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1.9k · Jun 2020
To your Deserve
Samantha Babe Jun 2020
I was the sunshine that they called
In a call, I would be there
In smiles, I could share laughter
In cries, I would be willing to be your shoulder
Everything you expected would be my pleasure
Even in hearts, I would be at my best
Time can be my friend
In every seconds, I would make it count just to be with you
Cause that is the right thing, right?
When everybody seems to disagree
You can count on me
I would never fail you
Even if it is too much sometimes
Like a suffocation in a sleep
I woke up like feeling nothing from the night
But ****, that's not even appropriate!
I'm a slave to someone's emotion
I look highly to people without looking my own
They're already stabbing my back
Their favors that I was so blind were just a gratification to their selfish needs
With the smiles they show was a lure
All they had to do was to pick me in their convenience
I had a purpose according to them
I was the cheerleader.
But I woke up
After all this time, I know how to get tired of everyone
The sunshine is now a cloud
Sometimes in vast colors, sometimes in hard pouring rain
I was greatly unfair to my younger self
But it's not too late to walk away
Cause what is important is that you have woke up from blindness
And to know what is really you deserve for the world.
This is dedicated to the people who used & maltreated us, took us for granted and so unreal to our genuinity.
942 · Feb 2018
You're my Home
Samantha Babe Feb 2018
I was just a lone star from the dense gas clouds collapsed. Enough to ignite & produce light. It was my birthplace. But i saw your light and we assemble. Then we became the galaxies. Now, I'm placed. I'm home.
623 · Jan 2021
Haven
Samantha Babe Jan 2021
I was a clouded soul
When you met me at your lows
Together we fought for our highs
Now look where we got
In paradise
Sipping every glass

Tide changes, we both know
You came hugging with the waves
And we land on the sand
Locking our hands
Eyes in heaven

I know sad days come and go
But I just want to get through it
As long as never leaving each other
Unbreaking hearts
It will be alright baby
When we got each other
496 · Feb 2019
Oath by the ruins
Samantha Babe Feb 2019
I was in the search
Of high hopes and fancy
Then I found you
In a somber chasm
And I let my self fall
To seek in too deep
To have a shelter
And to drown with your love
For a time
The emptiness was filled
A leap of joy
Was in the faith's hands
But the current
Was waving too strong
Your love, your love
I still tried to hold
But the water's through me
Choked by this illusory
While you watched me in a distant
I cried with the sea
All these concepts
Had deteriorated my being
But I had to search the air
To right back up
And to keep me breathin'
I found my amnesty
In the high ruins
And I swear an oath
That I will never ever
Love that would lead me to death
470 · Oct 2017
Contrast
Samantha Babe Oct 2017
We are complete strangers.
Both broken from sad realities.
Dressed in character just for bravery's sake.
Complementing the different views.
He's in the pit of hopelessness.
I, finding the light of the dark abyss.
He accepted fate.
I, believing change will come.
He's dead inside and
I, wanna save him.
446 · Sep 2017
Points Of View
Samantha Babe Sep 2017
I am in love. He is in love.
I am friends with him. He is friends with me.
We laughed to our favorite things.
I looked at him. He looked at her.
I walked with him. He talked about her.
I silence. He cheered me up.
I gained hope. He told me stop.
I confessed. But all he can say was sorry.
I cried. He don't give a ****.
443 · Sep 2017
The Impossibility Of Us
Samantha Babe Sep 2017
We knew each other like our souls were intertwined. Like we were born from the old age of romantics. Like past lovers continuing their love story at this age.
  All of our deep talks connected with our beliefs. Every lines we took, sparks cast beneath our silhouettes when we embrace twilight. And when our eyes met, it feels like the stars has got to it's places- the sense of belongness.
    The universe made a deal and wanted us to be together. Because, we were above meant to each other.
   But when everything was beautiful, you backfired. Telling me you can't go on. Telling me that we were meant to each other but not being together. You don't visualized the things happening around. You don't have our world. Because for you, it was all just talk of the things. Our love, it was unrequitted after all.
422 · Apr 2018
Love Alone
Samantha Babe Apr 2018
I never wanted anything.
But let me do this thing. I've been thinking through the sleepless nights. Tainting you at my mind is never a nothing. This is something I must not neglect for. I have to label what is this feeling. That these happiness and sadness aren't blankness of love. I confess. That I have feelings on you. And if something hinders you, I will still never leave your side.
My love doesn't need a price to get. Just let me love you alone.
410 · Sep 2020
afternoon confession
Samantha Babe Sep 2020
In the inch of despair
In the reach of the hands
The naked truth lies
The ray touches your back

