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I couldn't love you
the way
you deserved.

The time was against us
The prophecies were told
too soon
too wrong
to be true
too soon too swift too sorrow; and
I was afraid you couldn't
handle
The Future!

The
Only real voice
The only real vocation
Was of our hearts pleading:
Do - travel together !
Upon this only true Path
I ever knew would

Blossom effervescent joys

Green leaves trembling in cosy warm winds
branches offering us a shadow no matter day
or night or the Moon or this storm or the Sun
who knew no fear
who loved in colours
who to me ~was so dear!

We loved and we dreamed

And we laughed
As children do

Pine sparks burning
Tickling
Each-other's fire-flies

We loved the essence
Of a total freedom
sealed hand in hand. . .

The lovers freedom ~
never forgotten friends
and the trustworthy skies.

Stars were watching over us
and all the clouds ~ were angels of love
landing softly, soft, upon our shoulders
Amor !
Striked us in a cold cold night
Having a silent debate
With giggly winks
and embraced
nonchalances;
pionirs of a
romantic
fresh air;
mountains,
love beams, power steps
sprouts and cosmonauts
of misssed
little
nostalgia

Spinning in a spinn
of you ~ who were me ~ my beloved!
to dance to explore to eternity
hike
paths
together

. . .and i just. . . i just. . .
I couldn't love you
the way
you deserved.

And you knew She'd be more loved
With us, happier within our arms
To hold you
To hold
. . .
Our extraordinary Love

Love found
Us ~ a miracle in the old city lights
by my friend's mirage music collection
Under those lovely archaic stone arcs
You wrote to me on a little paper
A word I had to solve
I wrote: after. . . .
And we found each other!

I've made mistakes
This is true
But have you seen
What I've been through?
I need some time, some space
To clear my heart.

Never did I think
that Love could ****
But there I lay

I need to create who I am,
But you wont give me the chance.
You don't understand that
The games you play
Are driving me away.

I need to forgive myself
But you're making that hard
And I can't seem-to catch my breath.

I'm not a broken toy
I'm the same as I always been
with just a few scars
That tell a story
You're too afraid...**to experience.

I have to say goodbye to children I never even got to greet
And let go of somebody so dear before we'd got the chance to meet

I need to rethink all the decisions that I swore I would pursue
But, in doing so, I have to also close the door on birthing you

I don't know if I could ever gather the words to express my woe
Because my body will change and it will then refuse to let you grow

My heart will break and it will not return to its original self
And, although you'll certainly forgive me, I shall not forgive myself

Float on lifeless vessel, I’m afraid I must jump ship.
Everything I’ve ever done, ever suffered
has lead straight to this.

Every story they will sing will be of sorrow and of doubt
but this was never about taking the easy way,
this was just about getting out.

I’ve lived so long in regret of moments that fleeted all too soon
that my head has become crowded with all the broken memories
and now there’s just no room.

I can’t exist beside them for any longer, not for one more day.
So I’ll deliver my bones unto the river and
let the current carry my conscience away.