrows intelligence Fragile skull accepts another beating and indecency becomes preference Absorbing black into gray matter Meticulous infiltration; Makes death a desire and living a fear Friendly fire Mind battles disease, disease obliterates mind to violence collided with sharpened corners of myself ****** mess, wrong message Swallowing hostile heavy medications, contain my elation so that overjoy doesn't morph into mania, or joy Mass of electrons now inside find nothing positive; thought paralyzed Deviating cells that scare themselves from the darkened sanguinary state. wide eyed faces searching for a homeostasis Far from stable since demon's rule Constant epiphanies with no execution turn to facts filed in brain catalogs Fully aware solutions are there, but the drawers are glued shut ~kb
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Jan 29, 2019
Jan 29, 2019 at 12:43 AM UTC
Hope for Homeostasis
My existence hunches on the surge of homeostasis, Peeking through botany and paralyzed life. These skeletons are coated with flesh, fluid, and cells, An integument the size of my being in spitting distance, Admitting natural flaws with debeaked drains and Demonstrating actual emotion with rearranging face. Narrow wings without sails are flapping noodled, Desperately escaping living reality into paradise In the black eyes which can travel with no hesitation, Development always unfulfilled at clipped appendages. An ordinary watcher devours the ghost souls in limbo; Gravity allows a wallflower to soar away through diverse emptiness.
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Oct 27, 2014
Oct 27, 2014 at 2:43 AM UTC
Winged
My hands move and the trees move If you take a moment to reflect the trees existence in your own, you receive a reflection of your existence from the tree. So it goes, this is Nascor Latin for to be born And isn't this all we have done? All the narratives fall under Nature, the future participle of Nascor. The key is to play in time. You are being asked to sing, dance, breathe, eat, and drink. These are ways to stay in homeostasis with the environment in rhythm to the music But guess what? We can know what it's like to be others. We do it to people we know We can do it to collectives and worlds of thoughts but also to animals and plants and whatever we look at we can try to put ourselves in its shoes. You simply gesture in the manner corresponding to its behavior to receive another gift. The dualistic forms dance under the grace of everything and nothing in their shadows. It's a spiritual practice to speak to anything.
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Sep 6, 2013
Sep 6, 2013 at 3:09 AM UTC
Nascor
I asked you not to phone I asked you to forget grievous to hear a voice so beset by  lamenting  longing  for me The pills don't really help much melancholy as intransigent  as the scorching sun They call it therapy resistant a homeostasis of neurotic persistence I wish I could be like you I really do so normal, so gay, so ebullient so eager, so  joyful, so light, so God-awful ready to meet each new day I can only harm myself dear that's why we're apart I asked you not to phone I asked you to forget the suffering of seriousness realism of immutable truths the pinching pliers of  precision pathos of colliding decisions I asked you to forget
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Apr 27, 2013
Apr 27, 2013 at 10:30 PM UTC
forget
Energy radiates and traces my body with celestial tones I am more alive than I’ve ever been when surrendering to awe and wonder the same way my younger self fearlessly did something about that glimmer hasn’t left yet, may never leave memories still have flavors to me mornings with a lake of flakes in my bowl or years and years later when a fried hangover cure restores me each month and its esculent flashbacks are a part of me a cell in the skin a beaten feather in the wing something about the glimmer hasn’t left yet the Earth is still new and discoveries never expire: new scenery new explorations new chronicles in the cinema new kindred spirits new waves of audio new therapeutic solitudes all balancing out the new captivities new mistakes new mediocrity new unhealthy solitudes and more until the body is a home base of homeostasis commensalism at its finest but something about the glimmer hasn’t left yet, may never leave I outgrew shadows who doubted their expiration dates I don’t rubricate the sky in a rage anymore don’t let the heartbreak pause a pulse anymore don’t let misanthropy obscure who I see anymore don’t let uncertainty’s web catch me in a paralysis anymore or at least I try something tells me I’ll never “age out” of my hunger to live fully I know deep down you're similar your craving will not fade into cinders oh what a feelin! To be trippin on nostalgia.
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Dec 29, 2022
Dec 29, 2022 at 2:17 PM UTC
Nostalgia Trips
No homeostasis today. Teetering this sickness in a- leery (putrid) way. Disgruntled. When will this darkness fade? Ill be seeing you.