You, against the light
Is the life I will live for
Grateful to someone ♥️
404 · Jan 2018
Lights Out of Love
Samantha Babe Jan 2018
He said I'm the antidote of sadness.
I was a ray of sunshine for him.
But when it's my turn to be sad, he back out and saying "I'm sorry I don't know how to keep your light back."
That was the day I shut my light and never knew how to get it back.
Samantha Babe Jul 2018
I had you somewhere outside
We were so near to each other like never before
I talked to you on not giving up
Then you said to me not to let go
The skyscrapers  around us were breaking and falling
I was scared
Then I went to your back and you grabbed my hands
You let me hugged you
We were too proximate
Together we faced the end of time
As soon as we saw the end light, we went back to the beginning
It was just a bright light
But then I woke up, it was just only a dream
A dream that tore my heart
A dream that slap to my reality
Why?
Because the truth is, we have broken up
The dream is the opposite of our decision
Cause in reality, we didn't fight for our love
We never faced the falling world of us And that dream is a reminder of our shortcomings
And a reminder of what should have been done to save us.
386 · Sep 2017
Evolution
Samantha Babe Sep 2017
Her life was set for art. But when she set it to someone else, she bid goodbye to the colors and welcomed darkness.
369 · Feb 2018
Turning point
Samantha Babe Feb 2018
It is now the ending
Goodbye to our tale
Where the story's sad
When love was just what we had

I take back the reality
Where I don't know you
Cause in that dimension
We lack vitality
363 · Nov 2017
Untitled
Samantha Babe Nov 2017
You were my twilight sky. I would sit at the edge and stare just right at your beautiful colors please to give me life.
But darkness creeps, fading the colors. It's the time to let go of the past and embrace the new. The night has come and so my fear. I faced my bravery in restoration of the colors. Instead, I saw stars twinkle on the dark sky. They were lovely to gaze.
That's to say about your coming. You came into my life with that darkness on you. I have questioned everything about you. But when you let your guards down, I realize you were beautiful. Because of your brokeness, that even makes you interesting. You shine with the stars that I look upon. I love the absence of colors for the darkness with its star's shine is making it more dreamy. And the night sky is you, my new life.
358 · Sep 2017
Dates
Samantha Babe Sep 2017
I don't know why I keep memorizing those dates when I was at my highest or lowest by the days I spent with you. After all, those memories are remainders.
I will just wait for the day till I can not recall those dates. For I believe it's starting to fade away.
352 · Nov 2017
Prospective
Samantha Babe Nov 2017
We are heading to take the world before us. We fly with the clouds beneath us and you sleep in my shoulder even if you get the best spot to see the clouds. We step on the foreign road for the first time in our lives. Running like captives freed from daunty years of imprisonment. We take each restaurants feeling fancy in eating. We spot places, re-enacting famous scenes in TV series, movies and dramas. We dance with the people on the street, overflowing the happiness as if its our last. We look on the remarkable sight with our breathe highly satisfied and just wish nothing ever more. We are living the culture of different places even if we look ridiculous on our actions. The laugh and the liveliness hailed the evening.
As we called it a night, we reflect with the peace of the city; sitting and facing the overlooking view of a strange but beautiful place. We looked each other and believing our mind's thinking the same way. I hope you are happy being with me. Because being with you is far beyond I ever prayed for. Our time before we met was dull and miserable. Now that we have found each other, I just wish you would look on this happiness and may relive you forever. I'm happy taking chances of the world with you. Goodbye to the sad tales.
340 · Jul 2018
Honestly
Samantha Babe Jul 2018
We said it was a mistake. We agreed to end it. But, I'm sorry. I lied.
I have love you honestly . I could be someone that I'm not. It's not that I'm alienated by my true  self, it's just that there was a better version of me when I'm with you.
I have love you honestly . I could listen to your nerdy talks all the night and stare right just your face. I could laugh out of seriousness because you're pretty amazing.
I have love you honestly. When we walk, I would placed my self in your left side and you would be confused.  Because I kept saying it's my angle. But I jut want to stare you in right phase.
I have love you honestly. When someone interrupted our eat, our eyes just managed to laugh in secrecy.
I have love you honesty. When I told you I don't want to stop, you wipe away my tears even if I hate it.
I have love you honestly. To the point I'm fine being broken by the honesty of your words.
I have love you honestly. For I agreed to end the love that you thought it was a mistake but for me, it was a challenge that we should take upon.
Honestly, I don't want to admit my honesty. Cause what's the point if I hold onto you when you see our love as hopeless as ever could be. Cause honestly, I love you, enough to swallow my pride for our goodbye.
314 · Apr 2018
12:33 Thoughts
Samantha Babe Apr 2018
I traced back where we just sat in our places. Every letter gave life to the loneliness that's been surrounding in our world. We find hope without expectations. Love was never our line. And now, where is this now? We got lost. We find way back to the dark hole. Do we really love each other? Cause I'm confuse and I have doubts.
303 · Nov 2017
Confession
Samantha Babe Nov 2017
You see? You love her.
When her heart was build with stones while you were a demon slowly becoming an angel.
But her walls were too high.
You loose hope and an angel reached out on you telling "Would you runaway from sadness?"
Then you walked away from the stone walls and renewed.
Her, had seen everything.
She was on the top of her castle, waiting for you to profess.
But you were already happy.
And she kept building her walls higher and higher.
Regrets have resented her.
Cause you see? He love you.
273 · Jan 2018
Question
Samantha Babe Jan 2018
How many goodbyes must I do to be finally a goodbye?
264 · Jan 2018
Too Late, Denial
Samantha Babe Jan 2018
It all happened unexpectedly.
My sad soul intertwines to yours.
Late night realism let us sleep happily
Cause we've been freed from broken hours.

