You promised to keep all your promises
and it's been a long time since you managed that
You promised to keep fighting for this
and it´s been a long since you took the words back

To hear you voice again was like a glimpse into the past
There's nothing here now that reminds me of you
and I think it´s alright now that we didn´t last
but I still don't like the thought of someone new

You talked about everything you had on your mind
Like you did when I loved you a lifetime ago
So familiar, so safe, yet so different this time
I´ve become a person that you no longer know

and I guess you stopped trying to spare my feelings
After all you let go, our lines no longer cross
I don´t want you anymore but it still stings
When you reach out like this so I remember the loss

There are are things now that I cannot say
It doesn't matter cause in the silence all of us hears
It was so strange to hear your voice today
To think I slept beside you for two years

I´m happy you called, that you haven´t forgotten
But the conversation still made me sad
I can hear in your voice that you're happy again
and she makes it less special the things that we had

You promised to keep all your promises
and it´s been a long time since you managed to
Maybe you shouldn´t promise her so you don´t go amiss
and I´ll try to be happy for you

What a sad creature you are.
Stuck in your ways.
We don't know you well, but you think you know us.
What type of life have you lived that made you this way.
There are people out there that come from broken homes, tortured, and deprived of the necessities to live a healthy normal life and if they do end up escaping their very unfortunate situations they live, they love, although not exactly the same as their more fortunate peers, they live and love life.
And here you are, counting the negatives in your life,
most of which have been self-manifested,
here you are, forgetting to count your blessings; and even disguising some of your blessings with hate and sorrow.

Don't be sorry, change.
Don't be confused, think.
Think about it; what do you get out of chasing the same tail you have been chasing round in circles for all these years?
No, I am not saying you are a dog,
but what I am trying to say is: you are a human, so use the mental capacity that you have to really think about what you're doing, and what you have done; think, and change.

A penny dropped, a pebble thrown, life is full of mistakes,
but in a moment, a pondering moment, blessings they may come.
Live with love, forgive yourself, for all that you have done.

Let it go...

       Let it go...

Everyday, every moment, you have been given a second chance at life, is this how you choose live it?

Dear you.
You have become old,
you can make your own choices,
and no one will be there to stop you.
You have become old
and you have learnt a lot from life.

You have met a lot of people,
different hearts and characters,
and some that you loved a lot,
surely stabbed you at the back.

Some that you believed would never be away from you
were the first to proof what betryal was.
You learnt to love, care and be tolerant.

You learnt how to hate
and dislike,
you took examples from your childhood
and carried them to adolescence,
you vowed never to be like your father
and up until today you are still not like him.

You learnt how to carry you self well in public,
while standing up for yourself.
You led almost every group discussion
and you were always the up-front
person in class,
you forever said your words
and they stuck loud and clear into their hearts.

You became a rebel,
by not doing what the majority did.
You have kept your varginity up until this day,
and no form of drug has ever been diguested into you system.

You stood up against what you knew was wrong,
and you forever made things straight,
you didnt care whatever it took,
even being hated was never at any chance going to stand in your way.

You promiced yourself to be true to your own being,
you kept your diginty,
you left a smile on faces of those who felt secure around you.
You never lost confidence
and you didnt care what people thought about you.

You learnt to love,
accept,
apologise,
and forgive,
and up until this day you have forgave even that sharped knife that cut too deep.

Dear you i wrote this counting down to those few days left before you become a young adult.
I am proud of how you fought through all those trails.
You faced it all,
and no daughts have ever stood in your way.

Yours loving,
most caring,
the only comforter,
the only one that understands you.
The only one to never live your side,
the one that has always felt all the pain when you got hurt.

Yours loving friend...

MYSELF

It’s time now to think again
To revive the past and also to rejuvenate
Time to think again

Let’s give it a second thought
Let's forget and forgive all that what went wrong in the past
It’s time to move ahead from the past into the present
It’s time now to execute in the present.

A desired line of action needs to be followed keeping in mind that everything will fall in the right place at the right moment of time
While doing so it’s important to keep a positive frame of mind.

It’s the urge, the willingness, the passion, the sheer exuberance that counts
It’s the experience that matters
It’s also about learning something new
It's time now to rise after a fall
To forget about the failure from the past and then move ahead to do something new
Definitely it takes a lot of time, but seldom it’s true
Experience is something that each individual should have of his own
Once an individual becomes experienced, then definitely he can cherish the memories and golden moments from the past
Definitely experience comes along with time and the unflinching desire to achieve something in life.

You,

With kindness and patient eyes,
soft of voice and friend by choice, I,

bear the loss of a faded truth between trembling fingers.

Offer them in fear of losing sight of the light,
which cascades from your soul, bubbling gold, shimmering in the gleam of a honey flavored grace,

Barren from a battle fought inwardly,
with the good and bad of me,
the weeping and shouts for joy, in between

         all jagged encounters.

Now, the failed attempts of a dusted dream remain in grid iron cages, fed scraps of a nibbled honesty.

Henceforth, arise
     
       the half baked truth.

Bring about, the nightmare

     dreamt and breathless, frightened and alone.

Release the growling things you were born with. There is a savage sort of joy when the wound drips crimson,
  when the moon hides it's holy eyes,
clouds and thunder amass near the crown of your head, lightning casts the only glimmer in love torn eyes.

A dull roar numbs the senses and savors this empty, this hollow,
    
         this fool. Who dared to care.

Find me knee-deep in saline waters,

as my loneliness howls at the moon,
as my chest heaves and icy winds breathe down my neck,
I succumb to the loss which leaks neath my ribcage.

I will beg every sort of evil to take my life to gift any sort of pain to lessen the one, which I am bound.

Forget the taste, of a mouth full of the words I am not yet ready to sharpen
  
   in the jaws of a sea bred love, I embrace the shadow of my joy. We smile a smile which never reaches the eyes.
Streams flow as the ache grows,
  
    it always grows.


We find ourselves sobbing,
amongst unfamiliar shoulders.


Gift it kisses and well wishes,
present the tears of a broken promise as though it were a most dangerous thing,
shivering at the hell, held within myself
Here I am,
    

       here I stay.


Awaiting my own forgiveness for letting it get this far,






Here is where I lose you.

I know something you don't know
How to succeed another's cruelty
No one has the power to control how a person feels
Let the feeling of hatred and sorrow
Melt away by three words
Find inner peace with the demons of your past
Ruling your life and your every thought
The one way
To shatter another's power over you
I forgive you.