was i blind?
was i a fool?
or what if im both?

i am blind for believing that
your heart is only beating for me

i am a fool for pretending that i am fine but in reality,
i am nowhere near to being alright

i am blind for closing my eyes avoiding the sight
of your eyes sparkles the moment you saw her smile

i am a fool for risking my heart get wounded
with thorns of roses you held the night we met

how many more ***** should i take?
just to make this pain go away

how many more books i have to read?
just to distract myself to bleed

how many more places should i go?
just to guide my heart to the right path i follow

how many more nights i have to cry?
just to wipe all the tears at the end of the day

how many more mornings should i wake?
just to embrace my heart so it won't break

how many more days i have to survive?
just to keep bresthing but pretend  to be alive

tightly hold my hand,
let's go somewhere far away
just like neverland

and after a while of being isolated with the world
someone managed to sway her heart unexpectedly
he came into her life without a single warning
now, she is trapped in a place where fantasy exist

she is hesitant and doubtful of her own feelings
questioning herself if he is worth the pain and risks
days have turned into weeks and from weeks, it turned into months
he never failed to show that he is sincere enough of what he feels

they are two worlds apart but she feels connected to him
her place that was once a fantasy became a reality
hand in hand, they watch the sunset by the seashore
and finally, she found a home where she truly belongs

your hands in mine,
send shivers to my spine.

your sweet smile,
makes butterflies go wild.

the way you make me laugh,
always makes my day chuffed.

the way you talk about the things you love,
sways my heart like you're sent from above.

your lips against mine,
stops the world just in time.

your arms wrap around me,
feels like i found home in thee.

near or far, my heart
will always be yours to hold
handle it with care

there are some things
that i just cannot tell
anyone about.
they are meant
to be concealed,
to be mine
and kept unknown forever
but i do not know
and certainly not sure
what to do with them
anymore.

Where are you?
Are you okay?
How have you been?
I miss you but do you miss me too?

All these questions I want to ask are buried now that you're no longer by my side.

What should I do?
Do I have to let go of you?
Is my heart ready to move on?
Am I happy knowing that you're gone?

My mind, my heart. They're in constant debate. It's making me confused more and more as the questions and worries keeps twirling around my head making me feel dizzy and tired.

But at the end of the day, I still choose to stay.

I am not Cinderella,
but you didn’t get tired looking for me.

I am not Snow White,
but to you, I am the fairest of them all.

I am not Jasmine,
but you showed me your whole new world.

I am not Rapunzel,
but you are there to support all of my dreams.

I am not Belle,
but you admire my intelligence.

I am not Ariel,
but you overlooked my clumsiness.

I am not Aurora,
but you are always there to save me.

I am not Mulan,
but you are there encouraging me that I can do it all.



I am not a princess,
but you treated me more than
what a princess should be treated.

i shut my eyes
close and
whispers to my
heart saying,
"please don't fall
in love with a
person who doesn't
see himself with
you in the future."

I've been writing about you;
Thinking about you;
But did your pen dance on the paper with the howl I made?
Did its ink ever spill words
for the pain I bleed?

Did I even cross your mind?

Did I even made your butterflies
go wild?

Did I?

im
a
lost
star
in
the
night
sky
finding
its
way
to
light up
in
the
darkest
day

i hope the sky will constantly remind you of me

she gave her best
but it wasn't enough
she gave her everything
still, it wasn't enough


her trust got destroyed
her heart got broken
all that she have
is totally shattered

i look for you
in crowded places
but all i can see
are unknown faces
wondering where you are
maybe you're somewhere far
even now i'm feeling blue
you don't even have a clue
keeping our memories together
though i can't have you forever

it's a cold winter night
another struggle i need to fight
how long do i need to survive
without you by my side

stars are scattered on the sky
reminiscing as the time goes by
i smile to myself as i realize
i've been strong after my sacrifice

every minute have passed,
memories are buried in the past,
but feelings keeps lingering through my veins,
a pang inside of my chest i know it's pain.

When you finally overlook flaws, you will find true love.

It's terrifying that I still care.

Right man at a wrong time.

...you know that the sparks that once bind you are slowly fading away.

...you feel like he is not the same man you fell in love with before.

...you feel that the love is not there anymore.

...you feel that you're falling out of love already.

...you see him happy with another girl, when it's supposed to be you.

...you feel that you're just another option to him.

and when you realize that you've sacrificed so much for him but he doesn't seem to appreciate.

I'm completely nothing compared to her...

I know I’ve been
a handful person,
a mess
and a pain in the ***.

You know that
I’ve been through a lot
and keeping my guard up
for a lot of reasons.



*but please.. don’t let me go.

I'm tracing your name again
On a sheet leading to wonderland
No wonder I never get enough
The guy who caused me such pain

Your existence still lurks on my mind
No wonder I'm thinking about you
Everywhere I go, your scent is there
Everywhere I hide, your voice calls me

My heart is still aching every night
But you are the only one I yearn for
Those embrace that's keeping me sane
No wonder I'm still in love with you

Been holding this rope of forever..

but every grip I do,
I get wounded.
I get broken.

Should I give up or keep on holding?

**No one knows.

You were once my poetry
with every word describing you
but now you’re no longer a part of it
you’re now a masterpiece I never knew I’d write