Why’d you get locked up then lad?
Oh. I’m locked up?
I know you. You won’t escape lad
Escape from where?
(Jackie Wilson at her majesties pleasure 1884, West Denton, Newcastle)
The sweat rolled off Dominic’s nose.
Its ‘movement’
movement
movement
Uniting.
Meditation takes a person out
from themselves
so far out, without any need
for any additional charge, toll, or need, that when you come back,
even if it’s within
the same body,
you feel
and the glow comes back
on-coming traffic smiles, dead less grace
the worst, and 7am
chess
without a game.
a drool.
an intricacy within
mirage.
hope in the sorry soft gas explosions
and death was heavy enough to fly and give
But not in the normal way
one second, and even joy spills
and the cabbies have begun to scream and break down at each other
even though it’s not a full moon
too many people squashed on a tight balcony
drinking us all away
too many hands
not dancing
it all away
Slugs emigrate across concrete when the soil is wet.
When you wonder why they’ve left.
Its pouring
and you think you recognise a name scrawled in the wet trail.
Single, intimate, observations.
And reasons for the evening to be near.
It will be worth it! – I’LL SEE YOU! –
And now we are allowed to be glorious without price.
And now it’s sad as hell.
And the trees know that.
But the squirrels never do.
And now those words don’t matter.
And now we are allowed.
And now we go.
And the laminate floor
has the weight of a cross.
And the thing is,
you know
(It’s all softly bombed)
Not in a horrific
or knowable
way.
But in God’s good loving
loving
loving
******* for ya.
We’re finally rubbed out.
Crucifying.
And uncrucifying.
Eyes are useless here.
Blackness first.
THEN that soft
‘soft’
dripping.
easy blackness.
Meditating, sat middle
the pentagram of a small flat.
blue white board marker, on ‘easy wipe’ wood flooring.
And if I wake, I can wipe all the lines out.
SO, it went the same.
blue colour of cityscape coming-black light flashing always
across the distance from balcony
a beautiful stillness.
Waves first. Sea. The complete sea. Swimming.
ego. Ego swimming. Ego going down. Hello! And ha!
And no more jokes.
And isolation.
And no more months.
But there were gushes.
Gushes of experiences in, and outside, with individual breathes
and the proximity of love, coming closer
like a germinating hand
guiding you down
into the oceans private concert
Not too close to the expensive parts, or the bad parts,
or anywhere too pristine.
Christ, that’d be
a joke. It’d be funny
and then the surgeon would come and operate
on you;
lifting you out whilst you’re asleep
And it would go like this:
Cancer: Hey! What’s going on?!
Get off! I’ve paid my
rent and don’t wet the bed
anymore,
Surgeon: Don’t care.
Come here...
Oh for **** sake you’re making my day long.
I don’t get paid
for this.
Cancer: Oh yes you do handsome.
Surgeon: Oh yeah!
rest on the long side of your bed.
‘What’d you do at the weekend?’
Where’d you go?
...
banter broke down into spider web
substance
before fading completely, as thoughts begin
to disappear and fly down
into heavier states
from outside you saw a man still dressed
in formal office attire
tie hanging undone around a white shirt, shoes kicked off
beside strange markings on a polished floor. From in,
the understandings
are quite different
fly gently, like a loved one retiring from life
as the single light bulb watches from your ceiling
tensing one last second time in hesitation
then blowing you out with a blink.
looked into the well where life is buried
and reached down
arms lengthened like dusty pieces of ham down a hole
touching the foetus as it crawls back up,
and up through the highway lines of his veins,
like a rabbit hunts wolves,
like the peach reacts to your bite.
We smoked and ate apple pie as the autumn tattooed
We snapped small pieces off
then ate the mites.
And then when the well filled we made our arms lassoes;
that churned the grain,
turning the quietness into storm,
and back to parts of spring.
You hesitate, touching the ape
like a clown who’s just tossed his life into the air, and juggles it,
like dead poems and hot boiling yeast.
you looked further into the well and found the figments of the ‘Narwhal’
the sea creature with a prominent horn
that shoots from its head-
Early sea farers
used to think the horned mammal was a type of
magical being
it birthed the idea of unicorns
you let the water well mix and join
as we drink coffee today, and the night is less silent
than that of star of apples and gloom
each tarantula that scatters in the red stars of sand is welcome;
and the honey man and honey woman flicker,
through numberless bank checks and bills as knocks arrive
knock after knock after knock
into long vibrational hum
All that remains
is the bursting punch
near the bottom
of oceanic well
As it tightens your grip into the follicle hibernating bears
that speak eloquent words whilst we eat;
the deep groan of munching hands
in the well helps our arms
pull up the glowing carcass as it turns back
into us within our hands, it speaks easily and slow, telling each
servant surrounding
the hole that they should:
‘Dance casually, dance inside my red eyes’.