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Jun 22, 2010
Jun 22, 2010 at 7:18 PM UTC
Unstable Memories
This is a Pilut, it’s very neat. It cannot walk, it has no feet. Its roots grow up, its flowers down, Tucked safe inside the dirt and ground. How does it this? How does it that? Starting with how it gets energy from fat. A rabbit hops by, staring in wonder, Why the roots are above, As opposed to down under. Suddenly the rabbit will feel great dismay, As the roots latch on and take it away. Down to the flowers, the roots will bring bunny, For the gruesome feast that is not at all funny. It will travel through the stem To a very tight trap. Bunnies fat is consumed, And that is just that. Another question is how does it grow? A Pilut’s growth rate is in fact very slow. It waits a whole year For the dust storm to near And then grabs on small particles, That stretch it a mere. One inch or two Will just have to do ‘Cause oversized Piluts, there are just a few. An important question that’s been asked before, Is how these strange creatures tend to make more? Piluts reproduce not very many others, Being hermaphrodites means they’re both dads and mothers. When the wind blows, two roots much touch. There is slight chance of this, so time it takes much. That one simple “kiss” for Piluts is renowned, Fertilizing an egg and setting it down Beside its parent, deep underground. That egg then grows off of minerals from the dirt ‘Til it’s big enough to eat animals, for it’s no longer a squirt. It’s made of hundreds of cells, maybe even more; Organized in a way that no one’s seen before. It digests in the stem, Breathes through the leaves, A remarkable system You have to see to believe. It hibernates in winter, As response to the cold. Maintains homeostasis With extra energy it holds. A Pilut is an organism indeed. It has all signs of life, as you can read.
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Jan 14, 2013
Jan 14, 2013 at 8:31 AM UTC
Pilut
This is a Pilut, it’s very neat. It cannot walk, it has no feet. Its roots grow up, its flowers down, Tucked safe inside the dirt and ground. How does it this? How does it that? Starting with how it gets energy from fat. A rabbit hops by, staring in wonder, Why the roots are above, As opposed to down under. Suddenly the rabbit will feel great dismay, As the roots latch on and take it away. Down to the flowers, the roots will bring bunny, For the gruesome feast that is not at all funny. It will travel through the stem To a very tight trap. Bunnies fat is consumed, And that is just that. Another question is how does it grow? A Pilut’s growth rate is in fact very slow. It waits a whole year For the dust storm to near And then grabs on small particles, That stretch it a mere. One inch or two Will just have to do ‘Cause oversized Piluts, there are just a few. An important question that’s been asked before, Is how these strange creatures tend to make more? Piluts reproduce not very many others, Being hermaphrodites means they’re both dads and mothers. When the wind blows, two roots much touch. There is slight chance of this, so time it takes much. That one simple “kiss” for Piluts is renowned, Fertilizing an egg and setting it down Beside its parent, deep underground. That egg then grows off of minerals from the dirt ‘Til it’s big enough to eat animals, for it’s no longer a squirt. It’s made of hundreds of cells, maybe even more; Organized in a way that no one’s seen before. It digests in the stem, Breathes through the leaves, A remarkable system You have to see to believe. It hibernates in winter, As response to the cold. Maintains homeostasis With extra energy it holds. A Pilut is an organism indeed. It has all signs of life, as you can read.
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too much of anything can disturb your inner balance, acidifying your stomach lining and destroying you from the inside out- control what you put in your mind and contain it so that your heart will not have an overload or an overflow- every single cause of death is the end of homeostasis.
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Sep 23, 2015
Sep 23, 2015 at 10:02 AM UTC
mars in libra
When you grow up: You realize that "love" isn't mommy and daddy kissing each other before work Because they don't anymore. And you fell in love but the boy spit on your face then slid down the slide. You realize that a heart isn't just a Valentine's Day card, but it pumps blood through your body. And it keeps you alive, but lots of people die because their hearts break. And that boy who pulls on your "heart strings" isn't pulling on anything at all. Because "heart strings" are found in heart cavities and he only wanted you to put out. You learn the concentration gradient from lungs to blood is the reason you can breathe in oxygen and breathe out carbon dioxide. The pretty tan you get from the sun is actually radiation poisoning your skin cells. The contents of your abdomen, and the functions of your organs. The pH of your blood and the buffers that help maintain homeostasis. Welcome to the world.
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May 20, 2013
May 20, 2013 at 8:53 PM UTC
Transitions
Sometime, I'll have a dream A dream in which I'll be engaging in *** With the loose folds of skin and cellulite Around Maya Angelou's neck I use the word engage b/c I don't think It'll be my idea or if I would even want to be a completely willing Participant You know how dreams go: You're able to detach So anyway, all the while she'll be reciting her verse In that overly inflected, pretentious and annoying grandmotherly Huxtable Tone she uses and Right as the nauseousness becomes unbearable And I fear I won't be able to keep the contents of my Stomach from forcing itself out and onto her face She starts to devour the entirety of my lower abdomen The sickness I was feeling quickly dissipating and the Realization that she's no longer speaking and merely Gnashing, ripping and eating my viscera I return to an almost homeostasis A comfortableness Copyright © 2009-Present
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May 14, 2011
May 14, 2011 at 8:39 PM UTC
Aghast at Angelou
It was very kind of you to ask how I am holding up all things considered... The short answer is that I am okay. I do not hunger nor do I have thirst... I am warm...and other than the usual aches and discomfort that we all experience I am not in pain... I have been okay for a very long time it's kind of my way of knowing that I am in that sweet spot of homeostasis I think that's why I ended up leaving because I couldn't remember being anything other than simply okay... I don't think I want to be okay... You remember those adventures we used to have together and you'd always have these crazy ideas that you just needed to hash out... And I was always there... In part because I wanted to make sure you were okay but I think a much bigger part of me enjoyed those days so much more because while you were out there living life and occasionally getting hurt but loving every minute of it... And I felt like part of it... We kind of grew apart... The adventures stopped... And I guess we grew up a little somewhere in that time as well... Became our own people... And that was necessary... And the process went okay... And I turned out okay... I made new friends and they became happy and I tried to be happy and I started dating again and I thought I had it figured out this time but I was just okay with a smile. and then I was looking at her smile and she was happy because of my smile but I wasn't happy... I was just okay... But she was happy as far as I could tell and I wanted to protect her happiness because I wanted her to be happy so I kept smiling... and I felt like a liar every time but the truth seemed so wrong... all that mattered was that she was happy I wanted nothing more than for her to remain happy... And then I didn't... And then I left... So yeah the short answer is that I'm okay...but that ain't the whole story...