You were the commonplace.
The new and bright haven I could confess.
But my heart impedes,
You need to be displaced.

My heart justified with my mind.
You were just a curiosity to be answered.
But when I saw your soul blossomed not to mine,
I confessed to myself that I have loved you, honestly.
216 · Nov 2018
Love harming
Samantha Babe Nov 2018
The sharpest knife
Was a hunter of life
Never thought my grave need
Would turn to be a bleed

That weapon cut deep
But don't let the unsaid ones keep
Cause it was painful
When I thought our love was beautiful

And you left like a shadow
In a perfect mess with just a single blow
How hard was it to say at the beginning?
When the truth was you didn't really love me in the ending.
214 · Sep 2020
Black Mind
Samantha Babe Sep 2020
My bed's getting colder
And so with the people I know
I hardly remember the warmth
All I can do is worry
It's not the same anymore
When you're stuck, you're not trying
Standing still when your world's moving
Crying in the dark corners, can't bear this feeling
I never felt so alone & lonely
I'm scared when no one's talking to me
Cause I can't trust myself when talking alone
I'm tired of always being available to some
Dried up from giving the energy
Wish I could love myself even more
Cause everyday feels like a punishment
What has left on me?
The negativity?
The anxiety?
Because I'm no more the things I used to love.
When days are hard
162 · Aug 2020
Chronicle
Samantha Babe Aug 2020
Long walls
Cold air in September
The gaze of familiarity
Thought of this could be something

In silent proximity, exchanged smiles
A playground on the afternoon
It was still young
Unsure of what's after

But all I know was that
This could be not nothing
The Christmas songs in our ears
Telling love was on the way

Autumn's falling
The setback's been witnessed
But world's making a small circle
Near you to me
Finding each other's warmth

A paradise has been promised
In stolen nights
In hurtful sleeps
The whispers of " I'm here" gives shiver

This empire that's been made
Thrown with rocks and bullets
Losing was what they want
This was as cold as the breeze

But in a hopeless 6 pm
I wished to fight in unfair
In a gastly prison cell, breathing was not easy
A hope on somedays & to live in spring

But time has passed
In dusky floor, looking back
Head on the neck, hand on the hand
In peace, in our little world shining

Autumn, Christmas breeze are on their way
No more long walls, vacant hearts
The sun is ours, moon's our light
Everyday is a life
Tomorrow is a promise
That jaded hearts now beating
Hopeful of lifetime
141 · Mar 2020
Testament
Samantha Babe Mar 2020
I thought I was in a secured place where my heart's locked up. I thought I had everything cause I have something to hold. I stopped looking & dreaming. But just when I'm not trying to force the world, something came up. Everything seems random. I never asked the universe for I just needed to be alive. In my steps, I was unknowingly making an exchanged to the world. In a gaze of strange, my life was set to the great unknown and my fate was in marks.

You came...like a fine line of shooting star or like the Orion's belt constellation that's been looking for me in the night sky. You made sure that I'm fine, safe & sound. You asked what makes me happy in this world because you read the sadness behind my past- a face of fear, of anxiety & pain. You lifted me in my doubtful moments. You understood me at my lowest. You believed at me when I'm not at my best. You made sure I deserve to be loved where anybody else aren't capable of handling the unpredictable, unstable & crazy me.

Then you dream the world with me even if we lived in a life that was unfair & cruel for the both of us. Seems like you were the sky and I was the ocean that never meets & separated by these man-made spaces.

But no matter how much we were getting, we believed to the make-through. Where freedom is in your edge & I will be right there waiting in a beautiful sunset sky.

Now, we watch away our journey to the sea of cries. You held my hand & together we laugh for what we become. I look now in your eyes with a sense of security & contentment. You here with me fighting for years just to be at this very circumstance, to arrive at this very moment of time.
The universe conspired our story years ago. Finally we will be making our dimension. Where our world together built in love and tested through the signs of time.
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