Some take advantage of melody, as a trust that funds satellites of globe,
as if no one ever dreamed or broke the yoke of more pleasurable things;
one of your arms
is like the way that a crab crawls past over my nose and into our future home
another asks that you aren’t so violent in February
and that the month is a counting mouth that multiplies zero
beside the arms reaching for a pyramidic beauty
under the ***** shell; aborting its children like blood in the snow,
without humanistic style, more in tune with time
than the army of water lifting your throat up,
spits- that poke at us with antlers, undeterred, no legged, mating in the sand
After a while, otherness takes over, and will comes.
And emotion is long shattered,
easing out,
playing skin game and dissipating need, where all will and human comes back
it takes a while.
And our gender has nothing to do with just lust
We are the almost completely blind, as the cliché remembers
Gender is
the lack of gender and the freedom of paradigm
whilst hands are upon love,
And more night(s) turn within us.
dream like bright black stars.
Weekends. Week. Work. Corporations dancing like butterflies on fire. Gone.
Gone
Gone
Gorgeous
nothingness
apart from its face and voice
speaking
“Heyy, how’s it going?”
Projection
No
“Yes... Lover,
Yes yes yes!”
“No.”
skull now linked to the lips of a home
“Correct, correct, correct...” The intangible
darkness, over and over
a rushing
and uncontrollable
heaviness of fire.
foxes in back alleys salute
the black sky with a mongrel scream
and all the animals of the world are linked for a split minutiae,
recognising and respecting the breach;
“You’re hurting... mmmmuh-” Dominic tried to say
in the onslaught.
Converging planes that came from the lips of the spirit crowning his mind.
“You’re not Juuu, Juh Juah Juh.”
He tried to say for the next few hours, as the sun spread down
on the city
and felt a deep
empathy for another one
of its children
attempting to free
itself.
“No.”
how right you are...” The spirit said
as Dominic’s head slumped from exertion.
“You see...” The spirit said seeping into his bones
and killing him;
paramedics zip
the bag
over his face.
“You see...” The voice says again
knocking the lights off
and flinging you
by your throat
Each one letting you
go
landscape sick in multiple elements of confused colour,
parts of buildings, art: growing up in the horizon, new structures
made by thoughts, old flowers inside limbs,
smoking.
“What...” The spirit
said.
sigh at the strange place,
without looking around.
blossoms of mind and traffic
circulated
characters
on a schizophrenic island
two flies ****** invisibly
and grow from the unseen smallness of their passion
and become an instant world
in the Red Mountains.
“What’s up?” Dominic say gloomily,
laugh a little.
“You’re meant to be screaming...
And yes...
Yet another ******* month
without hitting
target.” The nightmare says,
No incorporeal speech
no anger
anymore.
She might have been about twenty five,
dressed in a shade of grey
change
that covered her genitalia
and ******* from ankle up to neck
get used to it all.
raise your chin to the sky and try to blink away from the constant lick
of the beast growing
from yourself, or lover, or day
And grow the chimera
throughout numberless
stages
like a beautiful clay
that cant decide
Finally the meer-hawk looked like a Dickensian peasant
with an intricate smile, dressed all in jail rags
stinking of sweat, *****, and time.
And then we change
again
And her black hair scooped down
into the blackening sand
where the grains accepted her slim weight
through out itself
She was tired and fed up of the back-world today
She left her contract looking around upstairs
and accepted the hit
on her targets
A transference of types in the quaking room.
A quick drop of laughter flys
into the lil bear or a lot; and a snap and a lot of hunger
for us all...
The master of the basement was mostly machine.
The front of his face that we run towards
is a centred and hovering engine
at the far end of the shadow
room
and the stench
from its thought.
a farce and enough
to turn you away
from a really good
steak.
no walls
no matter
a car mouth approaches naked.
dead cats know this, as they lay purring still, licking their paws still,
misery knows,forgetting, and the coldness of the street gave birth
to numberless seedy neon lights
flickering away from the wall less walls
once more
and you know, we
all
have a prayer
that comes
out
here was
mine:
might as well let you know
whilst we’re at it
that this one comes
out, in some accent~~
but is how it’s meant to go
“...as if to prae
inside the rain
as if to move
the moon with small hands
ah cross the yard
and lucky sky
I live in that playce me lass
with ya quiet weiyht
upon me own
of ya li’l voice
that taeks it away
Ya-renuf ta bring
al me Gods back
an pin ‘em te tha walls
Enough ta mayke
al’ me angels breathe
heavy
for even an ounce
of ya grace
Ave begged at tha hands
of jesus Christ
for that tayste
of yeh
me sweet bonny lass
an ya the only lass
‘ahve evva met
that mayde us feel
like ah cuhd heal
without bein less
An I’m lookin at ya now
with al me luv
an ah divent need
ney where to ruhn
as am ah freed dog
and in ya charms
An ‘av ney-where left to luk
but I’ll kip alreet the neet pet
cos ya by me side
an in me arms.”
But now it is rather late my friend, and
we all know how long old accents last,
mine, I cherish, I will say it when cursing
and gone
when lit among friends and when
impressing
new jobs, that I shall leave, such is
my
way
and
i may
see you
again.
