You can't see me,
You can't hear me,
It's a shell of a happier person I used to be.

I am trapped in my own mind,
The walls are crumbling,
But I'm still chained,
The chains are weak,
But I'm still stuck,
because I am afraid.

The walls are collapsing,
The roof is caving in,
Under the crushing weight of anxiety and depression.
I am afraid I am going to be crushed,
But I won't leave,
I am even more afraid of the outside

I don't want to be seen or heard.
I don't want to trap you with me.
I am dying,
You don't know,
I am dying.
But you are happy.

So I can be
fine.

I laugh,
I smile,
I play,
I don't feel it,
Any of it,
I am afraid I'm dying,
Slowly,
I am fading away,
Slowly,
I am numb to any joy,
I scream,
I cry,
I fall apart,
Slowly,
But you are numb when I do,
You don't see it,
You don't hear it,
I am dying,
Slowly,
And you won't remember me.

Our love is fading


Once upon a time we were so in love,
But then we discovered the true person before us.
We have realized the person in whom we had put our trust,
Was not the person we thought they were
And now we have had enough.


We can no longer put up with their bad habits;
We have decided the time has come to say, that’s it; I’ve had it!
No more of your selfish, annoying actions and other things.
I can no longer be with you,
Because of the way you always leave me feeling.


At the beginning of love, the sun shines daily,
But sooner or later the sun starts to fade.
The happiness we felt is not all that it could be,
Now our love is dying before our eyes; these are our dying days.


We both decided to stick it out and try to see if it worked,
But it never does, time and time again; it just becomes worse.
We desperately clung on hoping things would improve,
But inside, unfortunately for us, we both knew the truth.
We just can’t put up with them anymore,
So we decide to leave and love is no more, as we walk out of the door.


Our love is fading away and there is nothing we can do;
But still in our hearts we both know,
I love you.


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I hate being alone.
I start to pull my hair out,
I see things,
I go insane.
Little by little.
Cut by cut.
Blink by blink.
Breath by breath.
Being alone, is my worst fear.

Deathbed


When we are old and youth is in their hands,
I will be with you; heed my plans,
For I have waited for a lifetime,
To sit with you inside the sunshine.


I have since long ago dreamed of your love.
My wife of all time, my future and past,
My present and my bride in the above.
The two of us shall be sat on the swinging bench,
As our children play with their children,
While others sing.
The music and laughter will be with me,
After I am taken away into the everlasting.


I have long since dreamed of a life-time love,
Yet too long has love been waiting to hug.
The love of my life, the twine that binds,
My hand in your hand throughout my life.
As I say my final goodbyes,
There is water in your eyes,
But do not cry, I had a life,
And as my daughters stand hand in hand with their husbands and wives,
And their children smile and wave me goodbye,
I wipe the tears from their eyes with a smile.


I tell them each I love you too,
Each and every one of you,
More than you will ever know;
But now is the time that I must go.


Upon this deathbed I lay with the love of my life.
Her head upon my chest, never ready to say goodbye.
I whisper you gave me all I could ever want,
So lift your head up and look into my eyes,
Before long I will be gone.


I have loved you all ways.
I will love you beyond the grave,
And I will love you when there are no birds singing in the sky,
For the time has come for the silence to reign.


I love you more, she says,
With a knowing smile,
A perfect private joke.
A smile on a face
And finally,
I love you,
Goodbye…

And then going up in smoke…


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