Alone in your presence,
Take me away.
Burning under your touch,
I don’t want to stay.
Living among wolves,
What can I say?
Your grip is so tight,
You **** the light from within.
Your claws are so sharp,
They are piercing my skin.
My voice is gone,
I make no sound.
I’ve searched and searched,
For it cannot be found.
I am trapped,
I can’t breathe-
Your torment is suffocating me.
I need to break away from this
Toxicity.

You’re holding back,
Afraid of effects.
It will never last,
Not if you left.

I know it’s hard,
I’ve felt it too,
I’ve seen your scars,
But I still want you.

Yeah you’ve got problems,
But I’m not counting.
Ignored as I saw them,
But you never found me,

Taking a glance,
Only a peek.
But maybe by chance.
You’ll really see,

I’m not in for the feeling,
Just want you to be loved.
Cause you need the healing,
You need the hugs.

Don’t want the attention,
Unless it’s with you.
Cause you’re who I mention,
You are the glue.

You stick in my mind,
Like a rhyme on repeat,
Love every line,
Just makes me sing.

if i fall in love with you,, your name will forever be embroidered in my mind like that time when you had your first kiss. with someone who wasn't me.

if i fall in love with you,, i will constantly feel the heat rising to my cheeks when i'm not even remotely close to you,, but when you glance in my direction. probably not even looking at me. like when its hot outside and you can feel your whole body getting warm.

if i fall in love with you,, you should feel like you won a prize. no,, a gold medal. because my ******* trust issues barely ever let me trust people meanwhile fall in love with them.

if i fall in love with you,, you should feel like you got the last pretzel at the pretzel stand. because i am someone who doesn't date. who doesn't fall in love. who doesn't like people.

if you fall in love with me,, i won't believe you. because my insecurities come into play. my trust issues come into play. i have so many ******* problems that i'll think that once you see behind the mask i put on,, on. a day to day basis you'll leave me. and i dont need to be left again.

if you fall in love with me. if i fall in love with you. do not use me. do not leave me with no reason behind it. please dont get offended by what i say,, 99.9 percent chance im kidding when i say it.

if you fall in love with me. if i fall i love with you. be loyal. be honest,, even if it hurts. be kind. show sympathy. be a nice person. deal with my sarcasm and bitchiness.  deal with me.

There I was
maybe 2 miles away from home
I could turn back if I wanted to
It wasn't too late
Heart Racing
Palms Sweating
I could turn back I thought
but my legs just kept going
It felt like I had no control over them
They just kept going
then I thought I wanted to go back
but my brain was telling me to run
leave everyone
leave everything
but my heart was telling me to go back
resolve problems and become happy
I still continued to run
Nothing would change my mind
Until my issues were chasing me
Now I'm running from it
Someone help
I can't breathe
There's this cramp in my gut
I can't keep running
I can't
Im not fast enough
I can't escape my problems
I can't hide my fears
Im slowly suffocating
There's no one around to help me
I dont know what to do
I can't run anymore
All my problems are slowly,
painfully,
killing me
no one can save me


but myself

You're the bravest I've ever known
I don't know what's hurting you to moan

When life was a problem, You stood tall
When there is a problem in life, You shall not fall

Stay strong my friend
Hard times are meant for the pain to end