I fear the words left behind,
I fear the wrongs left to right,
I hate the lies left from my kind,
I hate the days beyond the night.
More so than this, I can’t describe,
The life which died before my scribe.
Beyond the days that disappear,
Beyond all natural things I fear,
I can’t explain what can’t be known,
For it just wasn’t left to be shown.

it’s hard
to hear you
brushing against
sleeves so thin

empty bites
ringing through
the silence
of wasting hips

i’m too scared
if i reach out
your frame will
dissipate

flee through skin
translucent
taking too much
...space

You disappeared.
I thought I was to be invited to a funeral.
But I would never attend.
Because I would have already gone.

Some days...
           I just want to disappear. I want to crawl into the earth and hug the  
           ground around me like a blanket and be unseen, be swallowed up
           by mother nature.

Some days....
          I want to scream- "I am MORE."  I am more than you see. I want to
          beg someone- anyone- to see all of me, to really know me, and to
          accept me as I am- not how they'd wish me to be.

Some days...
          I want to let out the rage within me. To pound my fists against the
          pain until they are ****** and unrecognizable. I want to scream and
          cry and rage and hurt and let out the anger about what was done to
          me. I want to yell that I am no longer afraid, I will no longer hide my
          anger and turn it inward. I want to unleash the fury that lives in my
          heart, turn it against the ones who deserve it.

Broken Soul-

The pain I feel can never be lifted.
The needs my heart hungers for no
man could ever possibly provide.

Suffering inside with no light at
the end of the tunnel, no hope to
find a way to mend all that is
broken within.

So I sit in constant darkness,
filled with feelings of eternal
hopelessness and fear.

Just waiting for the day it
shall all come to an end.
When I will finally be able
to forever leave and just
simply disappear.

Lopez ©reationz  2009

The absence of feeling is what I have
The tears just wont flow
The words just wont form
The emptiness she gave me
Is the emptiness she had
The pain we never saw
Until she went away
And now we are left
With questions that don't have answers
And stories that don't have ends
Because she truly wanted to disappear
And she didn't wish to be found