You make me feel
like a monster
for  years

I did believe you
But you don't
even know me

And you
Don't
own me

Why did I allow you
to crush me over
and over again

When will I
learn to stand
for myself
finally?

I don't forget your face
and I tried hard
over and over again
Do you forget mine?

If you meet me
in my current state
would you recognize me
even with grey hair?

Will you recognize me
On the other side
Will you still feel
how my heart race

One glimpse
of the corner
of the stranger's eyes

And you sneaked
back in
my old friend
self- hate

Will
you
ever
leave?

You were teaching me
for years
how worthless
I were

Now I walk around the world
learning
my own lessons
of love
and forgiveness

You paint
my soul
all the colours
of the rainbow

I miss the times,
when you made
me laugh

I miss the times
when you made
my heart beat fast

I miss the times
when you craved
the touch of mine

Those times we
left behind
Please lets figure out
what we are now

I came to you
Over and over

For the pain
That became my air

But for the upcoming year
I promise myself

Never again

I invited you to come
I didn't realize

that behind your back
your sister pain
slipped in as well

You left
and She stays

Every piece of you
slipped through
my fingers

In these days
I am just the waste of space
In the universe

Wake me up
when it' s all over

When our distance
doesn't matter

Put your hand
on my head

and wake me up
my darling

when it all ends

You never saw
the way I love you

It took me years
of self-hatred

to understand
I was not enough

So I choose myself
and leave

Under the facemask
I hid my life
my sorrow,
my pain

my love
for you
I save
for another time


But for this
moment
I let my tears
to fall

Where did you go,
my love?
Where have I lost you
on my way?

I no longer know
where your mind
is wandering,
Few inches, galaxies away

Where do you
rest your head?
When our world
fells apart

Will you come back?
Will you reach out?
Tommorow, now or
hardly ever

All I have
is the air
in my lungs
as I gasp

But if you need
You have it
just reach
your hand

Cause
without you
I will not
breathe

I want to wake up
Fifty years
From now
when time will
be right

But for tonight
let me close my eyes
and put my head
On your chest
To rest for a second

For little moment
That only could
be us

The real poets
Are capable
bleed through
their verses


The only thing
I' ve ever wanted
was caress your heart
With my simple words

One day you will
not remember my name

The touch of my hand
the rhytm of my heart

One day I disappear
from your life

From everybody's life
Even my own

Before I become
Somebody else' s
Regret

I' ll write
the new story
For myself

When the distance matters
The air might be the enemy
The neighbour a threat

My heart beats
imprisoned
between the four walls

I reached for
the verses of you
my only Company

I want to reach
Circle your lips
With my fingertips

Kiss gently
The curtains of your eyes
that guard your sleep

I'll put my hand
on your chest
Just for the second

to ease your pain
I' ll hide all your sorrow
In my palm

There it was
the lonely wooden heart
the last one
in the souvenir shop

With huge wound
right in the middle
Nobody wanted to buy
the broken heart

I have it
put it on my sleeve
it suits me well
I think

So here I am
As I Always do

Breathing the same air
Walking the same steets

You cannot see me
But I never stop hoping
That you can
Feel

I never regret
Choosing you
To make
My heart
Smile

Maybe
Loving you
From the distance
Is my only
Life
Purpose

I built a home
of our kiss

home where
you can rest

nurtured
by my lips

I want to paint you
with my lips

Mark your skin
with my colourful love

To make you
A masterpiece

My love for you
make me a poet
for your eyes only

to stroll
through the lines
to reach out
and caress my heart

Your unrequited lust
sentenced me
for life
in solitude

Will I ever
set my soul
free?

The little tear
Crossing my face
Unwelcomed Intruder
That faded Away

Was that something
You say
The look of you
Your smell?

Close enough
To reach, touch
Feel
Still far away

But you cannot
Caress the cigarette
Without
Getting burned

In the darkest hour
Just before the dawn
My mind goes wild
Flies far away
Above the sky

Where my fingertips tickle
The little hairs on your neck
Where your smiling eyes
Read me between the lines

In that special place
Over the clouds
You wait for me

I believe

The same way I wait here
For you
To arrive

You shut the door
And left me in the dark
Like little baby doll
With broken legs and arm

Kept in the secret box
Close to your heart
For other game
Or to repair?

You shut the door
reach the fingertips
taking all
as you always do

Here I stand
trembling
waiting
as I always do

and always will

I live in the prison of my fears
waiting for you to release
frightened
when  you arrive
there´ll be nothing of me
left
to give

Setting  you free
letting you go
sentenced me
to life
without
sunlight

Unseen in the dark
I stole the piece
from the sky
that was never mine

Hidden ashamed
I must wait
for the price
I´ll have to pay

The night you left
my heart broke
into million pieces

spread underneath your soles
to make you stop
just for the moment


for the split second
so I could caress your face
for the very last time

On the cliff
she´s standing

waiting

for the one
who never arrives

longing

grieving

for love
that never
comes

In the hour
between sheep and wolf
I wait

with your words
burned  
in my skin  

and my soul
longing
for more

Put  your hands
on my body
before dawn
arrives

I know it will hurt
make me scar

but my heart
only beats
under your
palm

It´s hard to say sorry
to the rainbow eyes
that meant a whole world
to me once

and still does

sorry for my mistakes
for misunderstandings

it´s hard to say sorry
to these beautiful eyes
when I am supposed to say

good bye

You reached for the stars
and put them in my eyes

I keep them locked
behind my eyelids


fearful

that you´ll change
your mind

You told me
I am the butterfly

Then you ripped off
My wings

Will I ever
Fly again?

The night you left
I burned to ashes

I am on the run
from my broken heart

Healing my burns
Collecting my wounds

Until the day
You set me on fire again

I disappear in my life
never seen
never heard

trying so hard
to find  a map
to set the path

the only thing
I always find
is  you

On my way
to you
I lost
myself
in my own life

lying next to you
same bed
still
continents apart


wondering
where your mind travels
and where your heart
lies

Each time  
I reach
for you

I find
an empty
space

You are the man
of my dreams

very well hidden
behind my eyelids

You are the man
of my dreams

who sleeps
next to someone else

Whenever  the world hits me
pushes me to the ground

I escaped to my fantasy land
the promised land


where  I am worthy
of your love