Dear Mom and Dad,
Forgive me for I have forgotten what it's like to wake up to both of your smiles.
Forgive me for I still hate the sound of your endless bickering.
Forgive for I don't try hard enough.
Forgive for I am tired.
Forgive me for I live out of a backpack.
Forgive me for you no longer sleep under the same roof.

Dear Brother,
Forgive me for I don't want you to leave.
Forgive me for I don't open up to you.
Forgive me for you have to wipe away my salty tears.
Forgive me for you have to be strong for the both of us.  

Dear Best Friends,
Forgive me for I am too close to your boyfriend.
Forgive me for I don't believe your crush will ever like you.
Forgive me for I ignore you when you talk about leaving.
Forgive me for I don't talk to you anymore.
Forgive me for I am selfish.

Dear crush,
Forgive me for I like you.
Forgive me for I think of you.
Forgive me for I make fun of you and tease you.
Forgive me for I admire your soft lips.
Forgive me for I stare at you.
Forgive me for I want to feel love.

Dear Others,
Forgive me for I am Myself.
Forgive me for I hate the way I look.
Forgive me for I get sad.
Forgive me for I disagree with people.
Forgive me for I like to dance.
Forgive me for I like to write.
Forgive me for I like to read.
Forgive me for I complain.
Forgive me for I am Human.

Forgive me for being happy
Forgive me for not wallowing in my misery
Forgive me for being in love
Forgive me for now bowing humbly.
Forgive me for being honest
Forgive me for seeing through your lies
Forgive me for crying
Forgive me for asking why.
Forgive me for speaking up
Forgive me for acting out
Forgive me for maturing quickly
Forgive me for having doubt.
Forgive me for being paranoid
Forgive me for laughing at you
Forgive me for being there
Forgive me for expecting you to.
Forgive me for having a will
Forgive me for being strong
Forgive me for being human
Forgive me for being wrong.
Forgive me for being strange
Forgive me for being right
Forgive me for being broken
Forgive me for putting up a fight.
Forgive me now or forever hold your peace
Because I won't wait around
Not for you, at least.

Please forgive the lies.
Those lies you realized were real lies in your eyes, that look at my eyes that cries.
Please forgive my tick, my tick that flicks when you click my impatience.
Please try to forgive the tears I cried, my hands tied down to the chair of my stupidness.
Forgive me for the different masks I've worn because I was born with a face torn..
Please, forgive me for looking at that mirror
Glaring
Staring
Preparing, to attack and smack
Break this make-up of me and off my face.
Forgive those scars across my heart that left marks on my inner wrists, forgive my fists that ball,
hit walls and doors to settle the score between love and hate.
Please forgive me for wasting your time, I'm fine. That line, like the line you wait behind dozens of people who I've said that to.. please forgive me when you tell me "I'm beautiful" because the thought of me possibly, being pretty, is new to me.
Forgive me when I say I'm lonely or feeling alone because I only have myself in my mind
and behind the door of thoughts are secrets kept, sept underneath the rug if uncertainty.
Insecurities, get the best of me,
Forgive my darkness
Forgive my awkwardness
Forgive my serial killer mentality, hunting down, killing off my confidence and any compliments I receive.
I enjoy bringing myself to low points
And at this point, I need a new point. A hight point. And the distance between my low point and my high point is a long line of self awareness and weakness.
I digress, my progress is better, my confidence is higher, I guess..
You'll be impressed with what you don't know,
What you should know,
But what I don't show.
My confusing image of myself
"Love thy self"
Lord please forgive me for I have sinned.
Trying to die earlier than intended is a sin.
Trying to force pain amongst my body is a sin.
Please forgive my dark thoughts, my depressed ways.
Forgive those who attempt the same attempts  i attempt.
Forgive those who drag themselves to the ground, buried underground with tomb stones above their heads.
Forgive the knives they used to bleed out their tears and sadness.
Forgive the pills that sit in the stomach of the people lying on the bathroom floor unaware of their scared mothers faces.
Forgive the flowers you place in front of their grave of hopefulness buried with terrible self consciousness.
Please forgive me when I say, please don't delay, but I really can't stay..