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Feb 28, 2013
Feb 28, 2013 at 2:48 AM UTC
I am okay...
It was very kind of you to ask how I am holding up all things considered... The short answer is that I am okay. I do not hunger nor do I have thirst... I am warm...and other than the usual aches and discomfort that we all experience I am not in pain... I have been okay for a very long time it's kind of my way of knowing that I am in that sweet spot of homeostasis I think that's why I ended up leaving because I couldn't remember being anything other than simply okay... I don't think I want to be okay... You remember those adventures we used to have together and you'd always have these crazy ideas that you just needed to hash out... And I was always there... In part because I wanted to make sure you were okay but I think a much bigger part of me enjoyed those days so much more because while you were out there living life and occasionally getting hurt but loving every minute of it... And I felt like part of it... We kind of grew apart... The adventures stopped... And I guess we grew up a little somewhere in that time as well... Became our own people... And that was necessary... And the process went okay... And I turned out okay... I made new friends and they became happy and I tried to be happy and I started dating again and I thought I had it figured out this time but I was just okay with a smile. and then I was looking at her smile and she was happy because of my smile but I wasn't happy... I was just okay... But she was happy as far as I could tell and I wanted to protect her happiness because I wanted her to be happy so I kept smiling... and I felt like a liar every time but the truth seemed so wrong... all that mattered was that she was happy I wanted nothing more than for her to remain happy... And then I didn't... And then I left... So yeah the short answer is that I'm okay...but that ain't the whole story...
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and just like the cracks in the pavement that allow a city to breathe, you are only more human whilst pieces of you may break away and it’s hardest to breathe when you’re sitting on your shower floor as if somehow the water will wash away this sadness, as if it’s temporary, this tattoo on your heart will not wash away with warm water or be scratched away with your uncut fingernails and by now i know this kind of thing never works out but i can try to rid of this hurt the way you’ve numbed yourself to feelings, creating them yourself because control is our only subconscious need (or is it to be loved?) i’ll never know the answer until i am desperately loved by someone with a soul as breathtaking as yours. these terrifying feelings have never felt more at home buried so deep inside of my chest and though it hurts, i am now starting to develop a tolerance to the lack of emotional homeostasis. if there is anything I have learned by now it is to take hold of the moment, save the tissues for messes you’ve made (not the clutter created by boys who do not know how to pick up after themselves), nobody is worth the tears and nobody can reassure you of your own worth. just how you think you have reached your worst laying in a puddle of your own vulnerability, when you are most divine in a state of this man-made susceptibility to pain and joy and every feeling you’ve ever experience most likely created in your own mind and they won’t leave until you consciously decide to leave it to the universe, she is your mother and knows best, no sooner & no later.
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Jun 19, 2014
Jun 19, 2014 at 1:27 PM UTC
Unloved
and just like the cracks in the pavement that allow a city to breathe, you are only more human whilst pieces of you may break away and it’s hardest to breathe when you’re sitting on your shower floor as if somehow the water will wash away this sadness, as if it’s temporary, this tattoo on your heart will not wash away with warm water or be scratched away with your uncut fingernails and by now i know this kind of thing never works out but i can try to rid of this hurt the way you’ve numbed yourself to feelings, creating them yourself because control is our only subconscious need (or is it to be loved?) i’ll never know the answer until i am desperately loved by someone with a soul as breathtaking as yours. these terrifying feelings have never felt more at home buried so deep inside of my chest and though it hurts, i am now starting to develop a tolerance to the lack of emotional homeostasis. if there is anything I have learned by now it is to take hold of the moment, save the tissues for messes you’ve made (not the clutter created by boys who do not know how to pick up after themselves), nobody is worth the tears and nobody can reassure you of your own worth. just how you think you have reached your worst laying in a puddle of your own vulnerability, when you are most divine in a state of this man-made susceptibility to pain and joy and every feeling you’ve ever experience most likely created in your own mind and they won’t leave until you consciously decide to leave it to the universe, she is your mother and knows best, no sooner & no later.
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I lay dormant Subdued but in whole I manage my being in stasis At peace, I am cradled by the light The long and gentle fingers nestled into the ether A lengthy slumber is ahead of me What comfort may it bring?
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May 31, 2021
May 31, 2021 at 12:49 AM UTC
Homeostasis