Jun 30 Alec
You look into my eyes
and I allow;
Although I know through it
you look at yours;
I'm nothing but an object:
Something to get what you want.
Never the one desired.
At a loss for words,
Beaten up by distractions.
I'm tired but I can't yield;
The world never cared
for unannounced rejects
like me.
The only way I can escape
is to die.
And I can't change my mind.
I'm sorry.
...the one needed.
  Jun 24 Alec
Yan F
she was dying
out of sobs
to weep for him
while he was running
out of curses
to write for himself
ever found yourself with someone on the same page but of two different books?
  Jun 12 Alec
in a red dress i kissed him
yes, on the lips i touched mine to his
and oh god did sparks fly
and oh god did those embers fall to our
feet and
start a fire that will not
can not die and
my scarlet dress still smells like smoke,
his residual fingers still touching me all over
and he is, and forever will be
my everything,
my North, South, East, and West,
my ocean and my stars and
every grain of sand on the beach
and never will i ever
let him go.
inspired by W.H. Auden, e.e. Cummings, and James Joyce. can you tell i'm in my poetry unit at school??
  Jun 5 Alec
I like to believe I've married all of my past lovers in some
parallel universe
I like to believe that somewhere somehow
our love isn't
  Jun 3 Alec
the physical distance
between you & i
is measured equally
in miles & the love i have
splashing across pages
of love letters, perfumed
sent to your doorstep
indelible, written
to your heart
& full of longing.

fanciful familiarity
the recognition of two ships
passing through life's sea
so dissimilar in origin
we continue on together
trading signals, sharing the sea
& someday we shall embark
hand in hand perhaps
let the ships continue away
enjoy our island for a while

shall reality catch us?
no, i shouldn't think so, for
you have become my reality
waking in the grey dawn
& the arms of my companion
captain of their own ship
collective wealth of the sea
between our tight-clasped hands

married to life, & each other
by the bonds of salt & sunlight
no strings attached,
as there are no needs
the sea provides for you & i
life flowering in the breaths
between our bodies in silence.
a little dream, in verse again.
for mon roi, again.
  Jun 3 Alec
Leviathan Andrew
If I die in a school shooting
I'll never go home again.
My room will sit unused,
A capsule frozen in time,
A snapshot of how I was.

If I die in a school shooting
I'll never see my dog again.
She will sit at the front door
Waiting for me and wondering,
Why I never came home

If I die in a school shooting
I'll never graduate from high school.
My yearbooks will sit stacked
Stopped short of their goal,
Missing years that should have been

If I die in a school shooting
I'll never see my mom again.
She will sit distraught,
Planning a funeral
For a child taken from her.

If I die in a school shooting
I'll never see my friends again.
They'll sit together, missing me.
One empty seat among them,
A constant reminder of their loss

If I die in a school shooting
I'll never see my little sister again.
She will sit through high school
Knowing I can't guide her through,
That she has to figure it out alone

If I die in a school shooting
My school will be stained.
Pools of students lives will sit,
Blood tattoos on the brick structures,
Marks of death ground into it.

If I die in a school shooting
Everyone will wear black.
They'll send their thoughts and prayers
To a town marred by death,
Forever to be the home of a shooting.

If I die in a school shooting
Will the world change?
Or will I become one of hundreds  
Of kids who have to die?
What will it take?

If things continue this way
Children will have to live in fear.
They'll look over their shoulders
Always worried and wondering,
If they'll die in a school shooting.
The state of Florida is now home to the two most deadly mass shootings in American history. Pulse Nightclub was attacked in my city, I have friends who attend Marjory Stoneman Douglas in Parkland. My little sister often fears going to school. I'm afraid to graduate and leave her. I want to be able to protect her if something happens. I hate that we have a reason to be afraid... That it's reasonable to have these fears. I hate it so f*cking much.
  Jun 2 Alec
With skinned knees and cracked palms
I crawled toward you.
With my broken smile in my outstretched hand-
blood mixed with forgiveness.
I begged you to hurt me again.
Because the only way I knew how to feel,
was through the echo of my desperate pleas of "don't ever leave me“
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